traded my life [TWD]

『112』

hello it me

tw: carl talks a little about his close call SA with the claimers bc baby boy deserves to vent and no one listens to him fck u canon

stay safe, i love you

"What the fuck?" I whisper to myself, kicking the stupid stroller in an attempt to open it.

Woojin picks at blades of grass, not even bothering to notice my breakdown of this contraption.

I pull the lever once more, but the damn thing doesn't even try to open. I groan to myself, kicking and pulling whatever I can reach but nothing works.

"Fucks sake," I continue to curse.

"Need some help there?" Maggie asks, walking over.

My throat goes a bit dry. We hadn't talked in a while.. I hadn't even approached her about the Bible-note she left me.

"This thing is more difficult than any gun I've put together," I complain.

"Here," she says, stepping to my side. "Let me have a look."

She fiddles with it for less than a minute- the stroller ready to move as she stands up straight. She gives me a smile and sets her hand on the handle.

"Big sister, remember?" she gloats. "Used to push Bethy around in these things all the time."

"Now you're just rubbing it in," I scoff. "Thanks."

It goes silent for a moment and Maggie and I just kind of watch each other. My chest aches with unsaid words and a damaged bond.

"Look, I-"

"Don't," she cuts me off, reaching over to grab my arm. "I'm the one that should apologize."

I shake my head. "I should. I shouldn't have just left you like that after everything."

I was getting used to apologizing and meaning it. I force myself now to make an apology with the words 'but' or 'I just' following in an attempt to make excuses for my shitty behavior. 

"You were right. I was angry. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. I should have talked it out instead of lashing out when we didn't agree," Maggie continues.

I tug her hand off my arm to lock our hands together. "Shit was horrible and we weren't thinking straight. I'm sorry for leaving you."

"I'm sorry for not following you," she says with a pained smile.

All I could really do was shake my head in denial. My chest felt so heavy and I could feel those cries bubbling in my stomach.

"Thank you for being there for Beth.. I can't imagine the things you did to protect her. And you brought her back to me.. I can't tell you what that means."