Breaking Bad

Decisions

I went home and hoped in the shower did my daily routine. Turned on twilight and got some popcorn. I love twilight man. Its so cute. Bella proves you can love two people.

(SMS) Buddy
"This is going to be our Junior year."
Yep.
"What are you going to do?"
What I do best.
"You know what I'm talking about."
Huh! I don't know. What ever happens, happens.
"You like Izayah don't you?"
He's nice. I don't get why you always so concerned about him.
"He's nice. Okay! I can be concerned."
Whatever.
"What about Bo?"
Don't worry about it. Bo is going to graduate.
"Okay. Don't mean y'all can't talk still."
Me and Bo cool its no need for me to not talk to him. Were not together so whatever said is obsolete.
"We are together. Sorta. We complicated... Mmm. I might actually go back with my dad."
Okay.
"You mad?"
What you think. Don't ask dumb questions.
"Alright."
I don't care you mad. You don't even have a reason to.
"Cause you in yo feelings."
I'm not you just told me you're leaving. Knowing I don't want you to leave again. In my feelings a little bit yeah. That's okay though im probably going to live with my dad. So you should leave. I don't know why you bring up stuff and expect me to be like, oh my gosh! Your leaving! Yay! What the fuck you thought.
"Alright."
Then all you say is alright.
(Convo ended)
I swear its always the same damn thing with him. Then he always asking about Izayah like nothing is going on between us. We cool , I like him a little bit but that's about it.
*door bell*
Who is it!
"You know who it is!" Buddy yells from the other side of the door.
What! I scream and open the door.
"I'm here now what you got to say."
I said what I had to say.
"Alright."
Stop saying fucking alright.
"Alright. Lol."
I'm not laughing.
"You to serious. I'm leaving but I'm coming back. I just don't wanna come back and you with Izayah."
I'm..
"Stop! You said that about Bo. Then y'all was messing around."
Well I'm not. You ruining my twilight man.
"Then start walking downstairs." He pushes me.
Don't push me.
"Jessica if you don't start walking."
Shut up this my house.
"So you leaving with your dad?! Hmm thought you and your dad wasn't cool."
I'll try it out and probably come back. Now you. You be gone for Hellas.
"I was gone for 6months."
Yes Hellas.
"Awe in Jessica time its forever."
Yep.
"Look if you don't want me too. I won't go."
You for real?
"Yeah."
This new.
"What do you mean?"
This act.
"Okay man. Since we sorta got that squared away can I stay over?"
I guess you already comfortable.
"I want. Never mind."
What?
"Nothing."
Why can't you love me like Edward.
"Lol so you saying I don't love you? And you need to put a real movie in like boyz in the hood or something."
You don't love me. When you love somebody then you won't do stuff to hurt them.
"Then you don't love me."
No not true.
"I haven't cheated on you. I might have went to hang with Destiny (Zee) but never cheated on you at least recently. Have you?"

I wanted to tell him but I cant. We just got back on track. Huh I guess I gotta tell em.

"You did?!" He voice gets all high pitch.
Being 100% with you yeah I did.
"Izayah. He just a friend alright. You think I don't know you when I do."
I'm not even going to say sorry cause I don't regret it.
"Its a difference between I'm sorry and not regretting it. Like I'm sorry for calling you a bitch but I don't take it back because its true. It was wrong but true."
We need to grow up.
"We all need to grow up. We got one more year after this then we almost grown. You can't be just fighting people or getting attitude and! You need a long lasting relationship."
How you know I ain't going to be with you?
"Cause I know. You don't like to be tied down to long which is stupid."
To be honest. I don't like relationships but I like the fact of it. I could care less of titles but I like it so people know your mine. To me long as you got me and I got you we complete.
"Then why you with me?"
You know how many times we broke up.
"Soo. Look I love you. You mines now so that's all that matter. I know you ain't going no where so, and if you do I'm going let you go and if you come back I'm going to take you back because I love you, you my favorite and my heart. When you need me I'm going to make it my business to be there."
Why the hell you always got this cute shit to say. Damn making a girl catch bigger feelings she didn't know she had. I say about to cry.
"Haha you stupid."
You going to for real take me back though?
"Yeahhh. Cause I like you, like a lot. Lol."
Lol. I like you, like a lot.
"You get on my nerves."
I don't care!
"You should!"
Well I don't.. What are we going to do about you?
"What do you mean?"
You leaving.
"We just talked about it. Really."
Sooo. That wasn't enough.
"I promise I'll let you know what my decision is before anyone else."
Mmm sounds perfect. I say sarcastically.
"Don't be sarcastic and can we go to bed now?"
I guess.

He keep playing with me all night. I almost smacked him. It was cute. You know me we wasnt just palying for long. When you wake up and it's only Tuesday. I so wish it was Friday. I do my daily routine. I decided to look cute and throw on a dress.

"Mm.. You look nice." He wakes up and stares at me up and down.
Thank you.
"Well I'm lucky to not have school."
Mhm be very lucky.

I see him walking closer but I don't pay any attention. I was more focus on putting on my makeup. He wraps his arms around me. Softly kisses my ear.

Stop. I say pulling away.
"What." He says kissing my neck.
Stopp.
"Alright. I'm going back to sleep." He says walking out the bathroom.
Okay. I wanna kiss.
"Nah that's what I was trying to do."
No I know what you was tryna do and it wasn't that. But that's okay.
"Bye."
Bye.
"Hold up." He says before I walk out the door.
What?
"I gotta check you out first." He says looking at me up and down.
Boy stop.
"You don't have to go to school."
I don't have to do a lot of things but I do them.
"Don't get smart."
You finna make me late.
"Alright I guess."
Bye.
"Bye."