Romanoff & Maximoff

Gesture, not love | Nat

Nat pov

I stood up from my bed not being able to sleep. We're currently traveling via shield jet since our mission was on another continent

I made myself a sandwich and grabbed a drink sitting down at one of the chairs when I suddenly heard quiet sniffs...but they were more of heavy breathing.

"Y/n? Are you ok?" I knocked at her door, I didn't get an answer so I let myself in. It was locked but as if I was gonna be stopped by that

She looked at me with puffy red eyes breathing in her mouth. "Oh, honey..." I sighs sitting on her bed removing her hair away from her face, wiping her tears

"What's wrong?" I softly asked being as tender as I can

"J-Just thinking" she mumbled struggling to talk and I could tell how stuffed her nose was from crying

"Do you wanna tell me?"

She shook her head "That's fine" I gave her a reassuring smile before going beside her pulling her in between my arms while she rested her head on my chest, her arms wrapped around my waist

"I'm here...Nat is here" I smiled brushing her hair with my fingers as her hug tightened "It's ok, everything is just the way it's supposed to be," I reassured

"I know it hurts....let it, until it doesn't anymore" I added holding her as tenderly as I could.

I don't know what she's going through but we've been friends for a while and I just know someone triggered her again and that turned to thinking about her life now, her family, and probably her past mistakes.

I held her till she fell asleep and once I felt her grip loosen up I slowly moved away and tucked her by the sheets, giving her a pillow for a hug and wiping her tears for the last time.

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"Oh, morning sweetie. I made you a sandwich" I smiled greeting her in the morning like nothing happened

"Thank you..." she sat down still not in her normal cheerful self. Her eyes were so swollen I was fighting myself from chuckling, she just looked so cute

"Thanks for putting a smiley face on the toast" She looked up at me

"You're welcome, do you want champagne with that or coffee?" I playfully asked

"Champagne?"

"You don't think I'll settle for the coffee right? I sneaked some"

"Fury is gonna kill you" she chuckled

"Oh please, this is our water. It's a necessity" I poured us both

I watched her eat quietly seems like she was still bothered but at least she had a smile on her lips now "Y/n/n?" I called out as she looked at me with those innocent eyes

"Hmm?"

"I'm proud of you" I gave her a pout receiving her smile

"I didn't accomplish anything"

"And? Can't I just be proud that you're here?"

"Nat, if you have a crush on me just tell me, it's probably negotiable" She suddenly says making me roll my eyes

"Sometimes I like you better when you can't talk coz of your stuffed nose"

We started eating together and talking about some stuff back at the HQ and after a while we arrived at the country and the hotel we were supposed to stay in

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Y/N POV

"I'll see you in the morning" I tried going out of Nat's room while she was putting her stuff on the nightstand

"Where are you going?"

"My room?"

"You're sleeping here"

"What?" I asked confused 

"I can't afford you overthinking tonight, we have an important mission tomorrow" she smiled fixing my supposedly side of the bed

"Come on now, don't be stubborn" She chuckled and I just shrugged off my thoughts. She's right, I need proper sleep and that won't happen if I'm all alone in a room

I lay down beside her, my eyes are still heavy on how much crying I had last night. "You want to cuddle?" She asked casually earning my nod

I buried my face on her chest listening to her heart as it calms me down and helps me with my breathing.

"Nat?"

"Hmm?"

"What's the name of that new Avenger everyone was talking about?" I looked up at her but her eyes were already closed

"Uhh....who?"

"I saw her in the HQ last time. Redhead, tall, and wears jackets"

"I don't know, I'm sorry" she mumbled sleepily

Part of me wants to know but I think making her jealous is also one of the reasons I brought it up. I like her, a lot. By the way she's treating me maybe the feeling is mutual

I'm not going to confess tho, I need to be reassured first that she feels the same. My thought process was she's still confused but will realize it if she gets jealous...bad idea but it's worth the shot

"They said she's working with you tho"

"I don't know her name. Go to sleep"

"Ok..."

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The next morning, Nat was already out of bed taking her usual supplements.

"Get ready" she coldly says

I gave her a nod, got out of bed, and took a shower before putting on something casual since our job was to be undercovers

During the mission, she was so quiet and distant and now I'm starting to regret what I asked last night.

We did our job and went back to New York to report as soon as possible. I was trying to talk to her on the jet but she seemed uninterested so I let it go.

"Job well done" Fury was so happy about the outcome of our mission that he gave us both a month of paid rest

I decided that I'd just stay at my apartment for the whole month. I haven't been home and when I'm working It honestly feels like the HQ is my house and just visiting mine

"So...what's your plan?" I broke the silence on the elevator

"Huh?"

"Y'know, for that month"

"Hmm...I'm too exhausted so I'll probably just spend it at my girlfriend's house"

I was flabbergasted "Girlfriend?"

"Yeah, why?"

"You have a girlfriend? I thought you were straight"

"Oh please, men don't deserve me" she cracked a chuckle

"Good to know, enjoy your day off or... month off, I think" I nodded taking a deep breath

"Thank you, you as well. Don't spend that whole month overthinking ok?" She gave me a look

"Yes, ma'am"

"Good, take some rest sweetie" She smiled before leaving the elevator while I watched her walk her wait out.