After the rebellion

Conflicts and Tears

*Katniss Pov*

I sit at the dining table and eat my eggs and bacon that Peeta made me. I hear a knock on the door and go to answer it, and pain goes to my ankles as I start to walk.

Peeta follows behind me as I open the door. 

I open the door and see the face that I used to call my mother. Why is she here, and why has it taken her almost a full two years to visit me. 

I stare at with an angry and confused look. 

Hello Darling! I see that you are pregnant. She says to me staring at my bump. 

Why are you here. I say to her with an angry tone. 

I decided to visit my daughter is there anything wrong with that? She says acting innocent. 

That would have been nice two years ago. I say in an angry tone. 

I was mourning the loss of my daughter. She says. 

Well so was I, and when dad died you completely shut her out when she needed you the most. I was left to take care of her. 

Now you don't even realize you're doing the same thing! I am hurt to mother the whole world doesn't revolve around you! I say. 

She says nothing in return. 

Why don't you meet us for dinner somewhere Mrs. Everdeen. Peeta says. 

What did he just say? Does he not see that I am furious and don't want to talk to my mother. 

That would be lovely she says. 

I am too stunned to speak. Why would he just make decisions for me. She leaves and I give Peeta an angry look. 

What the hell was that! I scream at him. 

I am trying to help her Katniss she is your mother you know. He says to me. 

That lady is not my mother! I scream. 

Well she is if you like it or not, and you can't control it so you might as well work things out with her. He says raising his voice.

Well sometimes you don't always know what is best for me! I scream. 

I do know what's best for you Katniss! If I didn't than you wouldn't even been alive today! You don't know what's best for yourself, and when I wasn't here you almost died. He yells. 

I would do anything for my mother back and she treated me horribly, beat me, and treated me like a slave! 

Did you forget that when you fired that arrow you killed mine! He screams. 

He covers his mouth immediately realizing what he just said.

That felt like a punch in the gut. He's not wrong though and that's the worst part. I did kill his mother and he has every right to be furious with me. 

Why is he even here with me? 

You're right! Why are you even here and why are we married with a baby on the way! 

I can't do this I say putting on my coat. 

I walk out of the house into the pouring rain and he runs after me. I am not very fast because I am 9 months pregnant.

Katniss please. He says grabbing my arm. 

NO PEETA JUST LEAVE ME ALONE I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON. I say ripping my arm away from him. 

I run away from him and continue walking towards Haymitch's house. 

I knock on the door and look back at Peeta standing there looking down at his feet while rain causes his blonde hair to be wet. 

I see tears fill his eyes as he walks into our home. 

Haymitch answers the door and see's that I am soaking wet and tells Effie to get me a towel. 

Sweetheart what's wrong? He asks me sympathetichally. 

I just start crying. 

Shh its alright he says embracing me. 

I burry my head in the crock of his neck and he has me walk inside. 

Effie brings me a towel and a change of clothes. 

I go to the bathroom to change out of my wet and damp clothing. I put my wet hair in the towel and go to the living room. 

Darling are you okay? Effie asks me. 

No. I say crying and struggling to breath. 

What happened. She asks me wiping away my tears. 

Peeta and I got into a really bad fight and he told me that I was the reason that his mom was dead. I blurt out. 

I'm sure he didn't mean it, that boy loves you to pieces. Haymitch says. 

I also told him that I didn't know why we were married or why we had a child on the way. I say crying. 

Darling me and you both know that is not true. She says to me.

I know. I say. 

Alright why don't you take a deep breath and go get ready for bed. You can stay in the guest room. Effie says. 

Okay. I say. 

Please calm down though sweetheart, we don't want you having that baby tonight. He says to me. 

Alright I am going to go shower. I say to him.

I take a quick shower and then change into the pajamas Effie has laid out on the bed for me. 

I head to bed and I try to fall asleep without him.