After the rebellion

First session

*Katniss Pov*

Our taxi drops us off to a white building with tinted windows. On the sign it reads "Mental Hospital". 

We walk into the sliding doors and approuch a lady with red hair and hazel eyes. "Checking in for Katniss Everdeen" Haymitch says.

"Dr. Aruelius correct?" 

"Yes." We both say simultaneously. 

"Okay, my friend Alexander will lead you to his office" She says in a sweet voice.

We get taken up 8 floors to a room the reads,"ROOM 825". I wonder if this is where Peeta went when he was hijacked. 

The thought ponders through my mind. It takes me aback thinking that he suffered so much in this room. 

"Hello Katniss! It's so nice to finally meet you." He says taking my hand. He has a firm grip, but gentle at the same time. 

You too. I reply. 

'How are you and Peeta doing? I haven't seen that boy in a while now." He says

"We're good, we got married actually, and had our first child." I say smiling thinking of all the happy memories that he brings to my life. 

"Oh my goodness! I am so happy for you two."  

"Has he had any flashbacks at all?"

"Yes, actually he did have one. He also gets a little overwhelmed when he sees old memories. I say"

"Was it severe?" He asks.

I clear my throat. "Yes it was pretty bad."

"I'm sorry to hear that."

"Why don't we start the session now, have a seat". He says breaking the silence. 

I sit down and take in the scenery of the room. The walls are painted light blue with a white boarder, a wood desk, and white chairs.

"What caused you to come here, Katniss?" He asks whilst grabbing a notebook and pen from his drawer. 

"Well, I was kidnapped and after I decided to cut myself, stopped eating, and i've just been feeling empty inside." I say all in one as he takes notes. 

"Okay is this your first time experiencing this kind of pain?" He asks in a sentimental tone. 

"No, after the rebellion I felt this way, but it was slightly different." "Okay, different how?" He asks. 

I felt more like my only choice was to die and the world would be a better place if I did. Now I feel like my only choice is too live for the people around me. 

Okay Katniss, based on your symptoms I'm 99% sure you have PTSD. In case your unaware what PTSD means, it stands for post-tramautic stress disorder.

Which means that you could just have bad memories of a traumatic event, for example your kidnapping or the hunger games. 

Unfortunately there is no cure for this disorder, but with the help of many therapy sessions you could get much better and have less anxiety, and feel less of the empty feeling you described.

Although there still will be times that you don't feel quite like yourself, and that is okay. On those days it is important to go outside and not just lay in bed all day. 

"So, no matter what i'll always have PTSD?"

Unfortunately yes, but like I said there is many ways to make you feel much better, and some days will be better than others. 

"I know this is a lot to take in, but I am going to do everything I can to make it better." He says. 

"Thank you". I say. 

"No problem" 

Okay so first off I am going to give you a journal that you are going to write all of your goals in, and in each session every week we are going to see what goals you've accomplished. He says.

He hands me a green journal with the words "Katniss" written on it in gold, and a black pen. 

How'd you know green was my favorite color? 

Peeta mentioned it, it was one of the only things he remembered about the real you. He says. 

I show a small smile.

I write 10 goals that I would like to accomplish such as, not harming myself, feeling happier, and many more. 

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We do a couple other exercises then I am set to go home, and I will see him again tomorrow. I run outside and hop in the car Haymitch is in. 

"Hey sweetheart how was your first session?" 

"It was alright." I reply. 

"Good, what do you want to grab for lunch its still pretty early." He says. 

"Anything is good, i'm not too hungry." I say. 

"Katniss you have to eat, Peeta will actually kill me if you don't". He says. 

Okay, fine we can just order salads to the house. I say. 

"Sounds good." He says.

We drive home in silence and all I'm thinking about is how I want to be home with Peeta and my  baby girl. 

We arrive at the house, and I run to my bedroom to call Peeta. I miss him so much. 

I dial in his number, and he picks up after a few rings. 

Hey Kat, can I call you back in around 30 minutes my shift is almost over. He says. 

Yeah sure. I say. 

"Okay love you, talk soon." He says. 

Love you. I reply. 

I hang up the phone and decide to go eat lunch.

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After I eat I plop down on my bed and do nothing but stare at a blank space on my wall. 

I turn on some TV and cake boss is the first channel on. I laugh knowing that Peeta has this saved to watch later. 

My phone rings and I look at my screen seeing that Peeta is calling me. I pick up and we talk for hours until it's time for bed. 

At about 9:00 I hang up and we both head to bed. 

I close my eyes and I try to invision happy things in my life which is a method Dr. Aurelius taught me. It is supposed to make my nightmares less severe. 

I think of how far i've come. I used to say that I would never have kids, and now I have a baby girl and an amazing husband. 

Life could not be better.