I'll Be Waiting

Chapter 12 Restart

Camilo P.O.V
"Bellamy!" We all yelled, as he ran out of the room."Bellamy!" I stopped yelling, but the others kept calling him.

"Guys, just let him go." I told Octavia and Sasha. They turned to me, eyebrows raised."They need to work some stuff out."

Octavia sighed, and sat on the edge of my bed."I wish they would quit being stupid, and get back together."

Sasha nodded in agreement."Me too, I've only known you guys for like a day and a half, but Clarke seems miserable and Bellamy seems worse."
I remained silent. It wasn't that I didn't want them to be happy but I certainly didn't want them together. Sometimes I wished I had never fallen for Clarke. I wished that I could fall for someone else, but I knew that wasn't possible. I was already in too deep.

Clarke P.O.V
I forced myself to walk out of the room, only to starts sprinting as soon as I was out of their sight. I ran not knowing where I was heading. I kept running, and eventually made it out of the school. I didn't stop running until I reached the park, across from the school. I sat down on the grass, and leaned on a tree. I tilted my head back and closed my eyes. Why did I care? How could he even ask that. He knew I still loved him, and yet he acted as if he didn't.
Why did he even have to come to this school? Why did I chose to come to this school? I could have gone to Juilliard, the top music school on the country, but I decided to go here. I guess I just thought that Manhattan would be a better school for me. Still, I could have gone to another school, and I ended up here with Bellamy. I felt someone sit down next to me. I didn't open my eyes, already knowing it was Octavia. I didn't say anything and neither did she. I could lie, and say that I wasn't even the slight bit happy to see Bellamy, but the fact was that I was happy to see him. Seeing him had made my heart flutter in proof that I still loved him. I sighed. I didn't regret loving Bellamy and I never would, because when I had been with him I felt happier than ever before. He had made me feel things I never had, and that just made me love him more. But, I sometimes wondered what my life would be like if I hadn't fallen in love with Bellamy. I wondered what it would be like if I had fallen in love with someone else. I also wondered what would happen if I moved on from Bellamy, and fell in love with someone else. I knew that would never happen though, I was in too deep.

I still felt Octavia sitting next to me, but she wasn't saying anything. Odd, I thought that by now she would have said something. That is unless it wasn't her. She continued not to speak. My eyes were still shut.

"Octavia?" I asked. She didn't respond. Okay, so it wasn't Octavia. If it wasn't Octavia then who was it? Sasha? No, I don't think so. Camilo? No, he usually gives me some space when I am upset. The only person I could think of was...

"Wrong Blake." He said. Bellamy. Bellamy had followed me out here. I pushed myself off the ground and went to leave, when his warm hand wrapped around my wrist and pulled me back down. I felt a jolt of electricity shoot through me, starting at the point where his hand met my wrist.

"Please stay Clarke." He said quietly.

I sat down crossing my arms, but refused to so much as glance his way."Give me a reason as to why I should stay, when you didn't."

He was silent as if contemplating his next words."Because I can't stay like this anymore. I cannot stand not you looking at me with so much sadness in your eyes. It hurts me to see you like this, and it makes me feel worse than when I was apart from you."

I sighed, he was good."Fine, I'll stay." My head was turned away from him.

"Clarke look at me," he told me. I didn't. He put two fingers underneath my chin, and turned my head to his. I was facing him, but I didn't meet his eyes. "Clarke." I didn't look at him.

"Clarke," he said more firmly, but I remained looking down, much to his frustration.

"Clarke!" He exclaimed.

Finally, I met his gaze. My face twisted into a scowl."What?"

He looked down at me, a storm blazing in his eyes."I left for you."

I stared at him."For me? Why for me? How on Earth does you leaving do me any good?"

Bellamy removed his fingers from underneath my chin."You wanted to become a doctor and I was holding you back."

I scoffed."Bellamy how thick are you?" He stared at me, eyebrow raised."Bellamy I'm here to study music for a reason. My dream wasn't to become a doctor that was my mother's dream." I turned my whole body around to face him.

Bellamy did the same, now we were completely across from each other, staring in each other's eyes. The gaze coming from his brown eyes clashed with the gaze from my blue eyes.

"Clarke, you know it's not just that. I am not going anywhere, you are." He told me seriously.

My gaze was hard as I stared at him."I don't fucking care. I love you, and you love me, that's all that matters."

Bellamy P.O.V
As I stared at Clarke, I saw a determination in her eyes that I had never seen before. All I wanted to say was that I agreed, that all that mattered was our love because I truly believed that, but I couldn't say that. I couldn't say that, because I also believed that she wouldn't be happy with me so instead I said something else.

"Clarke, I love you more than anything in the world." I paused before continuing. "But, I think we should restart."Oh God, what am I doing.

Clarke gaped at me. "What?"

"We should start over." What the hell am I saying?"It would be as we never met." I didn't want this, but it was for the best.

"You want to be friends?" She asked in shock. No I didn't. I loved her too much to be friends. My heart broke at the thought of having her close to me again, but not being able to take her in my arms and tell her how much she means to me.

I swallowed. "Restart?"

MAX P.O.V

I sat on the couch shaking my leg as I waited for the kids to finish their breakfast.  I ran a hand through my hair, wincing as my fingers tangled in the ratty knots.  Just as I freed my fingers, I felt the cushion next to me sink down. Lluvia held a plate filled with a stack of sweet-smelling, chocolate chip pancakes.  I glanced at it for a split second before taking it from her and scarfing them down. Mm, oh gosh it was like a taste explosion.

Lluvia laughed. "Would you like to join us at the table?"

I wiped a piece of chocolate from my chin and glanced over at my Flock. I wanted to leave, if we stayed here any longer, we could be tracked. I looked over at the door, but Fang wasn't back yet. We couldn't leave without him, I wouldn't.

Turning to Lluvia  swallowed. "I-" The door opened and I stood up immediately, getting ready to battle. Except it wasn't an Eraser, but instead an idiot.

I charged over to Fang. "Where the hell have you been?" I shoved him back and he groaned. That was when I really took in his appearance. Messy hair, but not from a fight, wrinkled clothes, but not from being taken. To top it off, there was a distinct stench coming from him, alcohol. "You are a grade A idiot." I began to walk away, when he grabbed my elbow.

"Max," he groaned.

I yanked it out of his grip. "What?"

He rubbed his temples. "I-"

"Don't care about what happens to the rest of you?" I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms over my chest. "Is that what you were going to say, Nicholas?" He glared at me  and I glared back, not willing to back down. I knew I was getting on his nerves and that was just my intention.  If he was willing to worry me all night then I was willing to piss him off for a few minutes.

"Max, " He put his hands on my shoulders. "Nothing happened." I looked up, glaring into his eyes. He was lying, I knew he was. "Bullcrap."  I ushed his hand off him and turned away to the kids. "Get ready to leave."