back to you || yeonbin

33

One year later.

"Do you know what you did, Yeonjun?", Hoseok spoke in a low growl, as his dark eyes raked him.

Yeonjun couldn't move. He stood as if someone had tied him up with thick vines.
The vines had scales.
Like a cobra.
No, it was a cobra.

It gradually wound up his neck, tightening it in a hold, almost murderous.
Amber eyes glared at him.

"He was your brother.", hissed the creature.

Yeonjun felt hot tears streaming down his cheeks, as the snake constricted his neck even more.

He couldn't breath.
There was no air.
No escape.
Dark fog surrounded him, every rugged breath he took suffocated him.

The serpent revealed itself from the obscurity and looked at him in the eyes.
It taunted him.
Those eyes seemed to pull him to a petrifying trance.

"What if you killed him?" Came a low hiss.

Black.
Blacker than black.

"Hyukai!!" Yeonjun screamed as he jolted up, perspiring, clutching the white bedsheets.
He dragged his hands across his damp hair and closed his eyes for a moment.

No.
Not this again.

I cannot take this anymore.

Everytime he tries to convince himself that he was not at fault, words by his hyung echo around him.

"We almost lost him that day, Yeonjun. He wouldn't have done that if not because of you."

Not just Hueningkai. Taehyun too.
The shocking revelation that he was indirectly responsible for the two young ones to opt for something so heartbreaking, was enough for Yeonjun to break down.

He had gone home.
Or he thought that he had.

He never did.
He never met the others.
He never met Soobin.

He came back to San Jose.
Destroyed.
Tired.
Regretful.

He tried to kill himself, for he thought someone so much at fault, did not deserve to live.

He hadn't remembered when the blade had glided across his wrist.

There were people for him.

Jennie. His elder sister. She had wailed in the hospital that night.
"Save him! Save him, please! He is all I have!"

And...

Yeonjun was woken up from his thoughts as long calloused fingers brushed his forearms.
Warm. Within the cold of the night.

"Yeon.", the voice called out.

Yeonjun laid back down.
He took a deel breath, before shifting himself closer to the other man.
Yeonjun breathed in again, as he snuggled closer to the male. For he knew somehow his embrace always calmed him down.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

Yeonjun slowly shook his head.

"Okay. Sleep. I am here."
The man then dipped his head down slightly to place a small kiss on Yeonjun's crown.
A kiss so subtle.
But yet screaming out that everything was going to be alright.

At least as long as he was with him.

Leo.

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