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Chapter 32

KYSLER WILSON

I didn't know she would do that.

Seeing her in so much pain right now, heartbroken and helpless want me so much to pull her in a tight hug and comfort her. Hindi ko gusto ang nakikita ko, pero hindi ako hipokrito para hindi matuwa sa nalaman kong paghihiwalay nila.

It's not just because I could have my chance, but the fact that I'll be able to save her from him is worth every tear and heartbreak she goes through.

Skyler is a dangerous case. After what he and his clan did in the arena, bombing almost half of the place and trying to steal the Death Note have landed him—or me—in the Leitarlista.

I haven't taken any steps to clear my name. It's not that I lack the means to do so, but I intend to leverage the current situation for future purposes. For now, I have to keep an eye on my family to make sure that enemies won't come after them. Hindi ko na maasahan pa si Skyler dahil tuluyan na siyang nabalot ng galit at kasakiman niya.

I can't even trust him with Mace's safety, knowing he's likely to expose her to considerable danger. Hindi man lang niya naisip na baka may nakasunod nang kalaban sa kaya noong umuwi siya, tapos si Mace agad ang una niyang pinuntahan. I'm not sure what he had in mind, but he must be completely insane.

"K-kanina ka pa diyan?"

Mace walks in my direction. I can tell she isn't happy to see me again. It's not that it's still a new case, but I'm still hoping for a positive reaction from her following what happened to us. After all, we had made love for two days straight. That, at least, is how I would describe it.

Sa liwanag ng fairy lights na nakapalibot sa buong garden, halata ang pamumula ng kanyang mukha at wala paring patid na pagtulo ng mga luha niya.

Tumango ako sa kanya at inisang hakbang ang natitira pang distansya sa pagitan namin. Gusto kong punusan ang mga luha niya at sabihing okay lang ang lahat. Pero alam kong hindi iyon ang kailangan niya. I know it will never be the same again. It will never be okay.

"Narinig mo?" mabibigat ang paghinga niya sa pagitan ng hikbing lumalabas sa bibig niya. Tumango ako dahil totoo naman na intensiyon kong makinig sa usapan nila.

I am sure they will talk after they have both disappeared. Sinundan ko silang dalawa dahil natatakot akong tanggapin niya ang proposal ni Skyler. I thought she would simply reject him; I had no idea she'd end up breaking up with him.

"I already ended my relationship with your twin, Kysler. Wala na kami ni Sky."

"I know," I said in a whisper. "I didn't expect you to do that."

Her lips parted with my response. Alam kong hindi siya naniniwala. Sa tagal kong ginugulo ang relasyon nila, ang maghiwalay sila ang pinakang gusto kong mangyari sa lahat. But, despite the fact that it was my ultimate goal to finally get my way into her heart, I did not expect her to end her relationship with him. The depth of her love for Skyler was evident. She loves Skyler and having to let him go pains her this much. Kung mawawala lang ako sa buhay niya, pasasaan ba't babalik din sa dati ang lahat at ang relasyon nila.

What she had for me was simply an attraction. I was merely an intrusion that doesn't really hold value in her life. But even if that is just the case, I'm still treasuring those feelings of her for me, because that is something that keeps me alive knowing that the woman I'll willingly die for had at least a glimpse of affection towards me.

I know it was a dangerous game I played when I intervene in her relationship with Skyler, but the burning desire to win her over consumed me entirely. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit sa iisang babae pa namin kailangang magkagulo. Kung tutuusin pwede akong magpaubaya. Pero sa tuwing nakikita ko siyang masaya na hindi ako ang kasama niya at hindi ako ang dahilan ng mga ngiti sa labi niya, mas gusto ko nalang palang magdamot at hindi siya hayaan sa kakambal ko.