Destined for One Another

Destined for One Another (27)

Mahinoor's P.O.V.

"You  are already engaged?" Salman asked angrily as I stood infront of the park, we had agreed to meet after school.   "Why wouldn't you mention that to me, Mahi?"

"Because its irrelevant Salman, I do not want to be engaged to the boy Baba and Amma have chosen for me. I like you."

Salman stopped pacing, "If you like me, then you would have trusted me enough to tell me about this Mahi. This is a big  secret that you have kept from me, God knows how long."

I knew I should have told him before we began.  . .well, I didnt even know if we were dating, Salman never spoke on the topic. "Salman,"

"What?"

"I am unsure about our own relationship status," I admit, "I do not go around telling people what I have been asked for, without knowing them. I needed to know you, slowly trust you. . .I have liked you for a while, but this is a big thing. Something, that  not everyone can digest."

Salman shook his head,  "Why are you even asking me the question, Mahi? Of course,  I like you back,  and I haven't asked. you to be my girlfriend because of the mixed signals I was. getting from you. You know you. were hiding something so big from me, obviously, it will be hard for someone to digest."

I breathed out heavily,  "Sorry," That was all I could offer him, an apology for all the chaos that came with me. 

"Sorry?" He asked in disbelief, "Mahi, you. were playing with me."

I look at him panicked, "No!"

"Then what else do you want me to make out of this situation?  Were you ever going to tell Ahad Khalu?" Yes, but I needed to wait for the right time. "Mahi?"

"S-Salman,"

"No, you. were not." He answered for me. 

Oh, what was I thinking. . actually being able to have someone that I truly wanted. . .maybe it is best to let him think I was using him, it will be easier. for him to move on, and easier for me to move on as well. I did truly begin to fall. in love with him, but I was living in a whole other world that was far from reality, and this. . what is happening now, is my reality. 

"Sorry, Salman." I apologize again, 

"I am too," He said, "For trusting a girl like you," Salman roughly brushed his. shoulder. against mine and stormed away. . away from my life, and away from any possibility of us being together. 

. .  .

"No way!" Roza gasped as I lay on my bed talking to her over Facetime, "Salman Bhai?" She knew about Salman because at a point she was the only one I could talk to about my feelings towards him. I had begun to like him in grade eleven and became infatuated with him in grade 12. Salman had begun to notice me in. grade 12 too, so we became good friends, with these unsaid feelings. It was totally romantic, he was so sweet, so gentle. . just everything I wanted in a guy until Amma and Baba found out about him. Fo course I had played it off like he was my friend, but for Salman, it was undigestable that I was already asked for, another man when Baba purposefully mentioned Rehan's name infront of him. Salman and I had this big argument, and it didn't end nicely in this unsaid relationship. He wanted to talk to Baba about us, but I would not let him, I knew how Baba was going to react, and it would not have been. good. 

Salman is one of the reasons why I am afraid to open up my heart again and open my mind to love because I have never been given the chance to organically fall in love, other than him. Rehan has been forced into my life,  my mind, but my heart was one place that they couldnt get him in. "Yeah," I reply rolling over onto my stomach,