She'll never love me the same

She crashed

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Xolani pov:

We're currently on our way to Madison's house. I woke up at like 7am this morning and had a whole conversation with my uncle and why I disappeared and so on. I didn't realize how scared he really was because I always tell him where I am and where I'm going. The last time I disappeared I was at a friends house for a month but I let him know because I had a phone. This time I had no phone and I had nothing saved. I basically got my own wifi and phone plan so I wouldn't be connected to my moms icloud. So I got a new everything.

I plan to buy an apartment out here soon because I don't need to stay on campus I have a car and I don't even have classes everyday and I made sure that my classes aligned with my practice schedule so I really on have to be on campus Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Then on the weekends Saturday sunday but it's at a different gym and at 5am to 9am unfortunately. I was thinking on days I'm too tired to drive I could just stay at Madison's dorm since she technically has a single but she has roommates they all just have their own rooms and share a common area.

The closer we get to new york the more nervous I am because what if Madison's mom doesn't like me anymore. What she judges us I'm just really anxious. I guess I was thinking too loud because Madison's voice brought me out of my thoughts.

"What's on your mind? Your grip on my thigh has gradually gotten tighter and your speeding up"

I didn't even notice... This is a constant thing that happens this is why I didn't want to drive in the first place my emotions constantly take over the way I drive even when I'm super happy. I know it's gonna cause me some trouble in the future so I've been working on it. I've learned that music with no lyrics keep my mind steady

"damn I'm sorry, I'm working on it I promise."

"I know and that's okay, so. What's going on in that pretty little head of yours? Hmm?"

"uhh, nothing but I wanted to ask you something"

My hand left her thigh to get off on our exit. We were now 20 minutes  away from her house.

"okay, whats up?"

" do you think I could stay in your dorm sometimes during the week when my basketball practice ends late?

" yea sure but you know your dorm building Is only 10 feet away from mine?"

"well it won't be I'm getting my own apartment in a month" I looked over at her to see her reaction before focusing back on the road. She turned her head to look out the window before responding.

"Oh , sure."

I knew she was upset.

"you don't like that do you.."

"no because you're leaving me again."

"Madison, I'm not I- " I cut myself off to look at her and she was still looking out the window.

"Baby look at me. Please"

Her eyes finally met mine. I focused back on the road.

"I promise I'm not leaving you, that's why I asked if I could stay in your dorm some nights. I'm gonna be with you for as long as you let me."

"Okay" I glanced back over seeing a slight pout on her face. We were finally on the streets so I was waiting to catch a red light. I finally caught one.

"Gimmie kiss Madison" she leaned in giving me a small peck. I wasn't having that though. I reached my right hand up to her neck making sure I had a good grip. She melted into the kiss I felt her hand rest on mine holding her neck. I didn't realize the light turned green until the car behind me honked I broke from the kiss licking my lips tasting her all over again while pulling off. I had a slight grin on my face. It made me think about the first time we had sex. it's crazy because after that we never had sex again. I never got to please her.

I've already been planning for how I'm gonna ask her to be my girlfriend. I brought my self out my thoughts to ask her two questions.

"did you tell your mom we're five minutes away, and do you still like the color blue?"

"yes I like the color blue still. about the mom thing I may have not told her me and you were coming. She knows I was supposed to be coming around the holidays just not when..."

"I know your lying Madison. You didn't tell her because she hates now doesn't she."

"No Lani ... She doesn't hate you, she just thinks you disappeared on me for no reason, and was being a bad friend. Which to be fair I thought that's what happened as well. That'll be cleared up when we see her plus I haven't talked to her in a while just text check -ins. I wanted to tell her in person about us in general. She doesn't even know we go to the same school."

"mmm okay"

"don't be upset, I know she doesn't hate you if anything she was worried about you for the most part until- she just didn't know what else to think when it had been two months."

She was holding back from saying something, her whole demenor changed.

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Alr yall frl I need a break writing is getting tiring. I'll try my best to update again this week. Sorry for this short chapter.

Do yall want Crysie (Xolani's mom) pov at some point?

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