Tomatoes. ➭ Cyno X OC [Hogwarts AU]

emotions. || sixty nine.

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[Cyno's POV.]

It was annoying. All of it.

The silence as we worked on sophisticated portions was too loud. It itched me all over, my hands struggling to hold my pen steadily. All while a single image from a few days ago engraved itself in my brain.

"What about you Cyno? What're you getting for problem 39?" Zena questioned, I gave her the answer earning a nod.

"So Serena and Kevin have made a mistake." They continued discussing while I spaced back out.

It was unforgettable. Ainsley's face when I walked out on her. I had never seen her look that helpless before.

I just so wanted to give in to her. To hug her and apologise for being too pushy. To tell her that she would be okay, if not now then eventually.

But I didn't. Because both of us knew that was false. She would get nowhere near okay if she kept burying things deep within her. If not today, she'd burst out in pain tomorrow.

And that wasn't something I liked imagining.

Hence, I walked away.

Though, I left she was living rent free in my thoughts. I refused to talk to her, sit next to her or even be in the same room as her. I thought maybe avoiding any sight of her would let me catch a break.

It was selfish, but at that moment I felt like I needed it. I felt exhausted. Going round and round to make sure she's feeling the best version of herself but how would I get even one step forward if I didn't know what her worst was.

I still wanted to go back to her. Actually, I can't wait for myself to realise that all this was hopeless and give myself back up to her.

Even if she realised what I was trying to do for her, I'm sure she would assure me and leave it at that.

She did things on her own. That was Ainsley Carlton. Stubborn and confident just as much as vulnerable and insecure she was.

That was the girl I let myself fall in love with. I wasn't saying that I didn't like that about her now, no. But I want her to understand that she was safe with me.

To trust in me as much as I trusted in her to face it by herself.

"Guess we'll work on the rest after dinner? If everyone's free." Serena suggested.

"I don't think so." I turned it down, not knowing why in the first place. "I'm busy tonight."

It's only after I finish that sentence, I learn that I was going to be busy.

I will talk to Ainsley tonight.

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"Guess what?" Tighnari called out when I bumped into him on my way to Ainsley's room.

"What is it? I've got to be somewhere." I hurried my friend.

"Where? Ainsley's room?" Tighnari frowned, I nodded in reply.

"I figured you were right. It's best if we talk it out as soon as possible."