back to you || yeonbin

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Hueningkai was never afraid of his hyungs. He was never afraid nor hesitant to talk to them. Whatever the subject.
Especially his Hobi hyung.
Hoseok was one person in the company with whom Hueningkai had the right to act however he wanted. He had the right to enter his studio, even make and save his compositions in Hoseok's computer. He had the right to literally steal his clothes and Hobi wouldn't bat an eye.
Hoseok used to call him the brother he never had.

But for the first time in his life, Hueningkai wa afraid.
He was afraid to talk to his Hobi hyung.

"Huening-ah." Yeonjun called out from the other side his phone.
Hueningkai couldn't comprehend the fact that his hyung was coming back. Again.
But this time, a changed man.
He had talked to Jennie, even.

"I cannot fully guarantee a positive outcome, Huening. But he needs another chance. If he blows this up and I pray to God that he doesn't, he won't set foot here again." Jennie told him.

"Everyone deserves a second chance. This is his third, I am aware. But he needs this. I beg you, Huening. You can turn the tides if you wish."

"What if Soobin hyung doesn't want him back?"
Hueningkai spoke out the obvious question.

He could almost hear his Yeonjun hyung's heart crack at that. But no. He couldn't see his Soobin hyung hurt again.

"Huening-ah..." Yeonjun tried again.

"You left again, hyung. This time you had destroyed his heart. What makes you think I'll allow that again? What makes you think I want to be a part of this?"

"Because I can't do this, Ning. I am a living corpse. I don't know how to convince you. I really don't. But I need him back. I am willing to go whatever length to get him back." Yeonjun whimpered out.

Hueningkai was torn. He wanted to believe Yeonjun's words but still he couldn't ber seeing his Soobin hyung hurt.

"I'll call you back, hyung. I'll let you know."

And he went straight to call Heeseung.

"He's changed. He's not the old person anymore. I mean that person is there. But he isn't coming out."

"Does he deserve another chance?"

"To convince? Yes, I think so. He went to therapy. Almost 6 months. I had noticed the chance when he came to visit me in LA."

Hueningkai was still confused.

"He wouldn't have gone for something like that unless he wanted an opening."

Hueningkai called Yeonjun again.

"One chance. But first you have to talk to Hobi hyung. I'll try to make him listen."

What was he thinking?
Hoseok almost loathed Yeonjun's name.

But.

If this could make a difference.

Soobin was not all okay.
Beneath that mask was a broken man who longed for a light of hope. Hope that the one man he had loved would come back.

If it could make a difference, wouldn't he want it?

Just then, Hoseok opened the door and entered.

"What is it, Hyuka?" He asked while ruffling the younger's hair.

Hueningkai took a deep breath.
Its now or never.

***********

Hoseok was livid.
How did he get the audacity to call Hyuka again?
After all he did.
How many people did he hurt in this process?
And still he wants another chance?
How did he even dare to manipulate my Hyuka into this?

"Hobi hyung."

Hoseok was snapped out of his thoughts when Hueningkai called out.

"Say something."

"Say what? I don't want him in my sight."

Hueningkai sighed.
Hyung was never going to say yes.

"I understand, hyung. But if we could give him one more chance--"

"You know what he did, Hueningkai! Don't act like you don't. Do you remember how you were?! Panic attacks and you remember that night, right? If Yuna wasn't there, you would've been dead!"

Hueningkai kept his silence.

"I was already alcoholic, hyung. By the time they broke up I was drowning. True, part of the reason I drank too much that night was because of Yeonjun hyung, but the other part was already there. Waiting for a reason to indulge."

Hoseok looked at him.

"You don't believe me, hyung. I know. It took a lot to keep up that facade of being a cutiepie by that time. You guys never saw me drinking, did ya? What I am saying you can't solely blame him for what happened that night."

Hueningkai sat next to Hoseok and held his hand.
"I haven't touched alcohol ever since, true that. Because I am now aware of the consequences. I know a lot of people were hurt that day. People whom I hold close to my heart."

He turned Hoseok's face towards him.

"I am not forcing you to give him a chance, hyung. You can always say no. But if it could make a difference, then why not take it?"

**********

Yeonjun waited in the old lobby of the previous building of the company.

The memories he held there.
The late night practices.
Eating black bean noodles in the middle of the night from the convenience store down the road.
He was the first one there.
He was the first to leave.

Jennie was with him.
He prayed to whatever God out there, for the gem of a person that was her.
She had schedules back in the US. She had cancelled them all to come with him and save his love life.
But he knew she had her own demons here. Her past here was a bit traumatic as well. Part of the reason why she decided to move to the US and start anew.

Just then, Hueningkai called.
"We're here."

The door opened and Hoseok and Huening walked in.
Hobi hyung looks different now, hair grown all long. He is angry, I can say. He might even shout at me.
But it's fine.
I can handle some shouting.

And Huening.
My lovely Hyuka.
Oh, what had I done to him?
When Hobi hyung told me about that night, I had gone mad.
Not my Hyuka.
How could I hurt my Hyuka?
He was so pure, delicate.
I truly am a monster.

But no.
I will take this chance.
My monster can rot in hell.

And he was woken up from his thoughts, as Hoseok's punch came flying straight to his jaw.

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