Love At First Argument (Law student series#1)

CHAPTER 18

Warning: ⚠️
Mental Health Issues–Triggered

Today is the announcement of the tops. I wasn't nervous before whenever there was an announcement in terms of ranking. Pero ngayon, kinakabahan ako. Hindi na ba ako ang top one ulit? Natatakot ako. Kasi, all our exams, hindi naman lahat ng 'yon ako ang highest because Kade aced other subjects. At dahil umalis kami upon giving the scores, hindi namin alam ilan ang subjects na isa saamin ang highest.

“Hey, are you okay?” Kade asked and sat beside me.

“I'm nervous.” I honestly answered. Ayoko ng maglihim sakaniya tungkol sa hindi ko magandang nararamdaman. Ang unfair naman kasi, what's the purpose of dating if everything between you are secrets.

“Hush. Everything will be alright, babe.” Ngumiti lang ako sa kaniya. Hinawakan niya naman ang kamay ko para kahit pa-paano ay kumalma ako.

After a couple of minutes, our professor finally came. Ngumiti naman ito saaming dalawa ni Kade.

What was that smile?

Tumikhim ito nang makapunta na siya sa harap.

“Kung couple ba sa law school, required rin na couple sa ranking?” Ang tanong ng aming professor at tumingin saamin. Naghiyawan naman ang mga kaklase ko. Sumagot naman iyong isa naming kaklase. I think, it's Lucio.

“Attorney, law student rin kami pero wala kaming ganon. I think, ang swerteng may ganoon ay si Lopez lamang!” Tumawa naman kami sa sagot nitl. But, what does our professor mean when he said “couple rin sa rankings.” magkasunod kami? I mean, it's not like I am assuming na kami talaga ang pinaringgan ni attorney, but we are the only couple in this classroom.

“You got the answer of their name, Lucio!” Tumatawang sagot ni attorney.

Our professors here are license professional attorney's that is why, we defined them as prof but call them attorney or prosecutor kapag kausap namin sila.

“So, yes. Congratulations Ms. Del Moore and Mr. Lopez. You are tie. Both of you is the rank one.” After the announcement, I can't explain the feeling I have right now.

I feel—happy? I am not sure. My brain and heart is fighting. My brain is screaming. How is it possible that we are tie? Na muntik na akong malamangan. But, my heart disagree. It's okay, I should be happy because Kade's my love. I don't know—I just don't know what to say, and how to react.

The last thing I remembered, Kade was calling me before everything went black.

And I am here now, in this white place. In the clinic of my therapist.

Without any emotions in my face. Kade and my therapist along with my brother Austin and my friends went towards me asking me how I feel. But, I did not respond to any of it.

I just looked at them as if I don't care if they worried.

“Hey, why are you not speaking?” Asked Kade in a very soft tone. However, I just raised my left eyebrow with him.

“I hate you. How could you do that?” I throw him words. What the hell? My brain is a traitor. I wasn't speaking earlier because I don't want to hurt him. I don't want him to know what my brain is saying.

“B-Baby... I'm sorry. I don't know. I did not try hard, I swear. I don't want us to fight.” He softly said with his eyes turning red. He's about to cry. I hurt him again.

“I-I'm sorry... I c-can't take it Kade... My heart loves you, she cares for you, she doesn't want you to be hurt just because of what my brain is thinking. They aren't align. I'm s-sorry... You dated someone like me.” I started breathing heavily making everyone panic. Pinatabi muna sila ng therapist ko at lumapit ito saakin. Bakas na bakas sa mukha nila ang pag-aalala saakin.