Tomatoes. ➭ Cyno X OC [Hogwarts AU]

blurry. || sixty seven.

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[Ainsley's POV.]

It was all a blur now. Everything in my life seemed unclear.

The only things I had displayed in 4k for me was Cyno and I's relationship, but even that- I hate to admit, but that was knocked down to 144p recently.

It had been days, almost a week since Cyno and I had our disagreement. We haven't even seen each other since then.

We had only a fair bit of classes together, one of which I was heading to.

Walking into History of Magic, I saw Cyno's usual spot empty.

Was he late? Unlikely.

I hesitantly walked up to his desk, debating whether or not I should take a seat.

"You can sit here, it's only me and Tighnari." A familiar voice announced.

It was Austin.

"Why? What about the other two?" I asked the guy, clueless.

"Yeah, Sam went along with Paige Miller and Lyanna Kennedy to volunteer for something and you know Cyno joined Zena Kasper's study group so." He shrugged like he was stating the obvious.

As much as I was happy the Paige finally got some alone time with her crush Samuel Rose, I was completely off-guard about Cyno and his new participation.

"Since when did Cyno study with them?" My confusion seemed to confuse him.

"What? You didn't know? It's been three days since he did." Austin revealed.

Three days, huh. I didn't have any classes with him for the past few days so that explains.

But he didn't even tell me? Right, we hadn't been talking at all.

"Okay, thanks. I'll just sit in Paige's place. It's only Sydney there anyways." I shrugged before settling down at the desk in front.

Sydney wasn't here yet, so I had some alone time to think about a lot of stuff.

Even those I didn't want to.

I missed Cyno. I really did. I knew very well he was just worried for me. He was always looking out for me. But it's me, I would keep locking him away and let myself get engulfed by whatever I was going through.

The only consequence, or at least what I believe to be the only one, was sleepless nights. That was solved though, I found myself sleeping extra hours at night through my pills. So I thought I was good.

I mean I was, right? I couldn't sleep, but xanax helped me there.

But sometimes, I wonder if I were just a little more open about my feelings to Cyno, if I had opened up about the shit that kept me up at night, would he have been my cure? My drug to keep me high enough to relax?

I don't know. I wouldn't. I never tried.

My excuse was that I didn't want to worry him. While that was half true, there was something else that completely explained why.