NEVER

27.

the next morning....

solace's warm body weighed heavy on mines like a weighted blanket sinking me deep into a mattress. i gently dragged my fingers along his back, tracing the dark lines of his vivid tattoos while the soft and therapeutic sound of his snores put me at ease.

there's no telling how long i've been up—constant thoughts of how to be perfect for him ran through my mind till the sun rose and painted his room in golden lights.

fuck, im so in love with this man.

i never want to come down from this high, i'll do anything to not lose this feeling.

"....how long you been watching me ?" solace suddenly mumbles, lifting his head so his sleepy gaze meets mines.

"all night...."

a soft chuckle left his lips.

"you should've gotten some sleep." exhaling lightly, he rested his chin on my naked chest. "now you gonna be all sore and worn out today."

he was right, he didn't hold back when he told me he'll hurt me. the pain was equivalent to getting hit by a mack truck but it didn't phase me like i thought it would....when you're so fucked up in the head that you tried to kill yourself 3 times and you're a wrist slitter, you'll come to realize "what's the worst that can happen to a girl who's already hurt ?" this pain isn't so bad at all.

"i'll be okay." i cupped his cheeks and smiled watching the gaze in his eyes trail in deep thought.

"i am nothing without you aina...." solace suddenly mumbles, lifting himself off me. his wide hands palms my waist and effortlessly pulls me into his arms. immediately, i was greeted by his warmth again. "every single part of me belongs to you...."

"i love you so much solace." my words were soft. the feeling of his lips against my neck brought back memories of last night and i suddenly wanted to do it all over again.

solace made sure he didn't break our kiss as my hand gently stroked his manhood. i slowly guided him inside of me, my stomach fluttering from the sounds of our moans we both let out in sync.

"cariñaaa where are youu, why did i just find mi-na chilling outside on the steps ? it's mad cold for her to be out there." gisela's faint voice echoed throughout his apartment causing me to snap my head towards the doorway.

a heavy sigh escaped solace's lips.

"why the fuck haven't i changed my locks yet...." he mumbled into my ear, agony leaking his voice as he covered my naked body with his dark red silky sheets. my face burned with embarrassment watching gisela and bastard walk into the room. "is there a reason why you keep showing up unannounced ?"

"mmcht i have to have a reason ? i hope i didn't interrupt anything, i just really missed my brother...." bas teased, averting his attention towards me. he began to viciously wave and i couldn't help the ugly laugh i snorted. "wass'good ao."

"hii bas." i dragged, turning towards gisela. she seemed to already know what i wanted the way she sprinted into my arms. falling back, we engulfed each other in the tightest hug.

we saw each other yesterday by the way....

"hi my gigi."

before pulling away, she kissed my cheeks.