Straykids One shot book

Insomnia - I cant sleep

Ship: Seungbin
Triggers/Warnings: social anxiety, insomnia

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requested by: 2BLLeo

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Seungmin laid awake. Once again, like the past three years he was awake after not even three hours of sleep. He couldnt go back to sleepbut he still stayed in bed until around two hours later when he started to feel restless. He dressed and freshend up, sighing softly to not wake his dorm mates, Minho, Felix and Jeongin up. He headed out of his room and silently patted downstairs getting himself a glass of water and just sitting at the table, exhausted. About half an hour later he started to prepare breakfast, until a few minutes later Minho came into the kitchen, wantng to do exactly the same.

"Good morning, Seung." He said in his morning voice, shooting the younger boy a tired smile, not fully awake yet. Seungmin smiled back, hiding his fatigue with his blinding smile. "morning Hyung." He said back and like that they silently prepared the breakfast together. "I go and wake Innie and Lix Hyung." He spoke already walking away to wake the sleeping boys, Minho hummed in acknowledgement.

He sighed again, he was tired. Still he woke the two boys up and after they were dressed they came downstaors to eat together, before it was time to head to the long hours of dance practice. Seungmin dreaded it, he could feel the anxiety not just because they had to walk to the comapany, but also because he knew this will be all messed up. With a face mask, cap and the necessary things they all needed thez headed out of the dorm to meet the others at the company.

A few hours past and it went well, but Seungmin could feel his energy vanishing, still he tried to push through... which didnt helped as he started to mess up, his movements were slow and sluggish, he was off beat and then he also bumped into Hyunjin, causen the older boy to lose balance and fall, he froze. The others stopped, turning around to look at what happened. "Hyun, are you okay? What happened?" Chan, the oldest asked, walking up to the two younger boys in worry but slight irritation as he just like Minho saw Seungmins off beat movemnets. Changbin, Seungmins boyfriends, he was mad too, because he nor the others knew about the boys struggles as he kept them hidden away from everyone.

Hyunjin stood up with frown on his face, looking at Seungmin. "Seungmin? What the hell?! What is wrong with you?!" He yelled, Seungmin winced, thinking for an excuse. "I-Im sorry Hyunjin Hyung. My.. I-i.. my vision got blurry!" He said quickly, it caused Hyunjin to soften up, just like the others. "Oh.. Are you feeling okay?" He asked studying Seungmin, he nodded, mumbling hesitantly. "C-can we put a small break in... p-please?.." Chan and Minho looked at each other and nodded, the others were all happy,  but concerned for their member.

Chan and Minho kept an eye on Seungmin and he knew, he sipped on his water bottle trying to get a grip on himself, and for the rest of the practice they didnt scolded him when he messed up. Not after his lie of his vision was blurry. The week continued with hours and hours of practice, and Seungmin messed up every day on another section, so because of him, it went into the night just to get ONE single run through without anyone messing up.

They yelled at him in frustration, scolded him but didnt made the situation better for Seungmin, everytime he lowered his head in shame, while tears welled up in his eyes, but he swallowed them down and just listen. On friday, when they had practice and every racha seperated lessons, Seungmin reached his breaking point, first of all he just slept two and half an hour, he couldnt get any food down nor was his brain functioning correctly.

So when Minho exploded on hm after he messed up again, he broke, he rushed out of the practice room and into the Studio of 3racha, crying his eyes out. It stunned the rest of his group in silence, even Minho was baffled by it. "Did i was to harsh...?" he asked softly, looking at the others, guiltily. "Im not sure... something isnt right with him tho, lets just hope that he calms down at the dorms and we can talk to him later.." Chan said unsure but wanted to calm the rest, Changbin meanwhile sneaked away, trying to figure out where his boyfriend could have run off.