Valor

Chapter 44

*basically just a steam chapter lol. There will be more x5 dw dw. 

ALSO this book is over 8 hours of reading time...wtf...

Promising something you don't know you can deliver is a dangerous game. Mav promising me that he will kill Marco is one of those things. I know he meant it in a reassuring way, but to me...it means something more serious.

I have to put my complete faith in these men. I trust them with my life, but I don't trust them with their own. They've made clear that they want to take down Marco at any cost. Even their lives? That angers the fuck out of me, but then i think about it more and I realize i would do the same.

I blamed the brothers for involving me in all of this, but aren't i responsible as well? I mean these brothers wouldn't have to deal with Marco if not for their connection to me.

"Get out of that head." Mav says pinching my thigh. Sitting in his lap in his office feels oddly normal. It makes me wonder what would happen if marco does die. Would this be something we do every night? Would we have dates and holidays and all the things that other "normal" people have?

I don't think I want normal. My life isn't normal. That whole white picket fence with 2.5 kids is not for me.

God even thinking about children makes me cringe.

As Mav and I walk up the stairs towards the bedroom I can't help but worry.

Deep down I think a part of me knows we will never get the white picket fence. What I mean by that is we won't even get the choice. We'll be long gone before then. When I think of the future, it's blank. There is nothing there. There's no dates, no holidays, no "normal."

"You look like shit." Kai says to Mav as he bumps into us on the top landing of the stairs.

Mav grumbles under his breath, tugging me past Kai as I let out a little chuckle. Kai is like a toddler; one moment he's go lucky and happy as hell, the next he's screaming and stabbing.

Ok maybe not a toddler.

"Where we going?" Kai asks as he follows behind me like a puppy. He bounces on his feet, trying to peer over Mav's shoulder.

I give him a deadpan look as if it's not obvious.

"Bed." Mav says, obviously annoyed with Kai's undying energy.

'Bed' Kai mouths at me while wiggling his eyebrows. I smile at him and shake my head. No way in hell are we fucking tonight. Can you even call it fucking if they just fuck me until they come, edging me the entire time. I will say it is a perfect way to punish someone because I'm sorry as fuck. I'm not even just saying that because I want this to be over.

Ok, maybe I am slightly, but can't they tell i really am sorry?

"Can you even call it sex if you don't let me come." I mutter under my breath letting my thoughts spill past my lips without even realizing it.

Mav stops his steps, coming to a complete stop in the hallway. I'm not expecting it so I run directly into his back and it feels like I just rammed my nose into a brick wall.

To make matters worse, Kai, who was trailing a couple steps behind me, also wasn't exxpecting the abrupt stop so he runs into my back, squishing me between them.

"What the hell Mav, I think you broke my nose!" I say pushing off his back and rubbing my nose which is definitely not broken.

Whatever the dramatics add to the tone.