riki.nishimura. → yours sincerely

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I walked up his huge ass marble staircase, I had no idea where I was going, but I was looking for one room in particular.

His room.

Niki followed straight behind me, wondering what the hell I was doing, looking through rooms frantically and carelessly.

"Haeun, what the hell are you doing?" Niki snapped, trying to stop me from whatever I was doing.

But if my suspicions were right, I don't even know what I'd do.

"Where the hell is your bedroom?" I retort, glaring at him intently. My demeanour meant that I was not playing around, he better tell me where the hell his bedroom is, otherwise I'll roll him down his staircase.

"What? Why? What are you doing???" Niki grabbed my wrist, his grasp fixed onto me so much that I couldn't even continue opening doors.

"Niki, I suggest you tell me where your bedroom is, cause I swear to god, I'm not playing with you right now." My tone was threatening, and he seemed to read exactly why I was here, from my face.

Just within great timing, Sunoo yelled for Niki.

"NIKI! WHERE? I DON'T SEE ANYTHING HERE???" Sunoo shouted, it echoed all the way up to where we were, and Niki just gave a sigh, with his other hand, rubbed his face.

He had no other choice but to let go of my wrist and help Sunoo find his equipment. I took this chance to continue running through his house, in search of his bedroom.

Until, I finally struck gold, and found that motherfucker's bedroom. He had guitars propped up onto his walls, a rather dark looking bedroom, it was just the kind of room I expected him to have.

I looked around, shooting my head in every direction possible, up until I focused my eyes on his desk, with a notebook on it. I approached it, flipping through countless pages of what seemed like lyrics for his band.

I skimmed my eyes through some of them, and I was just so right, it was the lyrics I had sent to Riki.

With that lead, I searched through his desk, I know it was like an invasion of privacy or whatever - but I really needed my answer, desperately.

I opened a compartment of his desk, revealing a bunch of envelopes, addressed to 'Riki'.

All I could do was let out a pitiful chuckle, just staring at the abundance of letters stacked on each other in this one compartment. I pulled a few envelopes out, and it's literally what I thought.

It had my stamped wax seal on the back, and opening the envelope, it was the exact letters I had written, all to this guy who I thought was the coolest guy to ever step on Earth.

I was speechless, not a single word could come out of my mouth over this discovery.

So all this time, all the time I've been fucking around with Niki, all the comments he made, the penpal comments, the party, everything. Everything was a reference to his little stupid penpal persona?

How the fuck could I not deduce this earlier? (im wondering the same thing it literally pains me to write how clueless you r acting)

The door to his room suddenly opened, Niki stood there, paused for a second as he gazed over at me. His eyes softened, and he hurried closer to me, but I walked away from him.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I gave a scoff, holding the envelopes in my hand as he just stared at me, apologetically.

"Haeun, listen, hear me out, just for a se-" Niki tried to keep getting closer to me, but I didn't want him near me at this point.

"You're Riki, my fucking penpal all this time. I wrote to you when I was at my lowest, you know everything about me, you know secrets that I haven't told anyone." I just stared at him, he rubbed his face, looking to the ground for a brief second.

"And you couldn't even tell me that you were him all along? You couldn't? You just had to fucking lie straight to my face and think that everything would be okay because I'm the one you're kissing?" I managed to choke out another scoff, just in pure disbelief.

"Haeun, I was really going to tell you - I just didn't expect you to be so fine, we hit it off really well so I didn't want to break the news to you yet-" Niki tried to explain himself, but I just didn't want to hear his words right now.

"You didn't expect me to be so fine? So that just makes it all okay to do this to me? Seriously? Are you out of your fucking mind?" I dropped the envelopes in my hand, they scattered to the floor, and Niki tried to touch my hand, an attempt to calm me down.

"I didn't mean it like that, Haeun, listen, please." He gave a sigh, looking down, "You're my muse, I can't lose you. Without you, I can't perform." His eyes had a glimmer of plead in them, and although I felt a tinge of sympathy, I was still overwhelmed with this news.

"Looks like you're going to have to fucking learn to then." I callously replied, no remorse in my tone at all. With that, I stormed out of his room, heading towards the exit of his house.

I had no idea how I was going to get home, especially since Sunoo had already left, but I'd rather walk home than stay with this pathetic liar.

"Haeun, don't be like this, come on, you know I was trying to tell you." Niki grabbed for my wrist, I simply shook it off, not even wanting to look at him.

I just ignored him, heading out of his house, and ensuring I slammed the door shut, just to emphasise my disappointment and annoyance with his actions.

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alr if i dont update this fic later tonight then it'll probably be the last update in a while

i know its probably not the most ideal last update but im fr gonna be so busy as soon as school starts again so im not quite sure when ill update

i probably will find the time to some days

so if i dont update later on tonight, then please be patient with me

if i do update later tonight, ignore this and you'll probably see it on a future chapter

THANKS FOR READING!!!

SEE U SOON MY GIRLFRIENDS AND BOYFRIENDS