Unexpected Divine Encounter

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Anuj Kapadia's mind was a whirlwind of guilt and regret as he walked away from Shah House. The image of Anupamaa, smiling for her children but hiding a sea of pain beneath her glowing face, clung to his consciousness like a haunting shadow. He had always believed that by staying away, by not confessing his love in college or later when she got married, he had done the right thing. He thought she was happy-*truly* happy with Vanraj, living a life of fulfillment with her family.But today, after seeing her with his own eyes, the truth hit him like a dagger to the heart. She wasn't happy. She was surviving. And he-he had let her slip away without even trying to fight for her happiness, for their love. The guilt gnawed at him, deepening the already festering wound left by his failures with Mukku. *What if I had told her back in college? What if I had fought for her then? Would she have been happier? Would she have been free from this prison of duty she now lives in?*His heart was breaking, the weight of regret unbearable. The guilt he felt about Mukku-how he had overstepped, how he had tried to control her life-now merged with his sorrow for Anupamaa. He had failed the two most important people in his life, and now he had no one. No parents. No Mukku. And Anupamaa-trapped in a life he had been too scared to disrupt.As these thoughts consumed him, Anuj wandered aimlessly through the streets, his feet carrying him without direction. The vibrant city around him felt like a blur, distant and indifferent to the storm raging inside him. His heart felt heavy, each beat like a painful reminder of everything he had lost, everything he had failed to do. He felt utterly alone. What do I have left? he thought. Nothing.The thought gnawed at him, dark and cold. The idea of ending it all-just disappearing from the world that had brought him so much pain-began to creep into his mind. Maybe I don't have a place in this life anymore. Maybe it would be better if I just left...As he walked further, his feet led him to a large Radha Krishna Mandir. The temple was majestic, its white marble steps gleaming under the fading sun. The temple stood tall and serene, surrounded by an open garden that radiated calmness. Large trees offered shade to the weary, and flowers of every color bloomed, spreading a sense of tranquility. The quiet hum of devotees, the scent of incense, and the sound of bells ringing softly in the distance created an atmosphere of divine peace. Anuj, lost in his despair, barely noticed the beauty of the Mandir at first. But something pulled him in. Without thinking, he walked toward it, his legs carrying him inside as if by instinct. He found a quiet corner in the temple courtyard, where the idol of Krishna stood resplendent, smiling as if welcoming him.Anuj sat down, his body trembling with the weight of his emotions. And then, for the first time in what felt like years, he broke down. Tears streamed down his face, his chest heaving with sobs that he had kept buried deep inside for so long. He looked up at the idol of Kanha ji, his voice trembling as he began to speak, his heart pouring out everything he had been holding back.
"Kanha ji... kya galti hui mujhse? Sab kuch toot gaya, aur main bas dekhte reh gaya. Mukku... uske liye toh sab kuch karna chaha, par kya kiya maine? Uski zindagi mein dard bhar diya. Aur Anupamaa... jo kabhi meri thi hi nahi, uske liye bhi kuch nahi kar paya. Uska sukh, uska dukh, sab paraya ho gaya. Kya main itna kamzor tha, Kanha ji? College mein agar himmat dikhaata, agar apne dil ki baat keh deta... toh shayad aaj sab alag hota. Shayd wo khush hoti, main khush hota.""Mere paas ab kuch nahi bacha. Na Mukku, na Anupamaa, na maa-baap. Sab khatam ho gaya. Main kis liye jee raha hoon? Kis ke liye?""Mujhe koi raasta nahi dikh raha, Kanha ji. Kya mujhe bas yeh dard jeene ka ek hissa bana lena chahiye? Ya main sab kuch chhod ke chala jaoon? Kya yahi meri taqdeer thi?"His voice cracked, and he buried his face in his hands, sobbing into the silence of the temple. The divine energy around him seemed to wrap him in its warmth, but his heart remained cold, numb from the pain.After some time, his tears finally slowed, leaving him exhausted and broken. He lifted his head, wiping his eyes, when something caught his attention.In the garden just outside the temple, there was a young boy. He couldn't have been more than eight years old, with a bare upper body, wearing a simple *dhoti* and *shawl*, and a gopi tilak adorning his forehead. The boy sat on the ground, his small hands immersed in the wet mud, shaping it with a kind of reverence and joy. He was not merely playing-he was creating something. Anuj, still numb, found himself drawn to the boy. There was something magnetic about him, something peaceful yet powerful. As he approached, he could hear the boy softly chanting: "Om Namo Bhagavate Vaasudevaya Namah..."*The sound of the boy's soft voice, the rhythm of the ancient chant, seemed to fill the air around them with an ethereal calm. The boy was sculpting something with the mud, but Anuj couldn't quite make out what it was yet. There was a serene focus in the boy's eyes, as if the entire world had faded away, and only his creation mattered.As Anuj drew closer, he felt a strange sense of peace washing over him, as though this boy's presence had reached inside him and calmed the storm raging in his heart. For the first time in days, his mind was quiet. "Tum kya bana rahe ho?" Anuj asked softly, his voice still thick with emotion.The boy looked up at him and smiled-a simple, pure smile that seemed to carry the weight of wisdom far beyond his years."Mitti se Shriman Narayana ke murty bana raha hoon," the boy said, his voice gentle but filled with devotion. "Har cheez mein Narayan hai, bhaiya. Bas hum samajh nahi paate." He continued, "Kehthe hai na 'Patanahi kis roop mei aakar Narayan miljaayega' toh mei sirf intezaar hi karr raha hu unka". Anuj's heart stilled at the boy's words. There was something profound in them, something that seemed to speak directly to his soul. In that moment, under the vast sky and the silent gaze of the temple's deities, Anuj Kapadia found himself standing at the edge of a truth he had long forgotten-that love, like Krishna, was everywhere. Even in pain. Even in loss. And maybe, just maybe, there was still something left for him to find. He went and sat beside that child.

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