Valor

Chapter 69

*Basically a spice chapter before shit goes down...sorry but also not. The calm before the storm if you will....

"Why not?" I whine as Mav glares at me through the rearview mirror.

"Because he's fine with Reggie and we don't need any more people to worry about." He grumbles, flipping his indicator to get off the highway towards the Valor house.

"Technically he's not a person." Kai mumbles as he looks out the window, one hand intertwined with mine.

Mav huffs out a breath, taking a moment to compose himself before speaking once again.

"We will get Manson when the shit with Marco is over. Final decision."

I pout at him before resting my head on Kai's shoulder, using his warmth to soothe my restless soul.

"He's all I have left of Casey."

Even though I whisper those words, the car goes silent, giving away that everyone heard me. I think they're all scared I'm one trip away from falling back into the deep depression that almost took me out completelty. I want to reassure them that I won't leave them again, but I can't.

Sure, I may be a badass on the outside that lets shit roll off of me like it's nothing, but they know how how my brain works. They know the shell of me is a farce half the time and internally I am fighting a battle between fear and anger.

The past week has been a hellhole. Between going to the clinic with Onyx to knowing we'll be facing Marco in a day, it's all coming to a head. I don't know what to think or what to say in front of the brothers, but so far none of them have questioned the mask I wear. I know telling them will only create more problems, and it's not like the information would be useful.

"Oh I went to the clinic because I thought I was pregnant?"

Yeah that's a great way to start a conversation just before you go to murder your abuser and rapist.

No—i think it's something I'll take to my grave, but I think Onyx won't let me. He'll tell me its important and they deserve to know, especially when it made me scared.

I am scared, but not for the reason he thinks.

When he heard those words in the clinic, he tried to hide his shock and the emotions that followed, but I've gotten really good at seeing through his mask.

He was excited and that scared me. He was excited about the possibility of a child. Will the others be the same? What if that's not something I can or want to give to them.

"Cmon Trouble." Dame whispers gently into my ear as he tugs my hand into his.

We've arrived at the Valor house and it looks exactly the same as the first time I came here. The difference is all the things that happened in between them and now. I died in this house, I came alive in this house.

This house was my demise and my salvation. Although, maybe it wasn't the house, but instead the occupants.

"Remeber when I came here for the first time?" I ask Dame as he leads me up the stone steps and into the house where Mav and Onyx are already grumbling about the state of the place.

They told me someone had been coming here for the upkeep and that they've had security detailing the place since we left. I didn't notice the cameras outside, but I did notice the armed guards around the property.

I wonder how they can get away with that.

Dame snorts, "Yeah you wanted to kill Kai."

Kai shurgs while grabbing a beer out of the fridge and using the corner of the table to crack it open.