The Arrangement Factor (ARRANGEMENT SERIES #1)

Chapter 86

Alex's POV

The entire year unfolded seamlessly.

My desire for Sarah intensifies with each touch, I can't keep my hands away from Sarah. An insatiable longing that grows stronger. Our connection has thrived, and I've introduced her to new experiences, positions, and some basic toys meant to enhance her pleasure. However, I tread carefully, always cautious not to push her boundaries or cause any harm.

The only problem is that the people in this house constantly need her, even the fucking chef and maids. How the hell were they managing before her? I constantly urged her to shift to a quieter space with no interruptions, where I could have her all to myself. Despite my seriousness, she dismisses the suggestion with laughter, thinking it's a joke. But I genuinely crave her exclusive presence, every fucking moment of every day.

While searching for some documents in my closet, I stumbled upon her first Christmas gift – the letters jar. Realizing there were two letters I hadn't read, labeled "LOVE" and "HATE," I opted for the former. Love is the only sentiment I harbour for her, and I hope I never reach the last letter, for I could never truly hate her, no matter the circumstance.

I can never actually hate her even if she comes and murders me cold-blooded. I remember reading other letters somewhere along the line, some due to I was feeling the emotions mentioned and some because I just wanted to read them or feel her emotions for me.

Opening the "LOVE" letter, my heart swelled with warmth as I read about her feelings when she believed I didn't love her back.

My Dearest Alex,

I feel compelled to express what has resided in my heart for the longest time. These words may fall short of conveying the depth of my feelings, but I want you to know that I love you more than words can express.

Since our first meeting, my life has undergone a remarkable transformation in the most incredible ways. Your care has been a guiding light, illuminating even the darkest corners of my existence. It's a love that defies reason, blossoming even when I couldn't comprehend how someone as wonderful as you could even like someone like me.

I want you to understand that my love for you is boundless, limitless, and everlasting. I love you, not because I expect you to love me back in the same way, but because your existence, your smile, and your touch, bring happiness to my life that I cherish above all else. It's a love that transcends conditions, a love that doesn't ask for anything in return.

If you were to ever doubt, or if the world conspired against us, know that I would continue to love you. My love isn't conditional, my dear. It's steadfast and unwavering, a beacon of warmth and devotion that I offer without hesitation. Your happiness means more to me than anything else, and if you find it in your heart to love me as I love you, it would be a blessing I would cherish my entire existence.

With you, I've found my sanctuary, my confidant, and my partner in this incredible journey called life. I'll strive to be all that you need, to offer you my love, support, and companionship without hesitation, for I believe that my love is enough for both of us.

Please remember that no matter what challenges we face or where life leads us, my love for you will remain a constant, an unchanging force that will always find its way to you.

With all my love and unwavering devotion,

Sarah.

I revisited all the other letters, smiling at each one, recalling the emotions of those initial readings. Some were joyous, while others reflected on truly somber days, moments I yearned to change but had no control over. The Hate letter remained unread, sitting inside the jar. Although I knew I would never need to read it out of emotion, curiosity got the better of me. Reading it only absolutely crushed me and deepened my love for this beautiful soul. How could I have not realized my love for her sooner? How could I have been so blind to ever hurt her? My love for her grows with each passing second.