Jeon Jungkook is a loser - JJK ff

Chapter 28

"Maybe you should've thought of that before you did it." I stopped walking up the stairs and looked down at him.
"Now stop following me." I said harshly and went up to Jennie's room, leaving a speechless Jungkook behind.

When he heard the door close, he couldn't help but to frown. He put his hands on his neck and sighed.

He had really fucked up this time.

"I'm so sorry, okay..." He whispered to himself. "Fuck!" Jungkook angrily punched the white wall before walking down down to his playroom to forget about it.

As he walked towards his room, he thought about what a dick he was to her.
First being cold to her, then humiliating her in front of her friends and now this, fucking hell.

He had just wanted to play a little prank on her and then play some video games with her but he fucked it up. He wasn't angry because he liked her, he was angry because like always, he couldn't do something or communicate with another person without fucking it up.

Jungkook slammed the door shut behind him as he walked towards the black couch and sat down. He pulled a cigarette, lit it up before taking a puff.
He leaned back in pleasure and took another puff.

He took out his iPhone and called his trusted fuckbuddy, "Hey Areum, do you want to come over?"

"Now?"

"Yeah, I need a distraction."

"Sure, but I'm not giving you drugs this time, just so you know."

"Okay."

"I'll be there in 30 minutes." With that, she hung up on him.

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I was very careful with closing the door when I entered the bedroom, I sneaked over to the canopy bed buy a voice caught me off guard.

"Where were you?" To no one's surprise, it was Jennie speaking. Her eyes were still closed and she was still practically sleeping, well almost.

"Oh me, I just had to use the bathroom."

"Why didn't you use mine?"

"I uh... well I didn't want to wake you up but I guess that's too late." I chuckled awkwardly.

"Okay then, goodnight." She turned around and stopped talking.
"Goodnight to you too, I guess." And just like that, I tucked myself into the bed covers until I was comfortable before drifting off to sleep.

But Jungkook refused to let go of my mind. He was practically stuck on my brain. I opened my eyes again because I was embarrassed and angry at myself.

Stop being so fucking overly sensitive about everything and everyone, you're so fucking annoying. Stop bitching about shit that's not even that fucking deep.

That inner voice that came from my head was quick to shoot any sense of forgiveness I had for myself.
It had always been like that for as I could remember.

Anytime I had found happiness and joy in my own life, that particular voice was extremely quick to shoot it down and tear it apart.

At a point in my life, I tried defeating it and overshadowing it but later on, I just gave up on it and let it continue happening.

Finally I felt my eyes getting heavy and I eventually started to drift off to sleep.

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"Argh fuck, Areum. Just like that." He moaned as she bounced up and down on him but Areum felt that something was wrong and just off, so she got off him.

"Huh? Why'd you stop?" He looked confused at his 'lover'.

"You seem distracted, what's the matter?"

"Nothing..."

"Jungkook... you know that I'm not fucking stupid." She lightly caressed his arm.

He sighed before confessing. "I was played a prank on this one girl but I ended up humiliating her."

Then he told her everything, from who Y/N was to how his prank ended up.

"Wow... you really seem to care about that girl..."

"I don't like her, I just hate how I always end up hurting people. Everyone thinks that I'm cold-hearted and I fucking hate it."

"It seems like you do really care about this Y/N girl."

"I don't care for her, I just don't want to hurt her anymore." He was sitting on the edge of the bed along with Areum who was patting his back.

"Hmm. That makes sense, you didn't seem like the type to fall for someone else."

"I'm not, but I think I should apologize to her for embarrassing her like that."

"You probably should," She chuckled.

"On another note, have you tried to stop?" Areum continued but he already knew what he was talking about.

"Don't, just don't." He rubbed his forehead with his hands.

"But you made a promise to your siste-"

"Oh shut up," He rolled his eyes.
"Stop pretending like you give a fuck about me."

"But I do, I do give a fuck about you." She sighed deeply.

"You know what? Fuck this, I didn't bring you over to argue, I brought you over to get a good fuck and that's what I want, so are you going to let me fuck you?"

Areum rolled her eyes far into her head before nodding yes to the question.
"I just need to get hard." He then walked into the luxurious bathroom, connected by the side of his bedroom.

She couldn't help but to admire the tattoos on his arms as he walked towards the room. She'd always loved his sense of fashion and his tattoos, especially the tiger flower on his forearm.

It must've taken hours for the tattoo artist to make since it was so incredibly detailed and had been carefully designed.

But back to the actual subject, Areum liked Jungkook a lot, in a friendly way, of course. She saw a kind of potential in him that no one else had seen.
She truly did believe that he was strong enough to reach sobriety. No one else did anyway but not Areum.

She wanted to see him reach that goal, no matter how fucking hard it was, she wanted to see him experience a proper life without drugs, to see his actual smile but for now, she just needed to wait and hope for the best.