Unexpected

Epilogue

Staring outside I watched as the rain slowly fell from the sky above.

"Eva, Dr.Davis is ready to see you now"

I looked away from the window grabbing my purse walking towards the door ahead of me. I gave the receptionist a friendly smile before walking in.

The room was different things were rearranged and instead of the plain white color that it was before it was painted a vibrant yellow now.

I sat down on the couch still observing everything then the silence was disrupted

"Eva its nice to see you again"

"Nice seeing you too Dr."

"How have you been?"

"I have my good and bad days but all in all I'm better"

she nodded her head and looked me over for sometime

"Well you and I both know what today is, how do you feel about that?"

I thought about what she said before responding do I truly express myself or just bs her like I've been doing for the last four years? I decided that since this would be my last session I'd just express myself.

I sighed then finally spoke

"I woke up this morning crying my eyes out, I didn't sleep at all, and I really thought about just smashing everything to pieces. Even though its been four years since I learned of my parent's death, and Maya dying it felt like it had happened today. After I moved with my aunt to California things were tough I'd have nightmares night after night seeing Maya's lifeless body in my arms I just couldn't shake it, and adjusting to this new life wasn't easy either. I stayed to myself for months just writing every thought, feeling, or emotion I had in me spilled all onto paper."

I stopped because I felt like I was going to deep, revealing myself to someone wasn't something I did because to me it meant I was vulnerable and could be taken advantage of.

"Are you done?"

"Yes I feel better now"

"Well okay today was your last session and I hope that you know anytime that you need to talk my office is open Eva"

"Thank you Dr.Davis I apperciate all you've done for me and listening to me go on and on about my emotional stress"

"That's why I became a therapist for its all in the job description"

I stood up and walked over to her gave her a hug and was on my way. As I left the office building I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders finally it was over no more being tortured.

I got in my car and made my way to LAX airport the traffic was pretty heavy and I was becoming inpatient with it all. After about a century later I had finally made it two minutes just before my flight was going to depart.

After getting everything checked in and paper work done I was on the airplane. Soon I'd be heading back to Virginia the place I really needed to be today.

After looking for my seat I found it and saw that someone was sitting in it

"Excuse me, I think your in my seat"

When she turned around I thought I had seen a ghost her eyes were hazel with a glint in them, her hair was straight with honey highlights, and she was just beautiful.

She smiled so warmly at me that I felt my heart pushing out through my throat

"Oh I'm so, so sorry I didn't even realize let me check my ticket again" she glanced over at her ticket then looked back at the seat

"Ohhh I'm one seat over sorry it was a silly mistake"

"No, no its okay don't apologize we're all human aren't we"

After she moved over I sat in the seat I couldn't stop my leg from shaking goosebumps were starting to develop on my arms. It almost killed me of how much this girl resembled Maya.

"I'm sorry but how rude of me I sit in your seat and not even give you my name, I'm Nicki but you can call me Nick"

"Nicki I'm Eva"

I couldn't make eye contact it just made things hard for me if I looked into her eyes I wouldn't be able to stop.

She turned back around and put in some ear phones in while nodding her head to the beat. It was the cutest thing I've seen in awhile it made me smile. At times she'd catch me glancing at her and we'd make that awkward eye contact.

The plane had landed and I felt lost in a place that I knew like the back of my palm. Stepping out of the plane and seeing just how everything has changed over the years.

I had a taxi waiting for me I put my luggage into the trunk then as I was about to get in I heard someone calling my name

"Eva, Eva!" When I turned around I saw that it was Nicki she was waving for me to come over I told the taxi driver to give me a minute.

"Um, this is my first time being here and I have no way of getting around so I was wondering if you'd show me around? But only if you want"

I laughed because I noticed that she was nervous asking me

"Sure come with me"

She followed me towards the taxi and we got in I gave the driver the address to the cemetery that was my reason for even coming here.

It was about a 20 minute drive, but we had finally arrived at the cemetery and I told Nicki to wait for me. When I stepped out of the car my knees were buckling beneath me it was difficult to stay upright.

Finally I took a deep breath and walked through the gate first I went to my parent's grave. I kneeled down and just started talking

"Wow I miss you guys so much and I know that its been four years since I've visited you guys, but I had my reasons I was scared honestly. Your death hit me hard and I never said goodbye that's what truly kills me. I know that you guys are in a better place now no longer suffering but rather living in peace Just know that I'll always love you and that we all be together again"

I tried to hold the tears back but it was hard I wiped them away from my cheek as I got up to walk over to Maya's grave.

"Hey you its funny I met a girl today who looks just like you it was quite creepy"

I chuckled before I continued

"I can still see your smile now it was so beautiful and miss it so much life hasn't been the same for me you know. After your death I was broken my heart truly broke into a million tiny pieces and I'm still putting them back together"

I could feel my face heating up as I continued talking I stopped and held my head down as I cried the pain was agonizing it felt like someone had been stabbing me repeatedly in the stomach.

Soon I felt a hand on my shoulder I quickly turned around to see Nicki behind me. She lifted me to my feet and wrapped her arms around me and didn't say a word I truly needed that. I sobbed in her arms for a good ten minutes before finally saying good bye to Maya's grave.

Tears could no longer fall because they had all dried up. I saw Jess's grave from the corner of my eye and couldn't just leave right away when I reached the tombstone I said nothing. A smile came across my face and one last tear fell from my eye onto her grave.

At that moment all of the good memories, laughter, smiles, and joy rushed back to me and I realized that even if the people that meant so much to me in my life were taken physically away from me they'd always be in my heart no matter what.

I walked away from that cemetery knowing that they were all there in spirit with me and knowing that my journey in life wasn't over but had only just begun I decided that today would be a new chapter to a different story.