riki.nishimura. → yours sincerely

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I wasn't sure if I was deluded, or the alcohol was having an overpowering effect on my eyesight. But with the amount of alcohol I drank, there was no possible way I could be even seeing things.

He was stood leant against a wall, near the bathroom entrances, and looking down, with a smirk, he was talking to some girl.

She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, smiling as brightly as she possibly could. I just watched from afar, a little stunned.

Didn't Sunghoon say he was unwell? Or something?

I can't get over this man yet he's out here already forming alliances with the next girls he's about to take home?

Jesus, I should really get a grip of myself.

But for a strange reason, I couldn't shake my attention off what I was seeing. Even more so as he pulled her chin closer to him, he stared into her eyes, that recognisable smirk forming once again.

The girl's cheek was flushing a bright shade of pink, you could tell she was nervous from his gaze alone, and his presence even more so.

I gave a sigh, just looking down - this guy was like this to every girl, wasn't he? And he just managed to get me too.

I rubbed my face, a little exasperated and unsure if I even wanted to be here anymore. Was it even worth going to the bathroom right now? Because I was genuinely unsure if they were about to eat each other's faces out in a few seconds.

But you know what, fuck it, I made my way over to the bathroom. Niki's head turned to look at me, his attention on the random girl dropped, and he watched as I head into the bathroom, not even sparing a glance at him as I walked past.

I'll just ignore his presence, like I have been this whole time. So what that this is the first time I've seen him in a while? It doesn't change anything that has happened between us.

See, now I was clearly in a huge state of denial, I was trying my best to convince myself that everything was okay and that I was doing completely fine, but clearly not.

Seeing him like this, here, made me not even want to socialise, or drink anymore. I simply just wanted to go home and lay on my bed for a good while.

I hung around the bathroom for a little while, staring at myself in the mirror and wondering what exactly I should do. 

Man fuck this, I'm going home.

With no other thoughts, I stormed out of the bathroom, again, not even bothering to look in the direction Niki was, I just tried my best to walk back the way to the table, so I could let the girls know that I'm leaving.

I managed to get through about half way, before a hand grabbed for my wrist. I was expecting the worst, some random guy trying to get my number.

But clearly that wasn't the worst, I turned around, the firm grip situated on my wrist. The two of us locked eyes, and I'm pretty sure our faces spoke for ourselves.

"Haeun, I miss you." Niki broke the silence, his eyes gazing all over my face as I just gave a scoff.

"Clearly, missing me that much that you're flirting with other girls." I gave an arrogant chuckle, rolling my eyes at his words - as if I didn't just see him almost make out with this random girl.

"It's not what it looked like, Haeun, it's not been right without you. I'm seriously struggling without you." Niki had some sort of plead in his voice, and I almost felt bad, aaalmost.

But as he stared into my eyes, my gaze averted onto the same girl, coming up to him to the side and handing him a piece of paper, presumably with her number on it. She walked away, still staring at him as she signalled her hand into a phone.

I gave a chuckle, shaking my arm off him and storming towards the booth with my friends.

I knew he'd follow behind, so I quickly just told them I had an emergency at home, and head out of the club, putting my jacket on as I stepped outside. It was quite windy, and dark outside.

"Haeun." Niki's deep voice came from a short distance behind me, but I just focused on walking away from him, regardless of how close he was.

"Haeun I didn't mean to lie to you. I can't perform without you." Niki continued, despite my adamancy on pretending as if he's not there.

A low huff came from the clouds, it was a grim night, and small droplets of rain began hurling down on the streets. It seemed like a rainstorm was brewing up, and in a matter of time, the two of us would be swimming in rainwater.