I Kissed A Boy.

34.

**Ziggy.**

I knew nothing good was going to come out of last period.
I would be the only one stuck with them.
The only bright side?
There was a substitute until the school could hire on a new teacher for sex ed.

Skipping class wasn't even optional, because I already knew that they knew who was in the locker room.
And who knocked over the broom.
If Joshua had just let it go, if I hadn't followed after him.
I wouldn't be stressing out while sitting in my desk.

Things were finally getting better.
I was finally getting better.
And here I was.
Fearing what the outcome would be.
They both had to be furious.
To be found out.
But.

Anyone would have found them out?
They were in a public area.

I sighed, when the second bell rang for students to get class.
Here they both came.
And unfortunately for me?
Zeke's eyes were locked right on me, irritated.

It felt impossible to breathe as he walked right up to my desk.
"Get up." He told me.
I looked up at him confused.
"What?" I let out a startled gasp when he grabbed the front of my shirt, glaring.
But it turned into a chilling smile.
"Let's go talk in your favorite place, the library."

That feeling I haven't felt in a while, suddenly returned and my brain was blank before I got up and followed the two out of the classroom.
Ignoring the strange looks the other students were giving us as I trailed behind the two, who I knew, were pissed they had been heard.

Walking down the hall, I spotted Jayce who was getting a book from his locker before our eyes met and his brows furrowed.
He mouthed, should I get Kaiser?
I really had no idea how angry these two were, so I managed a soft nod.
Jayce frowned before running off in the opposite direction.

Zeke stormed up the stairs to the balcony of the library.

"Alright, how much did you hear?" He turned to me glaring as I blinked.
"How much..?"
"Don't act fucking stupid now, we're on the balcony, a spot I'll more than happily throw you off." He warned.
My heart raced standing there.

"Not much.. Zeke, listen-"
There was this sharp stinging pain, it was familiar before realizing he had just slapped me as hard as possible.
I stood there, stunned before making myself look at Zeke who was glaring at me.

"No, you listen to me, if you think for even a fucking second you have me in a corner over what you heard? Or what you think you heard?" He stepped up as my brows knitted.
"I'll throw you in a coffin faster than your boyfriend can save you." He warned me.

I stood there frowning deeply at the other.
"I never once thought about forcing you into a corner, you can hate me all you want, but your life is yours." I wanted to step back but Asher was literally right behind me.
"I was just confused, because.. what about Lexi?" I asked.

Zeke made a face.
"What about her?" He glared at me.
I inhaled before managing to glare back.
"Isn't she still dating Asher?" I asked.

I tensed hearing the other chuckle behind me.
"Oh, you thought I was banging her?" Asher chuckled.
"She was all Codie's, I had no interest in that clueless red head." He responded.
My brows knitted.
"So she was-"

"A cover up?" Zeke arched a brow at me.
"Yeah, and an ugly one." He told me.
I frowned deeply at the other.
"She was not ugly-"
"Oh cut the bullshit, you're only saying that now because you're openly a faggot basking in his gay days, meanwhile when you had to date that girl, you looked downright disgusted." Zeke glared.
I glared back.
"I was never disgusted by Lexi, I was disgusted I was forced to be straight! And how are you going to insult me, when you-"
I stopped myself, I was getting angry and I knew I would regret the words that so badly wanted to come out.

"When I'm? When I'm what?" Zeke was in my face now.
My brows furrowed.
"When you're a faggot too." I said lowly.

Zeke's eyes were black.
"Well, that was a dangerous statement." He smirked at me as chills raced down my spine.

"Was it dangerous because it came from a human's mouth, or was it dangerous because you didn't want to hear what you are?" 

I froze, looking over and sure enough.
Kaiser was right there with Stetson and Dorian who had Jayce and Rocky on the stairs.

Zeke glared before scoffing.
"Of course you can't be left alone, your whole babysitter squad has to come to your rescue, anytime you get confronted." Zeke looked to me.
"That's what makes you pathetic." He told me.

I frowned at him.
"You were going to throw me off the balcony-"
"That actually sounds like a perfect idea right about now." Zeke grabbed the front of my shirt but paused when Kaiser had a death grip on the others arm.
But Asher's hand was wrapped tightly around Kaiser's throat.
All of their eyes were jet black.

"Oh boy, alright girls, let's stop freaking out like we're on our periods. So what if you're gay?" Stetson asked, his eyes right on Zeke who glared harshly at the question.
"There's literally no shame in loving another guy, I've never understood the concept of bullying others over it. You're attracted to who you're attracted to, who gives a fuck what anyone else thinks? I mean this whole school is almost a walking death trap of homosexuals, sure there's a few who are straight, but no ones going to give you heat over liking dick." He shrugged.

"Babe, your speech is literally going down hill." Rocky glared at the other.

Stetson blinked before walking over to us.
"My point is, you two dumb asses are pissed someone like Ziggy heard you-"
"Someone like Ziggy? Stetson-"
"Rocky, kindly shut the fuck up." Stetson smiled at the other as Rocky glared at him.

"But the spot you two decided to fuck at, just happened to be a pretty public area, anyone could have heard you guys. Would you have gone after them? Probably not, but it's because you caught Ziggy's scent that set the two of you off, because a human you went to school with, whose life you made literal hell, heard you. So when you realized it was Ziggy, both of you didn't like the idea of him having that secret in his head, he's not the blackmailing type, he's not even the type to get even. He was probably more confused than anything, but here you are? Threatening his life, just because you're pissed off." Stetson grabbed Asher's wrist squeezing down.

"And if you don't want to lose this hand? I suggest letting my best friend go, before I fuck you up." Stetson added.

Asher glared before looking at Zeke.
"Zeke, we can just-"

"Don't tell me you're actually agreeing with him?" Zeke glared at Asher who blinked before glaring at him.
"He's not exactly wrong, I don't care for this prick, but killing Ziggy over finding us out? It's a bit extreme. We're not like who that guy was last week, we can't kill just to kill-"
"Fine." Zeke let my shirt go, raising both of his hands in defense as he walked over to the edge of the balcony.

"Then I'll just kill myself." He said, there was no life in his eyes when he said that.
Watching his body fixing to fall, made everything in me turn straight to ice as I stumbled and ran.
I didn't care how much he hated me.
I didn't care how hard my life had been up until I came to this school.
I was finally happy.
I was finally FREE.
I was in love.
I had real friends.
I knew about their futures, where we would go after graduation.

I wanted to hate Zeke.
I wanted to hate him as much as he hated life.
He needed a punching bag.
Because he was always angry.
He wore it with a smile.
And I always took it.
Because I thought that maybe, he'd open up to me.
That I could find out why he looked so dead to the world.
Why he looked so lost even though he had friends.
He had Asher.

I threw myself down and without thinking.
I grabbed the others hand as he hung from the balcony.

"What the fuck?" Zeke growled glaring at me.
"Let go!" He commanded.
I shut my eyes looking away from the other.
"No! If I do that, you get the easy way out, and there shouldn't be an easy way out." I cried laying there.
I held onto the leg of the railing to keep me from sliding.

"I don't know who made you hate your life so much, I don't know why you chose to abuse me mentally and physically back in Silver Falls, but you don't get to kill yourself just because you were found out being with Asher, like Stetson said. Who cares about that crap?" I screamed at him, tears burning my eyes.

"When I came to Autumn Lake, I thought for sure my life was going to be harder because I was the gay kid at a new school, but I made a best friend my first day here, I was scared because I didn't know what having friends felt like. The only other friend I had, was Monty and he wasn't here when I needed him, and that's not his fault! But I pushed myself with this new school, and made even more friends, I even became friends with their boyfriends, and when I learned vampires existed? I was terrified." I cried laying there.

"I was so scared because all of the blank spaces in my mind suddenly made sense, the amount of times I went blank was because someone was reading my mind or controlling me, as a human? That's terrifying, but I was already in love with Kaiser so I refused to shut anyone out over that fact, I refused to push my friends away because they were the best thing that happened to me since my parents died." I looked at Zeke who was actually looking at me.

"I wanted to hate you Zeke, I wanted to hate you as much as you hated living, but I couldn't do it." I tightened the hold I had on the others hand, glaring at him.
"You need a punching bag? I'm it, you need someone to yell or vent at? Come yell at me, but don't kill yourself over sexuality, if I cared what my other family thought? I would have died six years ago." I told him.

Zeke actually flinched before looking away from me now, his brows furrowed.
"I want to understand you, I want to know why you hate life and why you can't tolerate a human overhearing an intimate moment between you and Asher. I know we'll probably never be friends, but we could be students who exist in the classroom without wanting the other one dead, do you think killing yourself will solve anything? All you'll be doing is leaving behind Asher, you'll be leaving behind anyone who actually gives a SHIT about you." I glared harshly at the other.

Zeke looked at me before looking down.
"You know.. from the four years of knowing you? I've never heard you cuss, not once." He let out a soft chuckle.
"It impressed me a little bit." He told me.
My brows furrowed as he let out a heavy sigh.
"So much for a dramatic exit, let go." He said.

I glared.
"No-"
"I'm a fucking vampire you dumb ass, I won't die from a seven foot drop." Zeke replied, rolling his eyes before ripping his hand from mine, dropping onto the ground.
He adjusted his black jacket before looking up at me.
"You just wouldn't shut up and I didn't feel like interrupting." He shrugged.

I laid there blushing like an idiot while glaring at him.

"Let's do the thing I never gave you a real chance to do." Zeke looked up at me.
"Let's talk, for real this time, and I'll try not to murder you in the process." He told me.
My brows furrowed.
"Fine." 

Kaiser helped me to my feet as I looked at him.
"He wants to talk." I told him.
"Let's go-"
"Actually." I stopped Kaiser.
"This time, stay here, I'm like ninety-eight percent sure he was joking about killing me." I said.
Kaiser frowned softly at me.
"Are you sure?" He asked.

I nodded smiling softly.
"I think it will be better if it's just the two of us talking, and not with an audience." I told him.
Kaiser blinked but he smiled softly.
"Alright, we'll stay right here until you two finish talking." He leaned in, pressing his lips to mine.
I smiled softly.

I walked past Asher who watched me but didn't say anything.
I frowned at him before walking down the stairs, approaching Zeke who walked over to a table and took a seat.

"Now? Let's talk."