Feel like dying | Seungmin

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Chungho turned both of them so they now both laid on their sides, still looking at each other. "That I liked a lot, Minnie," he said. Water in Seungmins eyes dropped on his own bed sheets. Chungho with both of his hands dried his eyes, he then kept his hands on Seungmins face.

But not much later his hand had reached the other's jeans. "No, no, you can't do that you promised not too." Seungmin grabbed the others hand but it didn't do anything, it didn't keep the other's hands from opening his jeans.

"Stop it, now please" Seungmin now cryingly asked. "I never promised I wouldn't go further, if you did give me what I wanted." Chungho's legs were around Seungmins body, Seungmin couldn't do anything else. the boy already reached where he wanted to reach.

Panic. 'No. Not here. Not now. Not with you. Not with anyone. Stop it now.' he could feel it coming again. Dizziness took over him and he began to sweat. His whole body was trembling. Then his breath got shorter and shorter.

The other notices, when he hears his breathing being far from normal. He stopped what he was doing and looked at him. He sat down and shaked the other. "Act normal, pathetic bitch."

When he saw the other still being in the absolute same condition, He stood up and went out of the room.

there was Seungmin, laying alone on his bed while having a panic attack. He felt like he was to die. When he heard the other's voice going away he didn't know if he had to calm down or panic even more.

No one was here to help him. Seungmin wasn't thinking straight, everything was running around his head. Not only what had happened these days, but also what had happened in the past.

His breath that never seemed to calm down and all the things around him. He didnt know what to do. He remember what the little girl said, and what he had to do but he couldn't. Everything seemed to be against him.

This will be his last moment. This would be the end of his story. and honestly... he didnt care if it ended right now. His story wasn't nice to listen to. No one cares.