Closeted🏳️‍⚧️ (Trans Sonic x Shadow)

Bridge in the moonlight

(TW! Suicidal thoughts)

Shadow's POV

I had already parked my bike in some parking lot on the west side of town, now I was quickly skating through the streets, leaving a streak of red and black behind me.
I raced through the streets, begging to see some sort of blue streak rush by or those familiar, sparkling, emerald green eyes.

"SONIC!! SONIC!!" I called, hoping he would appear at the sound of his name.

I raced to the coffee shop he loved so much. The one that he invited me and my team to the day after he came out. He wasn't there.

I ran down the path in Sunset park, nope.

I raced through the square, and the marketplace. No Sonic.

I even checked Gold-Ring point [reference to another fic of mine!]
Nada.

I stood at the top of the garden tower, staring out on the moonlight cityscape.
Sonic was upset, that was one thing I was absolutely sure of right now.
Everyone would have checked all his favorite places to go when he needed to relax already, so where was he?!?

If I were Sonic, where would I go when I'm feeling extremely upset?

Well, before Maria came back, I would have probably just laid on the floor feeling like a piece of shit and wishing I weren't immortal so I could die along with Maria.
Wait....that reminded me of a memory...

It was maybe a year back before his transition...It was a warm spring day, and we were walking through Peace-Sanctuary Park, the cherry blossom trees were in season so the ground was covered in the pink petals.

Me and Sonic had just finished a race and now we were calmly walking down the path.
He looked away then looked at me with that smile I had once seen as irritating.
"Yo, Shadow, if you were to just one day, I dunno like disappear or randomly die, where would it be?" He asked.

I looked over at him with a confused look, but then thought about it for a moment.
"Strange question, Faker, but I suppose, there's this old large tree on the Emerald Coast beach that I like. I suppose I would like to sit by that tree and watch the sunset before I die." I answered.

"Oh cool!" He said with a smile.

I arched and eyebrow, but then looked at him.
"Where would you like to die, faker?"

He smiled then looked the left of us.
We were passing a bridge with Japanese lanterns hung on it's tall posts. It was a beautiful, red wood bridge with gold accents in the fencing. Dried pink petals were scattered on it, and a rushing river flowed beneath it.

"This bridge is always so beautiful every time of the year, I always love standing on it and enjoying the scenery. That's where I would want to die." He said, pointing to it.

"Over water? You're terrified of water." I hissed.

"You wouldn't understand."

Back then I hadn't thought much of it, but now...I think I understood what he was trying to say.

Oh my chaos.
I felt my heart rate sky rocket, and I moved as fast as I could towards Peace-Sanctuary Park.

Fuck.
He better not be there.

Sonic's POV

I sat on the bridge railing, staring at the rushing water below, my feet dangling over it.

The moonlight shone brightly through the unbloomed cherry blossom trees, lighting up the red wood bridge and the beautiful accents.

This wasn't the first time I found myself here.