Actor, 𝕭𝖆𝖓𝖌 𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖓 [UNDEREDITING]

43 ; Actor

A few days had passed since that unfortunate morning of my mother barging into my apartment and meeting Chan in the most unfortunate way. She of course, did my shopping, talked to Chan about dating me, and then she left. I did get a series of calls from my father the same night, pestering about not meeting Chan, and wanting to see him properly.

I was embarrassed, since my dad is the last person I would want to meet my partner but I guess I couldn't complain much. He's a busy man, working as an executive at a makeup company, yet wants to know more about me all the time. He's always trying to make up for the time lost, and wants to always have family get togethers. It's just the three of us, but now he wants to add Chan. I thought it was a bit early for it.

I had updates. The police were finding new evidence against the stalker everyday, and they rang up and said they were right on his trail. They thought he might've went back to Japan in hopes of escaping, but they had jurisdiction in Japan and were in fact getting help from the Japanese police force. I was less worried about going outside now that he was potentially in a new country however, I havent stepped out of my apartment since.

Chan had told me about a block of apartments which were just built near his own dorm with the rest of Stray Kids. I had checked it out with the number Chan had provided. Their website was new, but they provided images of the inside of the apartment. They were small, but cute and cosy and the size wasn't a big deal to me. As long as I was somewhere new, and safe there. It was a bonus that Chan was so close too.

I had rang them about a viewing, and tomorrow, which would be the 1st of December would in fact be the viewing. In time for Christmas, I was hoping to be able to get this apartment and then move all my stuff in to it. I had rang my manager to come with me, it was the first time we talked since I walked out. He had apologised and I did too, we were ignoring each other over something silly now.

I had messaged So-Joon, after he blew up my phone after my announced on my Instagram, and I was happy to talk to him about everything. He was so open and comforting as a hyung, and we eventually planned a day to go Christmas shopping together. On December 5th.

Right now, I was sitting on my sofa and watching Stray Kids most recent Music Video. Although the show was delayed, the director still wanted the music video of the OST to come out at the same time because he wanted people to get excited for the show next year. It was a lovely video, a simple purple background with the members singing and rapping into microphones. When Chan looking into the camera, I couldn't help but have a little fan girl moment.

I texted him immediately after watching it.

Rain-ah: I just watched the MV for the OST, you killed it! Tell the others they were so good! and thank them for the song too ♡

I didnt have to wait long for a response.

Channie: Did you really like it? I loved filming it! I'll tell the others for you, only because it's you. ;)

I smiled, he was cheesy and flirty over text.

Rain-ah: I really liked it, you looked so delicious ;) What are you doing now jagi?

Channie: Making a solo song. It's about us, but only we'll know.

Rain-ah: About us? What have you got for it?

Channie: That might ruin the surprise. It comes out 21st. 

Rain-ah: Not you not telling me. I wish you could see me rolling my eyes right now. 

Channie: I wish you could hear that I'm laughing at you. Have the bestest day, and I hope you can get that apartment after the viewing tomorrow. I'll see you after tomorrow, I can't wait to kiss you.

I rolled my eyes again, a clear smile pulling at my face at his cheesy lines and his romantic nature. I had spent most of my days smiling at my phone whenever Chan could reply to me, and when he wasn't so busy. He hadn't been over much due to the long hours working, and I understood but I had been missing him for the last few nights.

I decided to re-watch the music video once more and thought about what I wanted to text Chan back with. I didn't want to say the L word over text, I wanted to say it to his face.

Rain-ah: I'm sure I'll get that apartment, if not, I'll beg for it. I can't wait to see you after tomorrow, my bed had been cold without you. Hope you know that once your lips touch mine, your never leaving again. 

Anyway, I hope this song is good if it's about us. I really like you.

I pressed send, small butterflies flying up my stomach, causing me to move my body to make them disappear. If I wasn't alone in my apartment, someone would've thought I was super weird and moving around like a snake on my sofa would probably scare them off.

After the song ended for the 2nd time, I decided to just put it on loop. I decided to get up and apply my daily creams for the cuts. My mother had bought it when she went out the other day and it had actually been making my cuts and bruises disappear a lot quicker and making them a lot less tender.

My cut lip was almost fully scabbed over, and it was no longer randomly bleeding after eating certain foods or showering. The cuts on my eyebrow and cheekbones area were still red and irritated but definitely hurt less when moving my face. The bruises were less blue and purple now and instead now replaced with a some red, but mostly greens and yellows. 

The only thing that needed to go down was my swollen eye, I still couldn't open my eye the whole way but it was getting better day by day. My stomach was still purple, but it was less tender and I could sit longer without being uncomfortable. I was making progress in my recovery which was the good thing, and I was sure that nothing would disrupt my progress. 

Things were turning around slowly, and I was taking each day slowly. Looking forward to talking to Chan, even over message made me want to get through the day and I was grateful for his presence even when he wasn't around. I was hoping that this Christmas I would be able to show my love for him, and make sure he would be appreciated.

I spent the rest of my night, memorising the lyrics which kept replaying throughout the apartment, and then looking up Christmas gifts and hoping to go all out for Chan since I only have to buy presents for my parents, Chan and maybe So-Joon. This Christmas will be good. I know it.