Feel like dying | Seungmin

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51,7, Seungmin stepped off the scale. For some days now he had taken care of his body. He had eaten less, drank much more water, and went on more random walks.

everyday he thought he was doing better, but when he stood on the scale again, he made himself worry.

Why couldn't he lose some more weight and why was he so fat. He also could see little to no difference in his appearance. He still looked massive. He had felt more tired too. Probably because he couldn't sleep well in the nights.

Whenever he would stand up he would see black in front of his eyes. It felt weird but what could go wrong? It wasn't like he would fall immediately, just needed to take it calmly and then it was alright.

In school he couldn't concentrate too easily. Everything a teacher said, seemed to fly away before it could even reach his brain. He also spends a lot of time thinking about his weight, so other things that happened felt kinda unrealistic.

Everytime he became more sad for not weighing what he was supposed to, or for not doing what he had done the day before. He definitely felt his strength weaken, but no one would notice anyways. He never had been strong, so getting more weak wasn't such a problem.

"Seungmin, where are you?" It was Jeongin asking who walked right next to him. "Here, why?" "You seemed to be daydreaming instead of listening to what Felix just asked." "Well anyways," Felix began his sentence, "shall we go to the coffee shop, the others agreed, do you want to?"

"I need to take care of my sister, otherwise she would be home alone again," he answered. "Okay, you don't mind us going then, right?" Felix asked again. "No of course not, you all have fun!" Chungho seemed to almost walk with him, but decided to stay with the others.

Seungmin felt relieved that he did not follow him. He walked further alone, to his house. It was then when he felt super uncomfortable walking alone, you don't know what can happen. Neither could his eyes focus too, he felt kind of dizzy.

He decided to sit on a bench that was pretty near. He held his head, and when he opened his eyes again he saw the same thing as when he had them closed. 'It's going to be okay, just wait and then everything will be normal.'