I Kissed A Boy.

22.

**Ziggy.**

I walked into the classroom with my heart racing.
My uncle frowned softly at me.
"Is everything alright, Ziggy?" He asked me.
I didn't want to flinch in front of him, especially over a basic question of concern.
I forced myself to stiffen up as I nodded.
"Y-Yeah, sorry I'm late." I told him.
My uncle frowned softly.
"It's alright, you still had a few minutes to spare, but are you sure you're okay?" He questioned.
My face was getting hot.
"I'm fine." I lied as I made my way to the desk.

Kaiser's eyes were already on me, which so was Jackie's who sat in front of the other.

"You're trembling, Ziggy, what happened out there?" Kaiser asked, it was obvious he wanted to touch me, but with us being in the classroom?
That was not an option.

"N-Nothing-"
"Don't lie." Kaiser frowned and this time I flinched.
Which made his brows knit looking at me.
"Ziggy-"

"Devi showed up." I told them as Kaiser's eyes grew wide.
"What happened, Ziggy?" He pushed as my face flushed red.
"Z-Zeke wanted to remind me of my place, and w-when Asher grabbed me. I told him to let me go, and when he refused to let go, Devi showed up." I could feel my eyes burning.
"H-He didn't do anything except help me.. and when I asked why he stepped in, he told me it was because we were going to be great friends." I told him.

Kaiser was staring hard before looking away, I could see his eyes trying to darken as Jackie frowned at the other.
"Do you need to cool your head?" Jackie asked him.
Kaiser frowned at the other.
"No, I'm fine." He inhaled sharply.

I frowned softly at the other.
"Kai-"
"I don't want you anywhere near Devi, I don't know what his plan is, but wanting to be friends? There's nothing good coming from that, he's up to something and I don't trust him." Kaiser frowned at me.
"I already have to restrain myself from not seriously hurting the two that followed you here, and with Devi starting to be more active around us? There's something going on." He said.

Jackie frowned at the other.
"Think he's going to come after the twins and whatever humans we have left in this school?" He asked the other.
Kaiser's eyes fell on me and his expression softened as he reached, taking my hand as he gently squeezed it.
"I don't know what to think, Devi is hard to get a read on when it comes to that twisted personality of his, but I do think it would be a good idea to keep the twins close. Jayce has Dorian, but who does Joshua have?" He asked.

Jackie stared before he glared softly.
"You don't think... Devi is after Joshua, do you?" He questioned now.

I looked at the two.
"D-Does that mean, Devi would want to kill Joshua?" I asked.
Kaiser looked to me.
"I can't answer that because I don't know for sure, anytime Devi's went after someone? They've become like us, in the most unpleasant way, as for Devi possibly being after Joshua? The only reason that guy would be after him is if Joshua did something to provoke Devi somehow, but I don't see Joshua as the provoking type." He ran a hand through his hair.

"This is all so frustrating." He sighed.
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I walked down the hall in silence as I headed to second period.
Rocky and the twins would be in that class.
And the more I tried not to worry about him.
I was worried about Joshua.
What if Devi was actually after Joshua?
I guess the big question would be.
Why was Devi after Joshua?

"Zigzag!" Rocky hugged me as I stepped inside of the classroom.
"Are you okay? Did those bastards hurt you?" He asked me as the twins walked up.
I shook my head.
"No.. I mean, t-they wanted to, but then Devi showed up." I told him.

"Why?" Rocky's eyes were black as Jayce leaned over, frowning at the other.
"Rocky, fix your eyes." He told him.
Rocky blinked before rubbing his eyes.
"Sorry, a bad habit with anger, but why?" He looked at me.

I rubbed my upper arm.
"Zeke was going to remind me of my place, Asher grabbed me and then Devi showed up. He made the two leave after making them mad, but when I asked why he stepped in.. he told me it was because we were going to be great friends." I told them.

"Hold on." Rocky laughed standing there as he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"What the hell do you mean, Zeke was going to remind you of your place? Who the fuck-"
"Rocky, calm down." Joshua frowned at the other.
"It's just intimidating vampire talk." He told him.

Rocky stepped back with irritation in his eyes.
"I know all about intimidating, but it does NOT give those two bastards the right to come to our school and start shit, especially them coming after Zigzag." He growled now.

"Did you say that Devi wanted to be friends with you?" Joshua asked me, frowning.
I frowned softly but nodded.
"I.. I couldn't tell if he was joking or not, but Jackie and Kaiser are against it-"

"As your boyfriend should be, I mean Jackie is going to be against it for personal reasons, but Kaiser knows who Devi is and that guy isn't to be trusted. He hates humans." Rocky told me, but as he said that.
Joshua was glaring softly at the other.

"But.. he helped me out." I rubbed my neck as Rocky frowned.
"If Devi is acting out of character, it means there's something he's going to be after. You can NOT trust what Devi says, Zigzag. As a human, you can't sense these things, but I can." Rocky told me.

I frowned softly before nodding.
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After lunch, I headed straight to the track because I knew we would be running or walking laps today.
I just don't know if my stamina would hold out for this.
I've always hated running.

"Hey, Ziggy, can we talk?" I turned to Joshua who walked up to me now.
I had class with him, Kaiser, Stetson and Devin, but apparently Devin was playing hooky today.

I nodded.
"Mhm, is everything okay?" I asked him.
Joshua frowned looking around.
Like he was looking for Kaiser and Stetson.
But those two were running laps, instead of walking.
Plus, I think Kaiser wanted to run so he would clear his head.

"Are you good with secrets?" Joshua questioned.
I looked at him.
"I believe I am, no one's really trusted me with secrets before because I've never had friends." I told him.
Joshua stared before weakly smiling.
"Well, that just depressed me." He laughed as I blinked before making myself smile softly.
"Sorry.. I'm still trying to get used to this.. but, what is your secret?" I asked him.

Joshua looked to me before rubbing the side of his neck.
"Before I get into it, let's say there's this guy you like, and because of his reputation, you don't say or do anything because of your friends opinions. But, you've been this person who's done nothing but supported your friends and watched each of them end up with the one they like, and then one night? You end up running into that person you like, and things get.. overly flirty, but you find out that they like you.. or well, you think they like you because you kiss and other stuff, what would you do?" He asked me.

My mind was spiraling.
"W-Well.. if I really liked that person, and they made it seem mutual.. I would see where things went, but Joshua, are you talking about De-"
My eyes grew wide when Joshua placed his hand over my mouth.

"Are you two going to run or just walk the whole time?" Stetson teased as he ran past us.
My eyes fell on Kaiser who slowed down, he looked at me with a soft smile.
"Ignore him, are you feeling better compared to this morning?" He asked me.

I blinked before my face grew warm.
"Mhm, I'm okay.. are you okay?" I questioned.
Kaiser's eyes slightly widened but he smiled.
"I'm fine." He looked over his shoulder before cupping the side of my face, his lips gently pressing to mine.
"Don't force yourself to run unless you want to, it's pretty exhausting." He smiled before running off to catch up to Stetson.

"I want that." Joshua said and it threw me off as I turned to him.
But my brows knitted seeing how sad he actually looked, when he said it.
"But because it's who I like, none of our friends are going to approve of that idea." Joshua frowned.
I looked at him.
"I-I'm still new to actually dating someone, but, Joshua.. if you really like that guy.. I think you need to ask yourself, what's more important.. your own happiness, or the opinions of your brother and friends." I told him.

Joshua frowned at me.
"If that's the case, it's obvious I'd choose my brother." He smiled sadly.
"I really like that guy, but I'd never want to hurt my brother.. Jayce is terrified of Devi." He said.
I looked at the other.
"Then.. you answered your own question, but... I think that if you two did end up together, and everyone saw how happy you were? Even your brother would change his mind on being against you two dating.. in the end, I.. I think it's our own happiness that matters the most, even if it means hurting others along the way." I told him.

Joshua looked at me.
"So if no one liked Kaiser, if we had all told you to stay far away from him because he's been known to kill and act out, but you really liked him. Are you saying, you would choose Kaiser?" He asked me.
My face grew warm.
"I'm saying... I would find a way to change Kaiser, it would probably take time, but if you really like that person.. you'd do everything in your power to help them change right?" I questioned.

"What if they don't want to change? What if that option isn't even on the table?" Joshua frowned at me.
I frowned softly.
"Then.. that's when you ask yourself again, what is more important? Your happiness or your loved ones?" 
After that, the rest of gym class was the two of us walking in silence.
And Joshua being left alone with his thoughts.
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I walked into last period which was Sex Ed and felt this wave of nausea.
This was the only class period I had where I was alone.
And it left me alone with my own thoughts.

Joshua really liked Devi.
And if I understood Joshua right..
Devi liked him as well.
But were Devi's feelings real for Joshua?
Or was he using him for something else..
I didn't want to think that way.
I hated thinking that way.

But if Devi was as evil and cruel like everyone said he was.
Then Joshua wasn't safe.
And I couldn't go to our friends about this.
Because I promised Joshua I would stay quiet.
I guess...
If things went south, I would be the one making myself stand up for my friend.
Whether I was prepared to or not.

I looked out the window, but that uneasy feeling returned when I made myself look to the door.
My blood ran ice cold.
Not just one.
But both Zeke and Asher walked into the classroom, looking over their schedules.

I had no one in this classroom  to keep my mind off of them being in here.
I didn't want to be that student who changed his schedule.
But this might be pushing it.

"Ah, Ziggy, would you mind coming up here for a moment?" Mr.Levine requested which brought me from thought.
I always had an unsettling vibe about this teacher, every time I walked into this class.
His eyes were always on me.

I frowned softly making my way up to the front, and that included walking past Zeke whose eyes were locked right on me.

I walked up to the teacher with raven black hair and gray eyes, he held some papers while looking at me.
"Yes sir..?" I held my upper arm looking at the other.
Mr.Levine frowned.
"I've noticed you've been struggling a lot here recently with focusing, Ziggy, especially on the topics of anatomy, personal skills and relationships. Your answers are not there and it's making me worry, is everything okay at home?" He asked me.

My brows knitted.
"E-Everything is fine-"
"Try that without the stammer." Mr.Levine frowned at me.
My face was burning.
"Everything is fine at home, I actually just moved houses.." I told him.
Mr.Levine nodded.
"Do you have many distractions at home or outside of school that would cause you to struggle in class?" He asked me.

I frowned softly at him.
"I.. I don't think so, I'm sorry-"
"I don't want you to apologize Ziggy, what I want is for you to take your studies more seriously. This is just my suggestion, but maybe when you get home you should use a computer to help you understand human anatomy more as well as tips for personal skills and relationships." He told me.
My brows knitted.
"Okay.." I turned but froze when his hand brushed against my hip.

"Ziggy, you're a great student with amazing grades. I'm just looking out for you, that's all this is." Mr.Levine smiled softly at me now.
I looked back at him before nodding as I made my way back to my desk.

But a knot appeared when I realized.
Zeke and Asher were in desks opposite sides of mine, which made me sit between them.

Inhaling quietly, I took a seat and stared hard at my desk.

Zeke looked to the front of the classroom, before he leaned over with his eyes dark.

"Usually? I don't give two shits what happens to you, but just a heads up? That disgusting pervert has a huge hard one for you, you should actually watch yourself around that creep." He leaned back in his desk, this irritation in the others eyes.

My heart was pounding.

It was just one thing after another.

Yeah..
I REALLY want to change classes now.