Fuck You, Dixon! (Daryl Dixon x reader)

Chapter 119: Separated

A/N: Song is, (Astronomy, by Conan Gray.)

Also! I'm not sure if I've written this chapter well because I've tried to do something but I'm not sure if I've done it rightttt...

Hopefully it's at least decent! And it's longer than the last one, so...enjoy!

(Though you may cry...or get angry..?)

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                        ~Daryl's P.O.V~

I quickly lead Beth out the prison an' went straight for the tracks, and those dumb little markin's Y/n had left behind all that time ago.

I just wanted to get the fuck out of 'ere and find Y/n. Merle too.

I found myself rushin' through the woods without a thought, everthin' passin' by in a blur.

I hadn't found Y/n, but, if there was one place I knew she'd run to...one place I knew she'd go...it would be that track and those markin's. She'd go hopin' the others would go. She'd go thinkin' I'd go. Knowin' her...she wouldn' wanna leave the others behind. And even if...even if she weren' there...I was hopin', at the very least, Merle would be.

As much as I just wanted to run straight there, I also had Beth to worry about. Damn kid...I couldn' just leave 'er behind. She was too weak to look after herself an' keep up, I needed to stay with her, make sure nothin' happens.

I'd be lyin' if I said it didn' frustrate me.

She was holdin' me back from findin' the others. Findin' Y/n. An' to add insult to the whole damn situation, she had her bow. She had Y/n's bow. It didn' belong to her. It didn't...it was...

Still...I couldn' just let the kid die. And...Y/n did care for the kid. I can already hear her naggin' at me to keep 'er safe...an'...I can only imagine how upset she'd be if she died...

God damn it...

I never should've let my guard down.

If I had just kept away from Y/n...if I just kept my damn distance like I was taught...looked out for my damn self...I wouldn't be in this damn situation...
runnin' around like a damn lost puppy...

But...it's too damn late to regret that shit now. I'm already here. I already dug the damn hole and buried myself.

I can only rely on myself now to dig myself back out.

I can keep tellin' myself I don' care...that it don' matter if I find 'er or not, but...

I didn't actually want to think about what would happen if I couldn'.

My mind kept switchin', goin' too fast fer me to make sense of anythin'. Everyrhin' I knew...everythin' I thought I did at least...it all just seemed to...crash around in my head.

I knew that it was bad to stay with others, that you can only rely on yourself, yet...I still found myself listenin' to that damn...stubborn bitch.

I knew it wouldn' last. Nothin' good ever did.

Still, I ran.

I don' know why, I just found myself runnin'. I ran as fast as I could, to the only place I knew I could find her.