After the rebellion

Baby shower

*Katniss Pov* 

I am now 9 months pregnant and I feel horrible. My back hurts and my ankles are swelling from the wait of my stomach. I am due in one month. 

I cannot wait for the baby to come because I want to meet her, and I want all my pain to go away. 

We have decided to have the gender be a surprise and we will find out when he or she is born. 

Today we have our baby shower and we have all of our close friends coming over. 

We have a hospital bag packed just in case the baby comes early, and the closer I get to my due date the more scared I get. 

I never really wanted this to happen and I try to act happy in front of Peeta, but little does he know I am terrified to become a mother. 

I know the games are over, and I also know he will be an amazing father, but how can I take care of a child? I am so broken and fragile. 

I can barely take care of myself, without Peeta I would likely not be here today. 

One thing I am scared about is messing up my child. What if they become depressed or unhappy  because of me? 

Peeta said we could do abortion if I wanted to, but I don't think I could live with myself is I did that. 

I have killed enough people, and I don't need to add on to the list.

I walk downstairs and thw smell of cheese buns fills the air in our kitchen. I walk into the living room and plop on the couch. 

Peeta walks up to me with a plate of cheese buns and sets them down next to me. 

How do you feel? He asks me sweetly. 

Fat, tired, and in pain. I say. 

Darling your not fat, you're pregnant. He says. 

Peeta I'm scared that I mess up the baby or ruin it. I ask 

Kat you could never ruin or mess up the baby, and you are going to be an amzing mother I know it. He says to me. 

Promise? I ask.

I promise. He says. 

Now you better eat up because we have our baby shower party soon. He says to me. 

Oh shit, I completely forgot about that. I say. 

It's alright I already have lunch planned and all you need to do is get yourself ready and i'll do everything else for you. He tells me.

Your too good for me. I say to him 

You deserve the world. He says smiling at me. 

I crash my lips against his and run my hands through his beautiful blonde waves. I hope our child gets his looks. I think to myself. 

I Finnish my breakfast and then I walk upstairs to go get ready. 

I get dressed in a white off the shoulder blouse and some black jeans and let my wavy hair fall natural. 

I do my makeup and hide the fact that I have gotten no sleep due to the pregnancy. 

I walk downstairs and hear a ring at the door. 

I open the door and see Annie with Finn in her arms. She has a big bag in her arms and I take Finn from her and Peeta helps her carry the stuff in. 

Behind her are Johanna and David with a big box wrapped with pink and blue wrapping paper. I welcome them inside and they set the box on the table next to Annie's bag she brought. 

Hey Katniss do you mind feeding Finn. Asks Annie. 

Sure, I would love to. I say smiling. 

She hands me a bottle of formula and I sit down on the couch with Finn in my arms. His blonde wavy hair and green eyes reminds me of his father. 

I know someday he will end up being just as caring and kind as his father was. 

Peeta smiles at me and whispers in my ear. "This just proves how great of a mother you will be". He says. 

I smile, and taking care of Finn helped me realize that the baby in my stomach could be one of the best things in my life. 

Of course Peeta coming into my life is one of them as well. 

I hear another knock on the door and Peeta opens the door and Haymitch, Effie, Gale, Claudine, and the kids arrive. 

He welcomes them in and we all sit down for lunch. 

Peeta made some pasta and chicken wraps for lunch and after we all Finnish eating evreyone takes a seat at the couch in the living room to open gifts. 

First I open Haymtch's gift and I out two pairs of footsie pajamas. One says sweetheart #2 and the other says bread boy #2. 

I laugh when I open this gift. 

If the baby is a girl you can dress it in the sweetheart pajamas, but if it is a boy you can dress it in the bread boy pajamas. He says laughing.  

Peeta and I laughed.

I grab blue and pink pacifiers out of the bottom of the bag and put the pajamas back in the bag. 

Thanks Haymitch, I will make sure to show you the pajamas when I dress the baby in it. I say laughing. 

You better. He says.

Then I open the gift from Effie. It is a large box wrapped in small teddy bears and Peeta helps me open the box up. 

It is a car seat with a yellow hood and it also has a stroller attachment, so it can be used as a car seat and a stroller. 

Wow Effie this looks really nice thank you so much. I say. 

No problem Katniss, I got it from the Capitol it was the nicest one I could find. She says. 

Thanks Effie. Peeta says.  

Anything for my two victors. She says smiling. 

I open Annie's gift next and I pull out some of Finns old baby clothes that he has outgrown. There are also two boxes of diapers and baby bottles in the bag. 

This will be very useful. Says Peeta. 

Thanks Annie. I sat giving her a hug. 

Next I hope up Gale and Claudines gift. They got us a white crib and a baby monitor than we can set up in the baby's room. 

They said when they first had Hunter it was helpful to keep an eye on him when he took a nap. 

Thank you. I say to both of them. 

And last but not least is Johanna and David's gift. They got us a yellow teddy bear with a dandelion bow. They also got us a baby blanket with floral colors with the words "little one" engraved in it. 

Wow thank you both of you. I say to both of them. 

Everyone has a drink except for me and we all talk about random things and then after about an hour everyone decides to leave. 

Peeta and I thank everyone for all the gifts and they all head out. 

It is getting about dinner time, so Peeta makes us some soup for dinner and we eat and then we get ready to head to bed. 

Peeta locks the door and turns off all the lights and helps me get up the stairs.

I get dressed in one of his t-shirts and hop under the covers. 

I turn on the TV in our room and put on my favorite show. Peeta gets in the shower and I watch my show. 

He gets out of the shower and puts on some boxers and drys his hair with a towel. He gets under the covers and I turn off the TV. 

I lay on his bare chest and listen to his steady heartbeat like I do every night. 

I love you, goodnight Kat. He says to me. 

I love you, goodnight. I reply back and then I fall into a deep sleep.