Breaking Bad

Shocked

When I got off the plane my mom rushed over and grabbed Emilia and didn't even help me. I just looked at her and she started laughing. All I could do is laugh too.

"So what are you going to do?" My mom asked.
Please I don't even wanna talk about it. Its just gonna make me more stressed out.
"Did you even tell anyone that you were here?"
Yeah I told sherita that I was and were going to T.G.I Friday's.
"Well okay. You taking Emmy?" She asked.
Yeah I'm a take her. She's probably gonna think its someones elses baby.
"Probably."

When I got home. I got unpacked and set up everything. Emmy was sleeping so good I didn't want to wake her but I had to put her on some new clothes and changed her diaper. Being a mom is so different and weird. You start to see and look at things differently. I never would've thought I would've actually kept her but I did and I'm glad. I love her with my heart. Having her made me kinda grow up and realize some things. Im not a kid anymore. I have a child to provide for and so much more.

"Hey big head." Sherita said sitting at the table.
Hey. I missed you.
"Of course you did."
Shut up. You didn't have to say all that.
"But I did."
So this is Emilia. I said taking her out the car seat.
"Emilia!? Jess?! You!?!" Sherita say stumbling over her words in shock.
Yeah.
"Are you serious right now this is your baby!?!!!"
Yes.
"Oh my god."
Yeah.
"She look just like you oh my god." Sherita says holding her.
Yeah everyone is saying that.
"Its by that Trey dude from Arizona?"
I have to tell everybody at some point. I was just scared I guess.
"Hello."
No. No its Buddy's
"Lie again!"
Im not lying and Trey we never had sex.
"So this is Buddy's baby!?"
Yes.
"What the hell. I cant even wrap my head around this man. Like oh my god. Does he know?"
Fuck no.
"So how you gone tell him?" She says putting her back in the car seat.
I don't even know. My mom keeping begging me to tell him and I'm just not ready yet.
"You know he gonna ask for a DNA test right?"
No why would he?
"One you left and he probably gonna assume its some dudes from Arizona."
And if he thinks that then we will do a DNA test. Im not gonna feel offended. I honestly cant blame him. I didn't even call when I found out. I was to scared and in shock myself.
"So what made you keep this one this time?"
I couldn't do it anymore. Plus me and Buddy had a talk one night and I just couldn't do it.
"Yall straight just need to be together."
Huh. I don't know.
"What do you mean you don't know. Girl you just gave birth to his baby so umm yall need to be together. Plus he cares about you and loves you."
Okay.
"Okay! Stupid. Don't you love him?"
I guess.
"What is a I guess. Man look you gotta get it together. This is a child you talking about."
I know this sherita. I know. At first I wasn't even gonna come back or tell anyone.
"Why?"
Cause I just thought it would be best.
"No. Whats best is that you tell Buddy you had his baby. And yall need to talk simple."
Huh.
"Look I'll even come with you. Matter of fact how about today?"
Today?!
"Yeah."
Huh.
"Shall I call him?" She says opening her phone.
I don't care anymore. Call him.
"You sure?"
Yes do it before I change my mind.
"Okay."

While Sherita called him I sat Emmy next to her and went to the bathroom. My heart was finna jump out my chest and he wasn't even here yet. I straightened up and walked backed to the table and Sherita done already fell in love with her.

"Im the god moma right!" She asked.
Yeah you already know.
"I better be. So what made you pick Emilia?"
I dont know I just did.
"Its cute. Man she look just like you. This straight your twin."
I know.
"So whats her whole name?"
Emilia Renea Williams
"And you gave her his last name. Wow, And you don't want him to know. Shame on you man."
Shut the he...
"Umm language ma'am."
Shut the freak up.
"Did it hurt when you was in labor?"
Like a bitch. I almost smacked the nurse. I almost killed my dad cause he wouldn't shut up. I was in so much pain. She the only one cause that pain is unbearable. I cant take it. I swear I never wanted to die so bad in my life.
"Im crying. Your sister would've been so happy."
Yeah she would've. Ugh. A little niece.
"Right. Hey I can be the auntie too."
Sherita you stupid.
"Its our senior year though."
Im hip.
"What you gonna do?"
I don't know. Its crazy. Well things got changed now because of her so who knows.
"Nahh don't blame it on my baby. You should've never opened them legs."
Sherita I'm a kill you, keep playing.
"Hey." Buddy says walking over to the table.
"Whats Buddy." Sherita said shaking his hand.
Hey.
"You back? For good?" He asked.
Yes. I say trying to hold back.
"Aye." Sherita says.
"What?" He said looking up at Sherita.
"Look." Sherita says pointing at the baby.
"This your baby?" Buddy askes
Yeah.
"Man both of yall need to stop playing." Buddy says.
"We straight not though." Sherita with a serious tone.
Im for real thats my baby.
"You just had her?" He asked.
Yeah a couple weeks ago.
"Whats her name?"
"Emilia Renea Williams."
"She got my last name." He asked looking confused.
"Thats because shes yours." Sherita says
"Are you serious right now." Buddy asked.
Thanks sherita. I say rolling my eyes.
"My bad."

He grabbed me super hard and hugged me tight. I could barely breathe. It was the longest hug ever. I missed him.

"She look just like you." Buddy says.
Everybody been saying that.
"She beautiful."
So you not mad or nothing? I asked.
"No why would I be but why didn't you tell me?"
"Because shes a dumb whore and does things like that."
Sherita blood we banging.
"On my moms I'll beat your ass."
In the parking lot after we done eating.
"Bet."
"Yall clowning."
Shut up.
"Emilia huh?"
Yes.
"You named her what I said if I was to have another girl."
"Were the Renea come from?"
My sister. She always said that her baby middle name was gonna be Renea.
"Thats hella cute. She got a peice of everything." Sherita said.
"I love you." Buddy says looking at me.
I love you too.
"Man y'all officially my relationship goals."
"We everybody goals."
Of course we are. What did you think.
"But who going to this party tonight?" Sherita asked.
"I was going until I found out about this." Buddy said.
"Umm yall can still go. Like having a baby don't change you that much. So y'all gone get y'all ugly asses up and go to the party tonight."
I don't want to. I kinda want to get some sleep and finally rest because I'm tired and I don't give a crap.
"Awe! Okay Jessica I see how it is now. Emilia you runied everything."
Uhh Emilia go punch her.
"Man. I wanted to have some fun tonight." Sherita said acting hype already.
"How about tomorrow. Its another party at K Jays house." Buddy suggested.
"Man K Jay cant throw parties. Plus I'm trying to hop down on this girl. She fine ass hell." Sherita said rubbing her hands together and sticking her tongue out.
Who!?!
"Her name is none of your business."
You do to much.
"No but her name Brooklyn."
Mmm okay thats different.
"She just moved here like 3months ago."
"Awe that girl. She is cute." Buddy says giving Sherita a high five across the table.
I guess I'm not sitting right here. I say giving him a evil look.
"Ahhhaa! Dude bold."
"Im sorry but she is."
And again I'm here. Like right here.
"Ohhh shut up."

We ate our food and talked about everything since like middle school. The crazy things we did when we was younger. Hey the stuff we thought was cute is now ugly. Then you have those moments like why would you do that. Its crazy. Now look at us now. Seniors some still friends. I got a baby. Me and buddy still together surprisingly. After dinner we left and went home. Buddy came and stayed a night.

"Sooo."
What?
"Why this time?" He asked giving me a smirk.
What you said to me last time.
"I said in the far future not nine months from then."
Haha shut up.
"Im just kidding, but for real."
It was about what you said and I just couldn't do it anymore plus my dad wouldn't let me. He don't believe in stuff like that.
"You couldn't do it anymore."
Yeah.
"Im glad you kept it this time."
Me too.
"Im sorry I wasn't there."
Well I didn't tell you soo.
"Well yeah you should've told me."
I wasn't thinking staright.
"Clearly."
Are you and Frank cool again?
"Yeah we been squashed that."
Good.
"Guess who texted me though?"
Who?
"Khalil."
For what!?
"I don't know I didn't even look at it."
She still go to our school?
"Yeah all them do. Aron and her are officially together now."
You wanna know how many fucks I give.
"Well my bad."
Yeah your bad.
"Everything don't seem real right now. Does it to you?"
No. Not all. I feel different. One would be tired but another feeling.
"It just seem like this cant be real, this cant be happening."
Well it is so.
"I know."
Hmm.
"Hmm."
Im going to sleep.
"No."
Yes.
"No."
Yes.
"Okay bye goodnight."
You so mean.
"No go to sleep."
I will!
"Do it then."
Goodnight.
"Night."