She'll never love me the same

I still think about you

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I'm being nice updating yall shouldn't believe me atp when I say I'm talking a break 😭😭.

I'm already starting the next chapter.

Let's see if I actually publish it.

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Madison Pov:

It's currently agust 28th my move in day for college. I got accepted to NCAT I didn't know this would be my dream school. Im glad it is I love it in North Carolina. I know I'm going to be lonely here but it's nothing to make new friends.

Speaking of friends... I miss xolani I think about her all thru the day everyday. I haven't spoken to her in months... i have seen her for even more months. Half way thru out senior year we decided to take a break from our relationship going back to being bestfriends. That didn't last long we both had so much school work and extra curricular we forgot to even check up on each other. We we text whenever we could that would be like once a week. then in turned into everyother week until it turned into months. I don't even know what college she got into. I remember her saying she wanted to be somewhere on the west coast. I hope she didn't follow through with that because that across the country...

I miss her so much.

it's not like I could text her because I think her number changed... she deactivated all of her social accounts as well.

I've cried for nights sometimes wishing she was here to comfort me. Everyone at school has been acting so weird so I had been eating by myself for the last two months of senior year. I didn't go to any parties because xolani couldn't go to any of them. The school she switched to was much harder which led her to always studying on the week for some big IB test she'd have.

She didn't even do anything for her birthday. Her 18th birthday... that's what she wanted since she was little. She spent her birthday studying. I went to her house on her birthday to see her but her mom said she was at the library studying. I asked her which one because the least I could do is get her food. Her mom wouldn't tell me because "she needs to pass this exam". I left and cried all the way home. I haven't seen her in months. I sent her a birthday text a long paragraph she answered backed, surprisingly. It was a real response that ended with "I miss you and love you so much I need to see you soon".

I'd kept meaning to ask my mom to ask hers for her new number but I always pushed it to the back of my mind maybe she didn't want to talk to me. I need her to get through my freshman year.

Me, my mom, uncle, and sister all came down here yesterday I left super early. My family flew and rented a car when they got here. I drove down here by myself because I planned on driving back and forth on weekends and stuff so I wanted to get used to it. The drive is supposed to take 8hrs and some change. I was cruising down I95 tho, I raced a couple cars too. It was one specific car it was a Kia k5 grey with pink rims and other exterior designs that caught my eye. Their tints were so fucking dark I'm surprised they ain't get pulled over. I couldn't even see their shadow. I lost them when I made my second pit stop. Anyways I love my car, but I made 3 stops because apparently I have a boater of a 3 year old... so it took 9 I got there a hour later than my family. We went shopping for some little stuff and Groceries.

Today we put everything in my dorm and l finished around 11am.  it's 2pm right now and my family has been gone for two hours they flew back home. I'm currently getting ready to go to Walmart for some bed sheets and a hamper and maybe some more snacks.

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Xolani pov:

I'm currently on the road to my school I got into NCAT. I never thought I'd end up in the south but they have a good music production program and this was my best fit. I drove by myself. Me and my mother fell out. I haven't spoken to her in months. A little after my birthday I got a new phone and number and moved out. I bought a car then a small apartment I would be able to move out of before college. I got full scholarship. Dorming and everything so I didn't need anything from my mother. I plan to go see my uncle the first break we have. It's been a while since I've seen him and I know he's worried about me.

I'm on the highway right now and I see this blue dodge challenger. It reminded me of Madison's car. I need to get in contact with her I miss her so much I wish I would've memorized her number. The last time I talked to her was on my old phone which my mother has. I talked to Madison on my birthday. I wanted to see her that day but I was literally locked up in my house by my mother she locked me in my room to study for this IB test I had. So I studied on my birthday... After that day my mom took my phone. So I didn't have it months. I had relapsed again and I would cry myself to sleep wishing I had my best friend, my love, my soulmate there with me to comfort me.

Anyways... I could only see the shadow of the person. We raced for a little I won obviously. I fucking love my Kia. I made hella money before I left NY so I had enough to buy a tv, mini fridge, and the other basic necessities for my dorm. I don't know how im finna do it in NC but imma figure it out. I've saved up 10k my whole senior year and this summer another 20k. So I had a good amount of money to get my necessities plus more. I already had school supplies so I could cancel that out my budget.

I have been selling weed since I was 15...I've been doing this long enough to get "clients". I have a IG page the only one I left open. I deactivated all my other pages because I needed a detox. Finishing senior year by myself was a struggle but I figure it out. I had a high Gpa and started playing basketball ball. That's how I was able to get my scholarship. That IG page was big had a lot of followers so I had a lot of people I was selling to no one knew it was me though because I had a policy if people bought from me they would never see my face I dressed like a nigga more than usual every time I'd make a drop and wear a ski so it was pretty simple. But when I got my car I just sold from there and didn't let my window down. That's why my tints are so dark you can't even see my shadow.

I'm currently at my dorm I've been here since like 11am. I got checked in and everything. I didn't have a lot of stuff so I unpacked fairly quickly I just had clothes and shoes and a couple bags. Oh and my hair products which wasn't much now considering the fact I locd my hair and started getting hair cuts so I don't even use my edge control that often. No i am not a stud I'm still a no label because sometimes I dress up girly but I haven't in a while because I haven't had time to go shopping. Which is where I'm head now, but first Walmart to get my tv and stuff. Then I'd drop it of in my dorm and go shopping for my clothes at target for now. Madison piped back in my head, i remember how much she loves Walmart. I miss her so much. When im back in the city i have to go see her mom maybe she'll be there too. What if she doesn't wanna see me. What if she hates me. Thinking about it made me emotional.

I checked my phone seeing it was 2:10. I walked out with my keys and 2k in cash rubberbanned in my sweats pocket. I took off my shirt leaving me in my wife better because it was HOT AS SATANS ASS CRACK out side. I hopped in my car going to the nearest Walmart I was driving around the parking lot looking for a spot when I spotted the blue Dodge Challenger, it looked like the same one from the highway, so I took the chance and parked right next to it. I got out locking my car behind me. Then headed into the store.
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Wowww so they're in the same school.

Do yall think they'll see each other?

How do we feel about how Xolani gets her money?

Thoughts in general?

Goodnight guys ❤️
Xoxo queen 🎀