Feel like dying | Seungmin

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Seungmin looked at his sister who was already watching a movie on her phone. He couldn't bother her with this, she is too young to know about it. He walked behind Chungho on the stairs. Upstairs he opened his room door.

He kept standing awkwardly and so did Chungho. Chungho looked around and just as he looked Seungmin in his eyes he said: "It's really pretty." He kept walking towards Seungmin. Seungmin walked backwards. He knew that something would happened.

Seungmin bumped his head into the wall, it hurted but he didn't care. "Oh no, Minnie, are you okay come on." he grabbed Seungmins hands and pulled him onto his own bed. Seungmin tried to keep sitting, he knew as long as he wasn't lying down he would be okay.

But of course Chungho could get him down, now Chungho was laying on top of him again he closed the gap between their lips. But this time it didn't take long for him to make space again. Seungmin thought that maybe he had regretted kissing him but no...

"Move your lips, it will be more exciting that way." He had just said that and closed the gap again. Seungmin didn't do anything, he didn't want a real kiss not with this guy. "Minnie, give me what I want right now or I will go much further."

No he couldn't let that happen, never not in his own bedroom. So he did what he was asked. Everything about it made him want to throw up. The other's body laying on his, the kiss that was disgusting and feeling the other's tongue wanting to go in his mouth.

He didn't want to let it go through, but the eyes that just opened that looked at him in some way, told him exactly what he had just said. No, not more than this, he didnt want it. The tongue slipt in, the taste in his mouth now seemed even worse.

But he wouldn't dare to do anything the other didn't want him to do. So they kept in this position for a few seconds, until they both were out of breath.

The way Seungmin had also heard his mom and sister going, saying bye to him, he didn't even say anything back. He felt like the worse brother or son to even have. He felt like he was never there for them.