My Sister's Boyfriend's Brother {bxb}

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On Wednesday I was surprised to know that things were silent. People weren't talking about my kiss with Preston in the parking lot but Jasper wasn't talking to me at all. Natalie and Evan didn't completely ignore me which is why I sat with their group during lunch. Things with Preston didn't feel any different which I was grateful for but there was still a part of me that wished Jasper...

What am I saying?

I already knew things with Jasper weren't going to change anytime soon.

But now it was Thursday, only two days before the kickback at my house. I was sitting in my first period class lost staring at the blank page in front of me. Mrs. Peggy was teaching her lecture but I completely zoned it out. I knew that Preston was sitting beside me and I could feel his eyes drilling a hole in my head. My phone turning on was the only thing that was enough to snap me back to reality.

Quinn: Don't be a stranger.

I grabbed my phone to text her back, curious why she was even texting me.

Me: What are you talking about?

It wasn't long before she read my text message and was texting me back.

Quinn: You didn't sit with us yesterday.

Quinn: And we still need to talk about the kickback.

I let out a sigh, turned off my phone and placed it in my lap. I wasn't going to ignore her message, I was planning on texting her back, but Mrs. Peggy doesn't play about the phone rule. So, for now I was leaving Quinn on read and hoped that she wasn't going to take it to heart.

Once the dismissal bell rang, ending our first period all the students got up and rushed out of the classroom. Besides me. I stayed behind to slowly gather my things but I heard footsteps approaching me then soon Preston was standing in front of me. I looked up meeting his eyes and could tell that he was worried.

"Everything okay?"

See, I didn't find the time to tell Preston everything that happened once he dropped me off at Jasper's house. Not because I didn't want to (I really didn't want to tell him) but because I didn't think it was something for him to know. Still, the things that Jasper said were on my mind.

"You don't love him as much as he loves you."

He was wrong about that. Of course I love Preston but did I really love him more than my best friend for eight years?

"Yeah," I replied to his question. "Just tired."

I slung my backpack over my shoulder and together we both made our leave to the door. "Can I see you at lunch?" Preston asked.

I opened my mouth ready to give him an answer, "that would be nice," is what I wanted to tell him but after seeing Jasper...

His eyes locked on me and Preston for only a second before he looked away ducking off into the restroom, my reply changed.

"I'll text you," I said then without waiting to hear what Preston had to say I walked into my second period class.

What did it mean to be in a relationship? A question I needed an answer to. Was your undying crush on someone supposed to stop you from fully loving someone else? Were you ever supposed to move on and let go? I thought I did. That night after talking with Jasper.

"I don't love Preston."

"I'm not going to let someone ruin our friendship of eight years."

"I'm not going to block you out the same way you did me."

I said those words and I meant every single one of those words and that was when I thought I knew I was letting him go. I thought that was going to be the end of my crush on my sister's boyfriend's brother but it wasn't. But now... now I feel like... those feelings just keep growing and there's never going to be an end.