Feel like dying | Seungmin

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"Oh, yeah i did lie- n-not tell the truth, i wasn't sick I guess sorry," the i guess was too soft for the others to hear. "You dont got to apologize, everyone likes to keep themselves home sometimes."

"Yes, Minnie, come sit next to me on the sofa, you don't got to pretend anymore." The grin on his face made him want to throw up again. He stood up. "Hey, jeongin, since when did you have that necklace?" "I got it some time ago, didn't i tell you that?"

Of course he did and Seungmin had listened to his story about how he got it from his grandpa as a little gift, but this was just a way to make things look more natural. He went to sit down next to jeongin. "I don't think you did, some story behind it?"

So he began his story talking about his necklace. Seungmin saw how Chungho looked at him, he looked away at the younger one who seemed to be really excited.

'How would he react if he had going on what happened to me? would he still be so excited about, even small things?'

'And how would Felix react, would he just say it to the others. Am I just weird, should i do anything, or am i just overreacting. My life isn't bad and maybe it is all just my fault.'

Bongcha came home and not so much later the boys walked away. The annoyed look on Chungho's face said a lot. Rather Seungmin wished that they still didn't know about him not being ill. Could he just disappear, so he never had to go to school anymore?

Boncha was silently sitting on the sofa with her history books. "Is it easy?" Seungmin asked. "No, it just doesn't make sense at all, why should we learn about the first world war when that has been so long ago." "Oh, the first world war? You don't find it interesting to learn about?" Seungmin asked.

"Why no, what is so interesting about people killing each other over and over again, and all those stupid words, they could have also used normal words." "Well, if you have a question, I am here."

"You are not going back to your room?" "Well, not now, otherwise you'll be alone again."