Feel like dying | Seungmin

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"You are still super lame, get your acting skills a bit higher." Although the boy wasn't shouting it definitely sounded like he was. "It is your problem if someone gets behind this, act like you are happy around me, or things could get worse Minnie."

'Minnie' it made him want to puke, he was happy no one called him like that. Only Chungho. It is weird how he could ruin days perfectly, and how easily words can make you feel like puking. He hadn't even eaten anything today.

"... and after school you are walking with me," "But the others they-," "Tell them you really want to walk with me, they seem really nice, they would understand it." "That would be lying" Seungmin answered, was he taking a risk now?

"Minnie, you are a liar," the blonde hair answered. "I'm going to make some real friends." He walked away going to the place they had come from.

Seungmin felt empty. His eyes felt watery, and he felt like puking even more. Luckily he was already in the boys toilet room. When he knew no one was in there he putted two of his fingers inside his mouth going far enough in to start the puking.

It wasnt like he felt better after. He looked in the mirror. Of course his whole face was pale. He seemed ill.

Maybe he could go home, but what would Chungho do? He would scold him, say things that would only make him hurt more. He probably gets worse with actions too. It has happened before, it will happen again. Everything but maybe... he would fasten his pace.

'No, no why did he find me so fast, why does he go further with this. I went away, away from that school and now. He is here again. He is going to do anything now so I wont get away. I. dont. want. this!'

Seungmin looked in the mirror. dead. He looked dead. Tears didnt fall. His eyes got more watery after throwing up, but right now he couldn't let them fall as much as he wanted to. He couldn't.