Breaking Bad

1️⃣8️⃣Its My Cday

Its finally my fucking Birthday man! Im 18 and have an amazing family like who would've thought.

"Happy birthday baby!!" Buddy said screaming.
Thanks baby.
"You are not grown."
Yes I am I'm always grown.
"I love you."
I love you too.
"Happy birthday daughter!" My mom said yelling.
Thank you mama.
"Here. Don't ask questions just take it , and here." She said handing me a box.
A car. A BMW! Ahhhh! Oh my god I love you! You seriously come through for me.
"All the time. Now I have to go but tonight I can watch the kids and you go do you." She said leaving.
Okay bye I love you and thank you mama. I appreciate it so much.
"Love you to baby." She said blowing me a kiss.
"Mm." Buddy said looking at me.
What!?
"Nothing, just never seen you this, this happy."
She gave me my favorite car. Like come on now the hell am I suppose to be sad.
"No. Get dress though." He said getting out the bed.
Emilia! Liyah! Its mommys birthday! They just started laughing at me. 
"Babe."
What?
I turn around and he got me a bear with a heart box with chocolate, some makeup, some Jordans that I wanted for like forever, a card , something I don't even know what it is but who cares; and he got me some flowers. I straight love this boy. Always spoils me.
"And this from all of us. Emilia , Liyah and me. Then this one from everybody."
Well okay.
"Stop. Don't cry. Come here."
Im sorry. I just love yall so much. Y'all mean everything to me. I don't want to ever lose yall. Im happy we got not one but two wonderful bad kids together. I love you.
"I love your emotional butt to."
Okay we can get dressed now.
"Finally."
"Dang y'all still not dress!?"
"My fault. I spoiled her with birthday gifts." Buddy said.
Sherita look.
"Damn, Buddy you went all out this year." Sherita said looking at my giant bear.
"Of course."
"Alright hurry up chicken. Your mama boyfriend here?" Sherita asked.
Yeah. His mom coming over to watch them and fiancé stupid.
"Well my bad."
Of course I got all dolled and girled up. Heels pink. With my pink skirt and pink shirt. Nude lipstick. Put on my crown and my birthday button. Curled my hair and did my lashes and stuff. Put on some jewelry and I was set.
"You look good now come on." Buddy said.
Dang! Okay!
"My main looking a joint." Sherita said spinning me around.
Thanks baby.

We headed to this little club for teens and meet up with Frank and Trey them.

"Happy birthday baby girl." Franks said giving me a hug.
Thank you Frank.
"Happy birthday sister." Trey said.
Thanks brother.
"Girl turn the heck up." Tink said super hyped.
Tink you crazy.
"I know girl." She said dancing. 
Frank where your girl? Sherita asked.
"We broke up." Frank said laughing.
What why!?
"She.. She was something else man." Frank said throwing his hands up.
"Uhh duhh girl was tripping." Sherita said.
What sherita said.
"Anyways lets enjoy your birthday." Frank said.

Of course we got the party started. I took a couple shots we sneaked in. I was wasted. We was in there for like two hours and then we left and went downtown and went to meet Bo, Izayah and my sister and all them. On the way I got hella fried in the car. I was fucked up. Drunk and high is not life. We was lit though. We walked around till dark and took pictures and stuff. June couldn't stay long cause the baby but okay I'll let her slide I want to see my furtue niece or nephew.

Its my mf birthday bitchs!!! I screamed out loud.
"Main sit the hell down before somebody call the cops." Sherita said pointing to the bench.
Its my birthday though! Haha! Im 18!!! Legal to beat your ass!!
"Oh my god! Buddy!" Sherita said putting her hand on her face.
"Baby. Come on." Buddy said grabbing me.
Am I drunk!?
"Yes man hella wasted." Sherita said shaking her head.
Stop I got it. Bo!! I reached out to him.
"Whats up Jess."
I fucking love you man. Like your amazing. I said rubbing his face.
"I love you too crazy." He said.
I hate.. I hate your girlfriend.
"Okay."
Look it. Look come over here.
"What." Bo said.
"Jessica!!" Sherita yelled.
What?!
"Okay time to go." Buddy said grabbing ny arm strongly.
To go home!? Oh Nooo. We haven't got to the best part. Here Buddy take my shoes.

I ran into this club and started dancing. Sherita was dragging me off the dance floor but I wouldn't let her. I keep tripping over everybody and everything it was terrible. I was dancing on random people I was a mess.
"Okay lets go." Buddy said grabbing my arm.
Buddy stop.
"No. You had enough."
Have I?
"Come on!"
Leave me alone.
"Jessica come on before I pick you up."
Stop. Im going with Izayah.
"Jess chill man you too fucked up." Izayah said looking scared. 
No.. No you know whats fucked up.. My life. Buddy whoa! You.. You where a mistake I should've been with Bo tonight.

Buddy picked me up and carried me out the club and took me to the car.

Get your hands off me. I said hitting him.
"Jess. Get in the car please." Buddy begged. 
No. Why?
"Get in the got damn car." He said trying to force me in the car.
No. Fuck you. I should be with Bo.
"You want Bo. Okay. Sherita you take her home." Buddy said getting frustrated.
"Wait Buddy where you going." Sherita asked.
Where's is he going! He's my ride!!
"You pissed him off thats what. Talking about Bo."
Cause I love him. I miss him. Where is he.
"Jess." Bo said walking over to me.
"I got you." Sherita said catching me.
Look girl. I dont need you. Bo's got me.
"Okay I'm done. You taking her home." Sherita said just finally giving up.
"Sherita." Bo said looking confused.
"No she tripping I ain't dealing." Sherita said tossing her hands up.
Fuck you!!
"Call me when you sober man." Sherita said leaving.

He puts me and the car and drives me to his house and puts me into the bed.

Bo I love you.
"Yeah."
Stay with me.
"No I got to go."
I stand up on the bed almost falling and he catches me. I kiss him and he pulls back.
"What are doing man?!" He said looking at me crazy.
I just throw up all over him and run to the bathroom.
"Oh my god."
I come out the bathroom with no clothes on dancing. He laughs at me and puts a tee shirt over me. I laugh too. I look at him and kiss him again.
"Jess.."
Shh!?
I just continue back kissing and he takes me and lays me on the bed. Taking off my shirt. He kisses up my thigh. I start laughing really loud. I put my hands on his head and pull him up to my face and kiss him again. Then he pulls away and puts my shirt back on and leaves.

(Morning)
I woke up and fell out the bed. I had no idea where I was. I just grabbed my stuff and walked up the stairs. After I fell ten times. When I got upstairs I realize I was at Bo's house. I put on my shoes and walked home.  Looking a hot ass mess. It was like seven or eight I don't know I didn't care. My head was hurting felt like I needed to throw up thirty million times. I just need Jesus.

Buddy.
"Jess." Sherita said sadly.
Sherita thank god.. What happen last night.
"Jess.." Sherita said rubbing her face.
Sher.. Whats wrong!?
"I.." she couldn't finish her sentence.
"Jess, its Buddy." Franks says.
Okay what.
"He uhh.." Frank said sadly.
No. No and fucking no. Shut up!! NOO!!!
"He drove off last night when you was drunk and he got in a car crash." Frank said softly.
"He's gone Jess." Sherita said crying.
I just break down in tears. Screaming at the top of my lungs. Thinking this cant be real. I had to be dreaming. I start smacking my face softly and Sherita stops me. Takes me in her arms and told me I'll be okay. Knowing that I won't be. My life is gone. I wipe my tears and stand up grabbed my keys and ran out the door.
"Jessica! Frank!" Sherita yelled.
"Jess!" Frank screams.
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

I couldn't think. I couldn't do anything. Its like I was stuck. Oh god. Why!? Why!!? I just keep thinking about Emilia & Liyah. Like what am I going to do. What!!?