Love At First Argument (Law student series#1)

CHAPTER 19

My fear of being not the top of all tops got triggered. However, that's not the reason for me to give up on Kade, after all he gave me nothing but unconditional love and kindness. That's enough for me to stay. Also, Being with him will make me conquer my fear of being defeated on the spot I always wanted to have. It's not healthy for me to run away.

“Hey, I brought your favorite blueberry cake.” I smiled at Kade.

He really knows how to light up my mood. He knows how to shine my heart, and most especially, to fight the monsters running in my head.

“Thank you... For staying, and for everything.” I mouthed while looking at his eyes.

Tears started streaming down to his cheeks. “Hey... Why are you crying babe?” I asked softly and wiped his tears.

“I thought you'll leave me again.” Then, I realized his answered. So, he knows about me since grade 5? Is that—

“Yeah. I kinda had a crush on you before. It's actually crazy because I just transferred that day and when I saw how eager you were to defeat me with the spelling bee. You captivated my heart. Intelligence attracts me. So, I got attracted to you.” Wow. This is one of the best words that I have received.

“Sobra kana ah! Alam na alam mo paano e turn on ang ilaw sa buhay ko!” Kunyare naiinis kong saad.

Ngumiti naman ito at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

“No matter what happened, tell me if you feel bothered about my actions, we'll fix it. Ayokong umaabot sa puntong ganito. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi wala akong magawa, e kung pwede lang palitan ka diyan. Nasasaktan ako kapag nahihirapan ka. And please... Do not blame yourself, because you have done enough, you did great.” He said as he softly brush my hand using his fingers.

“I'm really sorry... Natatakot kasi akong maging pabigat... Natatakot ako na baka isipin mo after months of dating ganito parin ako?” Finally, after a very long time. I finally have the courage to share my feelings with someone. Not my therapist, not my family, but to my rest after a tiring day.

“No baby... Please don't be scared, okay? Hindi ako nag-iisip ng ganon. Hindi ka pabigat, hinding hindi. Let me carry those baggage please... Let me baby...” He said pleading me.

Tinitigan ko siya habang pulang pula ang mata niyang nakahawak sa kamay ko. Ano kayang nagawa ko kay Lord para bigyan ako ng ganitong klaseng lalaki? I could never ask for more. He gave me beyond what I prayed for.

“Y-Yes... I will. Pangako, sasabihin ko sa'yo next time. Sana lang hinding hindi mo ako susukuan.” Sagot ko sa kaniya.

Umiling naman ito at sumagot rin “Hinding hindi. I will never give up on you. Hinding hindi ko susukuan ang babaeng mahal ko.” Without answering his last words, I hugged him.

After one night of staying in my therapist clinic, I am now back in this classroom as a law student girl. After all, that's my role in this life as of now. I dream of being a lawyer, so there's no way I would give up that dream. With my parents, siblings, friends, and of course Kade behind my back? I know I will survive, and most especially I will slowly conquer my fear.

“Alright, we are now in the second semester of your second year as a law student. Clap your hands class and a tap in each of your shoulders, you did great!” I smiled at our professor's words. I know some or maybe most of my classmates here are dealing with their own problems, and his words will definitely contribute light to my classmates darkness.

“Of course, you are law students, there is no exception here. Kahit tapos na ang first semester, lalayag parin tayo sa second semester. Malapit na kayo! Kaya ipag-patuloy niyo lang ang pag sagwan.” Ngumiti naman kaming lahat sa sinabi ng professor namin.