Actor, 𝕭𝖆𝖓𝖌 𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖓 [UNDEREDITING]

29 ; Actor

We were too giddy to speak full words to each other on the way back to my apartment. We were giggling in my car, and trying to listen to music to calm ourselves. I was driving quite fast, and Chan would place his hand on my thigh after dancing to certain songs, and it would lead us back into a circle of giggling and giddiness. 

As I parked in the underground car park, we got out quickly. We kind of made eye contact before subconsciously racing each other to the elevator up. We were just giggling together, like the rush of feeling love like little kids. It was funny, exciting and finally, I felt like I could let go a little bit and be the young adult I was who found lots of things funny. Chan was laughing so much, his eyes were small and shimmering in the light.

"What are we laughing at?" Chan asked, "I forgot."

"I dont think we were laughing at anything specific..." I giggled and we fell in to another fit of laughter.

As soon as the elevator came to my apartment floor, we pushed each other lightly all the way to the door. I opened the front door, the sounds of our giggling echoing into my apartment as we pushed ourselves in. I kicked my shoes off, and watched as Chan quickly kicked his shoes off too. I watched as he tried to make them neat by my door to be respectful to my property, but I pulled his head up by his chin.

"I don't want to make a mess-"

I kissed him. I pulled him into me, and we tumbled slightly over the messy shoes by the door. I giggled against his lips, and I lead us slowly towards my bedroom. Our lips were locked, moving together like we were dying. Chan was stealing my breath like it gave him life. It was so breath-taking, I could barely keep up with Chan's passionate lip biting. I couldn't help with the sound that came from my body when Chan's teeth gently pulled my bottom lip towards him.

I opened my eyes, to see Chan's devilish smile as he sucked on my bottom lip. It was heavenly, the sight, how close he was to me, the feeling of his breath mixing with mine. It was clear he was taking the lead, and I was completely putty in his hands. He pushed us through my bedroom door, without pulling away.

My hand playing with the back of his hair, pulled him closer if it was even physically possible. I could feel his roaming hands trying to pull me closer too. Every inch of my body cold feel his, and the warmth he was emitting. I could feel my energy depleting, my lips struggling to keep up with his.

He moved down from my lips, and started nibbling on the skin of my neck. The sensitive skin being nibbled on, made some questionable noises come from my lips. It was the first time I had ever been through such an experience, and it was making me incredibly flustered. I was glad it was Chan.

He came back to kiss my lips again, this time, it was softer and more loving. A calm after the storm type of kiss. I held him close, pouring all of my loving into the kiss. I wanted my soul to pour out and reach his. I wanted him to know that I was really happy with this, with him, and I would be honoured to be beside him for a long time. I have known this for a long time, that Chan was the one I wanted to go after, and I wanted him to know that I could be that person for him.

"Rain-ah..." Our foreheads were leaning against each other, a thin layer of flustered sweat covering both of us.

I giggled again. The kiss had been the only thing to break the chain of constant giggles we had, and now that we we breathing each other in, the same giddiness of our new found relationship was bubbling up again. Chan smiled as I poked his sides lightly with excitement.

"That was a first for me." I admitted, but I wasn't nervous or anything about it. I felt safe with Chan, safe enough to admit the things that might be a little embarrassing for a 20 year old. 

Chan chuckled, and we moved from one another. I looked at Chan, unsure of how to go about doing normal people things after kissing away about 5 years of my lifespan. I just watched him as he began taking his coat off and placing it on my desk chair. He looked at me for a few seconds, and all I could do was smile sheepishly. I mean, how do people move on from things like that?

He chuckled at my state, and came over to help me take off my jacket too. I just let him, almost stuck in a trance. He placed my jacket down, and pecked my lips again. I could feel that they were swollen slightly every time his lips touched mine, but I was in a state of absolute bliss.

"Are you okay Rain-ah?" He asked, his voice soft as the night become darker...

"Yeah hyung. I feel pretty good." I said with a drunk smile.

"Yeah? Me too." Chan chuckled and smushed my cheeks together with his warm palms, "Do you want to get ready for bed?"

I nodded, "I have work tomorrow, but...I'll make us breakfast if you'll stay hyung?"

I wanted him to stay for the night. I wanted him to sleep in my bed again, but this time, I want us to snuggle together where I can hear him breath softly as he dreams. I want to watch him for a little while as we fall asleep in each other's arms.

"What will you make me?" Chan smiled and I smiled knowing he was going to stay the night and let me cook breakfast for him tomorrow morning. 

"What do you want to eat in the morning?" I asked him, as I got changed in to some pyjamas and handing Chan some that are too big for me.

"Mmmm." Chan took a second to think, "You."

My cheeks too no time to turn red, and make my whole body feel flushed. I felt the tips of my ears turn red and warm too, and I felt a chuckle come from my body. I couldn't stop it, but the feeling of being liked by the person you like, makes you feel so giddy al of the time. Comments like that will always catch me off guard, I know it.

"I'll make some waffles hyung." I chuckled in response, although I wasn't entirely against the idea Chan had.

However, I wanted my first time to be sweet, and slow. I want Chan more than anything, I just want the experience to be thought out, so I can feel all the right emotions during it. I wanted it to be passionate, and full of love. I wanted to be more confident with it, because I didn't want Chan to be the only one giving all of his emotions into it. 

"Okay." He chuckled, and climbed into my bed first. My blinds were still up, and the night was blinking through my wall length windows. It was too pretty to close them.

I climbed into bed beside him, and he immediately pulled him as close as I possibly could be to him. My legs in between his, and my head into his neck. I could see Chan being the 'dominant one' and I didn't mind at all. I couldn't pretend to be the more dominant one, it just didn't seem like me. Before, I was acting mature, taking the lead because Chan was scared, but now that we're both comfortable, it's seems we've nearly done a 180. A lot of my care stems from taking care of the people I love, and Chan will still be seeing my caring side a lot.

As I closed my eyes, I could feel Chan's fingers slip under my pyjama shirt and delicately traced my waist and hips. It was ticklish at first, but when his whole hand started rubbing up my sides, I was lulled to sleep easily. 

Oh, how I want to tell him how much I enjoy him.

Hi! Hope your enjoying so far! It's almost Christmas and I'm moving back home for the holidays tomorrow, so I don't know when my next update will be, but hopefully soon!