Valor

Chapter 73

Kai

This isn't how it was supposed to happen. When Onyx said Lilah was pregnant, all I could think about was betrayal. My brother betrayed me, the love of my life betrayed me.

How could neither of them tell us she was pregnant? Tell me?

Worst of all, Lilah left me. She told me she wouldn't, ever again, and yet, she left as soon as it was convenient for her! I want to strangle her! I want to slice her her heart out just for leaving me.

I thought I knew what pain was. Pain is something I've come to love, to thrive in, but this pain is not enjoyable at all. This pain feels like I am being torn apart from the inside out.

"FUCK!" I scream, smashing my punch into the cement wall. I'm not going to lie, the cement doesn't budge.

Instead, my knuckles crack and leave bloody marks on the grey surface.

I don't stop, I keep slamming my fist over and over until I feel every inch of my begin to sweat. It's less than 20 degrees out right now and I'm sweating my ass off just to deal with all the emotions that are flowing through me.

I'm not used to this, I don't know how to deal with something this serious.

"Kai?" A soft voice asks from behind me. I know who it is right away. I don't want to talk. I want to punch this wall and scream bloody murder.

I hear a rustle of leaves before my name gets called again, this time the sound is closer.

"Kai, cmon."

I don't want to talk. Can't he see that? Can't he see the pain my body has endured and that all I want right now is to stew in my own misery?

"Kai, fucking listen to me!" Dame yells as he grips my shoulders and turns me to face him.

For once, I feel like the odd one out. Dame has a look of pure concern on his face while I'm trying to wipe tears from my cheeks.

How are they all so stable? How are they not breaking down?

This is Lilah! This is our Lilah! How has their world not stopped turning? How are they able to breath right now?

"Kai, I need you to listen to me for once." Dame demands, slapping my face slightly with his palm to bring my attention to his eye which are boring into mine.

They look just as pained as I feel, but no one would know based on how he's carrying himself. I've always worn my emotions on my sleeve.

"I don't know what to do. I need blood, I need–" I stop talking, my words dying in my throat.

"You need Lilah." He says with finality.

All of them have seen the difference in me since Lilah showed up. I've seen all of them change.

So why am I the one taking it this hard?

"She left me." I grit out between my teeth. It's easier to me mad at her than upset.

"She did." He says, his eyebrows knit together, but his stare unwavering.

"She needs to pay for that." I growl out, ripping myself from Dame's grasp.

"And she has." He says nodding at me.

We stand there in silence for a second, just looking at each other. I love my brothers with all my heart. I would die for them in a second.

I used to not want to survive without them.

Now I don't know if I'll be able to survive for them.