Breaking Bad

Clear head

I made it to my last class just in time. I was so energized it felt good.

"Over slept." Izayah says smiling.
No and yes.
"Why you so happy?"
Cause I finally got some sleep.
"Awe well finally. You still coming over?" Asking me with his eyes all big eyed.
Why you want me to so bad? You must really like me or.. You like fucking me. Which one? I say smirking.
"Both actually." He says in a sexy way.
Stop lying.
"Both."
Still lying.
"The second one." He finally confesses.
Mm. That's sounds better. Don't trip though I like it to. I say sticking my tongue out.
"I know."
How you know?
"The way you be sounding."
Awe. I say embarrassingly.
"Lol anyways we gone get started." He says moving the paper around.
Yeah. So how the test go?
"She not pregnant like you said."
Mm. I'm pretty sure now shes going to be telling people she lost the baby.
"I bet. To be honest I don't want no kids."
Then use protection. That's why they have it.
"You got any kids?"
No. Um. I had abortions. And I'm a little sad you'll think that. I said hesitantly.
"Abortions?"
Yeah.
"How many??"
Two.
"When?"
One was in between 8th grade and fresh man year and the second was this year not to long ago.
"Why you do it?"
The abortion? Well I didn't want a kid and the first one wasn't even my boyfriends it was buddy's. Second one wasn't buddy's.
"Wow. You get around." He says playfully laughing.
What does that mean? I snap back with little anger.
"You talk to a lot of guys that's all."
Right. I get it I'm a little slut. I say irritated.
"Nobody didn't say all that."
But your implying it. You don't have to say it I know what your thinking. I say getting frustrated from the truth.
"I think you just need somebody that's gone hold you down and not basically use you. If I were you I would stop talking to me."
Why?
"I might seem like Mr. Perfect but I'm not. I do like you cause you sweet and got a nice ass but Im not worth yo time."
We should have dinner. With our parents. I say smiling because he's full of it.
"Didn't you just hear what i said?"
Mhm but I wasnt listening.
"Lol."
I'm serious how about tonight my moms off work.
"You crazy." He says laughing.
I know. I just can't understand why I got to stop talking to you. You crazy or something?
"Lol no. Im a Just be like the same guys that you talk to. Ain't nothing new."
Why you selling yoself short like that?
"I don't know." He shrugs.
This has to be the only time we talked serious.
"Lh yeah."
I like you. You cool fam.
"Now I'm yo fam?"
Yeahhh. You just don't know how bad I just want you to kiss me. I say unconsciously.
"Really?"
Mhm.

There it was moment of truths. I had to come all the way to another school just to find out who I am in love with. I like him. Izayah got that cool vibe. I actually got to know his personality today and it was fun. We cracked jokes. I stared at his eyes to much but how could I not they were so blue. Class ended and I went straight home and washed up, popped some popcorn and got comfy. I felt relived. I know I haven't talked much about my sister but I miss her. Me and my mom tried to forget about it. It was hard last year. That's one of the reasons my dad left. He blamed mom. Mom blamed me, I blamed me. It was a mess but she's in a better place.

"What are you doing ugly?" Sherita says flopping down on the couch.
Nothing watching movies ugly.
"Awe were Buddy monkey head ass at?" She says looking around.
Girl I don't know but I'm breaking up with him.
"For that Izayah dude?!" She looks at me crazy.
No! No! I just don't want to be with him no more. I say slowing dropping the popcorn back in the bowl.
"Why? what's wrong?"
Nothing I just wanna be single for a while.
"I feel you." She says laying back down.
Yeah. I talked to Bo today.
"What yall do cause y'all always end up fucking."
Nothing we talked and he just gave me some advice and I took it.
"Like breaking up with buddy." She says getting a little upset.
Yeah that was some of it. I mean it was my idea and he just cleared it up for me.
"Awe. Okay. Well I'm finna finally go back home."
No don't leave me.
"Girl it feels like I'm yo mamas other daughter. I love spending time and stuff with you but I'm a get out of yo space. Just call me I'm a be right here." Shes says walking into her room.
I know girl. I just like having you here.
"Ayy im loved!"
Never mind get out. I say laughing.
"Lol I'll call you later."
Alright bye little girl.
"Uh no baby you the little girl."
Lol okay.
"Bye main."
Bye.