Unexpected

Chapter 40

I stared at her, tears flooding my eyes my stomach literally doing back flips and my heart pounding nearly escaping my chest.

I closed my eyes wishing that this was only a dream that soon I'd wake up and see that beautiful smile of hers and just stare deep into those hazel eyes.

In fact this wasn't a nightmare it was just my brutal reality. My hands were drenched in her blood it made my skin crawl, but I couldn't let her go. I held her tighter in my arms crying hoping that she would wake up.

I knew it wasn't going to happen her body was completely cold now with no pulse just a body with no soul.

Someone sat next to me

"Eva you have to let her go"

It was Detective Williams he may have talked me out of killing Peyton but I wasn't letting Maya go. If I did that it would make everything that happened real and all of my hope would be thrown away.

I croaked out

"I can't you have to save her, just please tell me that you can save her"

He was pale in the face I could see that he was searching for something to say but nothing could leave his mouth. After a few moments he stood up and I only felt his hands wrap around my side as he pulled me up to my feet.

I just screamed in agony

"Why couldn't it be me? She didn't deserve this"

He pulled me closer to his chest and just allowed me to cry and scream. I felt like a little girl again remembering when I fell off my bike and started crying. My dad just held me letting me cry my eyes out until I couldn't anymore.

I watched as the people came and put her body into a big black bag that they had zipped up and put onto a gurney.

On the news we always hear about someone being murdered and in the moment we genuinely feel bad, but after a few moments we return to whatever we were doing saying "No this could never happen to me" we don't anticipate for any of it to happen.

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Everyone stood around the casket listening as the pastor spoke. Muffled cries and sorrow filled the atmosphere around me. This was the second funeral that I've attended thinking about it made me want to explode.

Watching Maya's mother cry broke my heart into pieces she had lost her only daughter. I just wanted it to be over I couldn't deal with it any much longer but it finally hit me hard when they began to lower the casket into to the ground.

It was official she was gone and not coming back. I ran away from the site stopping to vomit finally when my breath caught up to me I watched as everyone walked away.

I had to suck it up push all of my emotions deep within me so that I could go talk to her mom.

Each foot having a mind of its just began walking even though my mind resisted so much it just wasn't an option.

After struggling with my mind and body I made it over to her.

"I'm sorry Ms.Peters"

Then I hugged her she looked at me tears still in her eyes

"You must be Eva"

"Yes ma'am"

she took the handkerchief that she had been squeezing on to wipe away a few tears that had fallen

"Its sad that this how we had to meet. Whenever I would talk to Maya your name would always come up, and honestly I had never seen my daughter so happy with someone before"

A small smile had spread across her face

"Thank you Eva for being there for her when I couldn't be"

I felt like the cat had just took my tongue and ran away with it, but finally I found my voice

"No, thank you Ms.Peters without you I wouldn't have met her and just know that I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to okay"

She nodded then embraced me it felt good but still on the inside I was dying.

Finally it was over I replayed the events in my mind just one last time as I stared at her grave. As I turned away walking to my car I pulled out her bracelet and stared at it. Even with tears staining my face I managed to smile because even though she was physically taken away from me she would always be in my heart no matter what and no one could ever take that away.