I rushed my way towards Mama Cece's residence the moment she told me her bad news. I was crying inside the taxi all through out the way. Kahit anong pilit ko, hindi mag-sink in sa akin ang lahat. Na iyong pinaghirapan kong makuha, iyong kauna-unahang project na pagbibidahan ko sana... wala na. Hindi na sa akin at ibinigay na sa iba.
I can't accept it. I can never accept it.
My chest is flaming with pain the moment I hopped off the taxi. Sa labas ng gate ay sinalubong ako ni Mama Cece na kagaya ko ay may luha sa mga mata. Agad niya akong niyakap. That very moment, I don't what to feel first. Kung kailangan ko bang masaktan o lalong masaktan? Masaktan kasi minsan ko lang makitang ganito si Mama Cece, minsan ko lang siyang makitang umiyak. Lalong masaktan kasi... mukhang kumpirmado na talaga. Na wala na. Wala na ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko. Natapos na ang lahat at 'di ko na muling mababawi pa. On the back of my mind, while I was at the taxi, I am still indennial. Na baka maliit lang na issue 'to. Na baka kaya pa namang solusyunan. But now, it's confirmed. I am doomed. So fucking doomed.
"Sorry, anak," Mama Cece's sobs are now audible, at first, pinipigilan niya ito, "sinubukan ko namang ilaban 'yung mga pinaghirapan natin. I even made sure that I will do everything to fix this mess pero wala na, sinukuan na tayo ng management. Before I can even stop them, they already gave the project to JarHope. Negotiations were made and their managers accepted it just last week. Their shoot is about to begin next week."
The managers accepted the project last week? So... Jarren already know about this? Bakit hindi niya ito sinabi sa akin?
"Anak, the Management also told me one thing that I need to discuss with you inside," Mama Cece continued and then she held my hand. Iginiya niya ako papasok sa loob ng kanyang bahay. The moment we reached the living room, the moment I sat to the sofa, pinisil niya ang kamay ko, "I know you will react negatively by what I am about to request. I know, you will literally go wild because this is against your principles. But believe when I told you that this is for your own sake. We have to do this because your career must survive."
I swallowed hard then just nodded my head slowly.
Ano naman kaya 'yon?
"The management told me to order you to throw Luhan under the bus."
I squinted my eyes. Tila ba isang nakakabinging tunog ang sinabi ni Mama Cece. Agad na nagpantig ang mga tainga ko pero agad rin naman akong kumalma nang pisilin pa lalo ni Mama Cece ang kamay ko.
"The management wants to keep you more than Luhan. They thought your career is more likely to succeed than ever if we chose to throw Luhan out of the picture. And proven and tested na ito sa industriya natin. The female inside a loveteam is more likely to bloom more after they went outside the idea of loveteam."
Huminga ako nang malalim. Luhan is my friend. I can't do such thing to him. Kasi lalo siyang ma-ba-bash ng mga tao. It's like throwing him under the bus right now will just fuel the already massive flame on his career. But what can I do? Saan ako pupulutin kapag wala na akong career. I don't have a family. I'm an orphan. I only have Mama Cece and if ever I will not going to obey her, she will probably leave me alone and I will be left with nothing. With only Jarren. But is he enough?
I breathe deep once more.
"Anak, alam kong mahirap. Alam kong mali. Pero wala tayong magagawa, ito na lang ang mayroon tayo para masalba natin ang career mo."
Huminga ako nang malalim sa huling pagkakataon, matapos ay tumingin ako kay Mama Cece, "alright, I will do that. But please, Mama Cece, hayaan mo po akong i-inform muna si Luhan about this. I will call him."
Mama Cece nodded and that was the moment I grabbed my phone. I went outside then dialed Luhan's contact. I hit the call button and when the first ring came, Luhan initially answered it.
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