chapter 30- hiccup

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cassia's pov

sapnap
i kinda told your mom that i think i'm
in love with you

i stare at the message for a couple moments, processing it as i watch the minutes tick by. i feel my phone continue to vibrate in my hands as i now start to stare at my ceiling, very lost in thought.

sapnap
ok i know it wasn't ideal but she asked me
if i loved you and i didn't want to crush her
so i said "i think i do" and yeah it sounds
stupid now that i'm typing it 
but the 
leaving me on delivered thing is
stressing me out so please cass

i'm sorry but i don't think i had another choice

cassia
you could've said no

sapnap
really?

you're serious rn?

cassia
well yeah

cause you're not in love with me

you're leading her to believe in 
something that's never going to happen

you're giving her false hope

why the fuck would you tell her that?!

sapnap
you're also not actually my girlfriend, but
she doesn't know that either now, does she?

cassia
that's totally different and you know it

sapnap
in what world is that totally different?

cassia
in this one!

sapnap
dude

i'm sorry, okay?

i said i was sorry

i just didn't know what else to say to her

besides, we're kinda pretending to be in
love, aren't we?

so i don't really understand why you're
so upset?

help me understand?

he was right. why was i so upset? we were pretending to be in love. i guess we never established the L word, but that's a part of this whole ordeal, right?

cassia
we never said that

we said we were pretending to date

you can date someone without being in
love with them

sapnap
okay well

in this false reality where we are dating,
i AM in love with you

cassia
no you aren't!

sapnap
i am!

cassia
i can't fucking deal with you 
using the word "love" right now

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