Breaking Bad

Bad Habits

After that wonderful break from school. We all had to go back.

"Can you stop."
What's wrong wit u?
"Its too early in the morning and you playing."
You have an attitude problem.
"I don't just stop."

Before he even parked good enough I got out the car and slammed the door and stormed off. He quickly got out the car as well. We been arguing lately over little stuff because he on his period. We have bad days and good days. We ain't perfect nobody is. He comes and pick me up and carry me back to the car and puts me down and gets in my face. I try to hit him but he stops me.

"You need to chill. Don't make me embrass you in this school parking lot." He says throwing my hand back down.
Move!
"Jess I'm so serious."

I snatch away and walk away to see Sherita and them. We all walk to class.
"Aye." Bo says tapping my arm.
What Bo?
"What's wrong with you? Why you aint texting me?"
I really don't have time for this. Its to early.
"Alright. Hit me up later then." He says walking away.

I'm already mad and realizing that my first class is with Khalil made me even more mad.

"Aye what's wrong?" Sherita says looking kind hung over.
Nothing Sherita.
"Yes it is ma. What's up?"
I'm good turn around. I say rolling my eyes.
"You know I ain't leaving you alone."
I'm guessing shes not her. I say with an attitude.
"Nope I seen her in the hall way with some boy."
Ugh okay like I care anyways.
"Tell me what's wrong?"
Nothing I guess me and Buddy getting on each other nerves.
"Awe y'all be alright tomorrow." She say chuckling and turning around.
Shut up.
"Mmhm there go that smile."
"Hi Sherita." Khalil says walking to the table.
"Whats up." Sherita says.
"I got the notes for you." Khalil pulls a note book outside of her bag.
"Awe thank you." Sherita grabs the note book and put it on her desk.
"Umm I got some for you too." Khalil says speaking to me.
Thank you. I say trying to keep my composure.
"Yall welcome."
"Jess though." Sherita turns around saying.
What girl.
"When you gone throw another party?"
Awe no so you can be sexing Miami down again at five in the morning.
"Aye. I ain't gone lie that was the best pus..." she says licking her lips.
Ahh stop. I don't need to know the background information on Miami's private areas thanks.
"Actually second best to be honest."
Who was the first?
"..." she sits there stuck in her words.
Dont even answer I don't want to know.
"It was you but okay."
Really?
"Im not just saying that."
Right.
"Alright don't believe me that's cool or whatever." She throws her hands up.
I do.

The bell rang for our next class. While I'm walking in the halls with Sherita and them catching up on drama and the newest gossip because like I said who run this school. Mwah does. I look over Donalds shoulder and see Buddy talking to one of his ex's all cute and shit. I move Donald out my way and I feel a tug on my jacket.
"Come on. You just got back." Sherita says still holding me back.
Let me go Sherita.
"No I can't. You can hate me all day but I ain't letting you go."
I walk back to her and bump Donald.
"Girl calm down. He ain't worth it." Sherita says shaking head.
I go to class and I sit in my normal seat. Right next to Bo and Mickie.
"Awe so we talking again." Bo says closing his phone.
We never stopped. I say smiling.
"You stopped texting me."
I had to think some stuff through.
"You a lie but what's up with you?"
Nothing.
"I got some of your stuff at my house. I don't Know if you want them back."
No you never know when I'm coming over.
"Well okay then Here the notes."
Thanks. I see Buddy walk in from the corner of my eye. I can tell he look mad that I'm sitting over here.
"Awe hell nah. Come on jess." Sherita says pulling me out my seat.
Sherita stop.
"No ain't finna have it its the first day back."
Exactly what I'm saying.
"Alright I'm done. Y'all crazy." Sherita says letting my arm go.
"Now you see the stupid shit she do." Buddy says pointing over at me pissed off.
"Nope you wrong to. We saw you in the hall way." Sherita says rubbing her eyes tried of our drama.
"I was talking." Buddy explains.
"Sure. You know that's not how she looking at it. You would be mad if you caught her talking to dirty Derrion which she wouldn't do and which you are mad that she sitting with Bo. Y'all keep trying to fight fire with fire. It don't work like that." Sherita explains.
The bell rings for lunch and I just sit for a little minute until the class empty. I walk out the door and Bo grabs me behind a wall and starts kissing my neck. I push off because its wrong. I Dont need this kinda of drama.
"What?" Bo gives a confused look.
You know what.
"Awe right." He gets a attitude.
I walk from behind the wall and there goes Buddy.
"Hmm what I thought." Buddy says not looking surprised at all.
I just start crying because I love Buddy I don't want to lose him. Our little arguments just turnt into a big one. I check myself out of school and started walking home. As I'm walking I look on the side of me and see Buddy. He gets out the car grabs my hand and kisses me.
"You think I'm finna let you walk home by yourself." He says trying to keep calm.
I just look at him with my watery eyes and do a little smirk.
"Come on." He opens the car door.
He drives me home and he leaves to go back to school. I changed into my PJs and went to sleep. That was the only thing I could do to get my mind off things.
"Jessica!" My mom yells.
Hi mom.
"I'm sorry I been gone lately."
Its okay.
"You just woke up?"
Yeah.
"I'm going to make chili is that okay?"
Yeah.
"You alright?"
Yeah.
"You seem a little down today."
I'm fine just tired.
"Wait wasn't it your first day back? Why you not in school."
Umm I just can't today I'm sorry I will be going to tomorrow.
"Okay. Uh get the door please." Shes asks.
Who is it?
"Its your dad."
What?
"Here's some money for school and clothes. I told your mom I was going to stop by."
Thanks.
"Well text or call me if you need me."
Okay thanks.
"Love you."
Love you too.
"Who was it?" My mom ask.
Dad.
"He gave you money?"
Yeah. Well I'm a go back to sleep.
"Alright."