Jeon Jungkook is a loser - JJK ff

Chapter 60

Fuck, why did I cower like that?
I have to tell her so I can figure out if she knows what's happening with Jungkook.

I tried gliding through the crowd of people amidst the loud music playing.
I'd finally found the courage and the right words to use when we'd entered the filled up house, just to look away for a few seconds and then Jennie had disappeared from me.

The purple lighting and loud music certainly didn't help with finding the pretty brown-haired girl but I didn't waver.

I had to get Jungkook help if that was what he needed but at the same time, the feeling of having betrayed Jennie couldn't leave me mind, especially after what he'd said.

I really had broken Jennie's trust but it was so hard to face.
I knew I loved Jennie and I wanted to be her friend no matter what, she'd always been so kind and amazing to be around. I wanted her in my life, the same way I wanted to be in her's.

But at the same time.... I knew now that I loved Jungkook as well, I couldn't let him go...

The choice felt harder than ever, I wanted to help Jungkook but it likely meant I had to be honest with Jennie, she'd grow suspicious of my relation to him so it was better to just tell her the truth than hide it....

Even if it meant her thinking I was using to get to her brother... which meant I'd lose her....

God, why did it have to be so complicated?

Then, as if my thoughts had been heard by her, I caught a glimpse of her going through the endless crowd of people. Without thought I ran after her, yelling her name, hoping she'd hear even over the bass boosted music thumping.

"Woah, woah, slow down, you might trip." I looked behind me, searching for the source of the deep voice.

A tall, blonde-haired man, around my age, sent me a dimpled smile.
"You okay? You seem quite panicked." He continued.

"I'm fine- I just have to ge- I have to go!"
The man lightly grabbed my shoulder,
"Are you sure? I think you might be having a panic attack, I can help you find an empty room if you need some space." He tried smiled reassuringly

"No, I just have to go after-"

"Y/N?"

My eyes landed on him almost immediately.
"Jungkook, what are you-"
Then Jungkook realized a boy was gently touching my shoulder.

Oh no....

"What the fuck are you touching her for?" He angrily stomped over to us.

"I'm just trying to help. Chill out, you don't own her."

I could barely register what happened before he threw a punch that landed right on the strange man's jaw, causing the party goers around us to gasp and move away from the brawl.

"Jungkook, stop! He didn't do anything!"
One second it was all somewhat okay, the next second, the man had fallen on the floor as Jungkook continously threw punches.

I desperately tried to pull him away but to no avail, he was way too strong.

What the fuck was even happening and why was Jungkook here?

"Stop- Jungkook, let go of him!"
Only a few of the people around came to help de-escalate the situation. Fortunately, after a few's interference, we could push the two away from each other.

"Stay the fuck away from her, dumbest." Jungkook's words were practically seething, the anger in his eyes clear as ever.

After looking over at the other man and seeing others were making sure he was okay, I hastily walked over to Jungkook and grabbed his hand, leading him away from the situation.

I wished I could've apologized to the man but there wasn't time for that. I had to get the taller male away before the situation could worsen.

Luckily, he gave in by following me out of the door until we'd reached the street where no one was.

"What the hell was that, Jungkook? You had no reason to attack him like that!" I exclaimed angrily as I attempted to keep my voice down.

"Attack him? I didn't have to do that if you didn't go around at parties talking to guys WITHOUT telling me! God, you're so fucking uncaring and reckless" He yelled back, his voice lowering slightly at the end.

"I wasn't flirting with him, he started talking to me- Why are you even behaving like this?"

"Yeah yeah, just blame everything on me."I could feel my anger growing even more when I saw him roll his eyes.

"What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you so jealous-"

"I'm not fucking jealous over you! Why the fuck do you think that you're my whole world, like I can't live without you? You're so full of yourself, Y/N."

Nothing could express how much his words stung, no, pierced through me like knives. It was clear he wasn't himself, something was wrong, but it still ached.

Did he really think of me like that?

"Jungkook-"

"No, Y/N!" He stepped closer to me, so close I could feel his breath and he suddenly felt massive.

"You're fucking dead to me, Y/N." He said, his voice quiet but stung harder than ever but as if he first realized what he had said afterwards, he stepped in horror.

An expression of guilt and shock was written all over his face as we both tried to comprehend what had just taken place.

"Y-Y/N, I- fuck.... I have to go."

"Jungkook, wait!" Before I could say anything else, he'd walked away, leaving me alone in front of the house where it had all started.

Something was wrong, very wrong.
Left in a speechless state, my mind searched for possible answers of why he was behaving so differently when it dawned on me.

It has something to do with his addiction, right?

That had to be it....

I needed to get him help but first I had to find Jennie and make sure she was okay wherever she was.