Dreadfully Gone

chapter 1

-Snape's pov

I didn't leave quarters until the Hogwarts Express left. I didn't feel like dealing with any dunderheads today. I had dealt with enough of them yesterday. I didn't even feel like thinking about yesterday, not like i felt like thinking about any other day.

I made my way to the kitchen to make some tea when i heard a small banging from Jasmine's room. I figured that out was nothing, but when it didn't stop after a few minutes i went to go find out what she was doing.

I throw the door open to find that she wasn't there. I looked at the window to see her owl tapping on the window. I opened it and he flew in. He landed on her bed and started to hoot and ruffle his feathers.

"Don't be mad at me.", i snapped at the bird.

I went to walk out when i noticed a book with a paper with my name written on it. I picked it up and puked the paper from underneath the ribbon. I unfolded the paper to notice a song written in it so i read it., " I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm OK
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say (much to say)
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do, oh.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say (to say)
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do.", under the song was a note and i decided to read that also, "I'm really sorry about hurting you.. If i would have known that George was going to do that i wouldn't have gone to meet up with them before detention. I had no idea that they were going to pull something like that just to prove that you fancy me..

It pains me to know that i had a party in hurting you. Like i can't put into words how badly i feel about this while thing. If i could go back in time and change what happened i would. And i really don't know how to say how sorry i am.

I just hope that helping you finish you book collection makes you not hate me as much. I over heard you at the book store and remembered that i had a copy. So I'm giving it to you. And i understand if you don't want it..
Looks like I'm running out of space to write. I would say that is see you later, But i don't think you are ever going to see me again. I'll be long gone before you find this. And please don't come looking for me.

With all the love left in my heart,
Jasmine."

I read the note again to make that that i had read it right. She had left. Because she didn't want me to see her anymore. Maybe now i could actually forget about her.