Straykids One shot book

little depressed

Ship: Minho x ot7 (mainly Chan)
Triggers/Warnings: mention of heavy depression, selfharm and one attempt at su!c!de

(⚠️PLEASE DONT READ THIS IF IT MIGHT TRIGGER YOU OR IF YOU CANT HANDLE SUCH HEAVY TOPICS!!⚠️)

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requested by: Skzsquishy

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Lee Minho also know as Leeknow, the main dancer of the famous Kpop group STRAY KIDS. His sharp features and his tsundere personality makes him popular amongst the band itself. But not everything that sparkles is gold. The dancer has apart from his age regression also a big battle against heavy depressions. Ever since they were on a long deserved break the dancer had already a lot of meltdowns and days where the others struggled to get him out of his bed. Chan on the other hand, somehow managed to get him going.

The members were very worried for their Hyung, seeing him like that wasnt easy for the group at all. It broke them, because Minho wasnt smiling, he was barely talking, all he did was zoning out or staring blankly at the wall for HOURS. Chan, being the leader and oldest among the group he always kept him close by, so he could keep an eye on him and prefent further scars on his already scar covered arms and legs.

Just, it wasnt working everytime. Because he cant go with him everywhwre like to use the toilet for example. He knew Minho was using it mostly for an excuse to hurt himself, he knew it. But Chan worried as he was didnt wanted to exactly go and check if he was really using the toilet or not, it felt wrong to him, but today, where he forcefully had to get him out of bed and was with him when he broke down in tears just made his protective instincts kick in, and luckily he did, because when he opened the bathroom door he had to watch in horror as Minho hurted himself again.

"I cant do this anymore, Hyung.. Im s-so sorry..." Minho spoke before Chan could do anything against it.

This time was different, the cuts - deeper then ever, his face was pale and sweaty and he was crying again. Chan just could watch as he dropped lifelessly to the floor, blood seeping out of his arms. Chan couldnt move for a second, until the panic washed over him and he rushed to his member laying on the floor. "MINHO!!" The other members upon hearing Chans panic call rushed to the bathroom, freezing when they saw the scene. "O-oh god.." Changbin said and without thinking he called an ambulance, his words rushed and urgent.

Felix, Hyunjin, Han and Jeongin stood at the side, broken sobs left their lips as Seungmin who stood with them, holding his tears back to be strong for the other boys, tried to calm them down, Changbin after finishing the call rushed back in glancing at the crying members before deciding to help Chan. He grabbed towles and handed one to Chan to stop the excessive bleeding on both arms. "Come on Min, you cant leave me like that." Chan mumbled, tears also welled up in his eyes. 

Soon the sound of the siren of the ambulance could be heard and Seungmin rushed downstairs to let them in, guiding them to the bathroom. The medics quickly went to work, checking Minhos vitals, looking at the cuts on his arms, but also taking notice of the other scars. They urgently discussed the situations, bandaged the cuts tightly before deciding to quickly rush him into the hospital.

The others followed after the medics, got into the van that stood there ad told the driver to drive to the hospital, upon arriving Minho was already in the examination room, doctors and nurses rushing around him, stopping the bleeding before stiching it up and bandaging it and after hours of observations and a transfusion, they gave the green light and transferred him into a normal hospital room, the members quietly shuffled inside, watching him laying there as peaceful as ever. Chan walked closer to the bed, his heart breaking in million tiny pieces, carefully he sat down on the edge of the bed, gently holding onto Minhos hand.

It was dead silent in the room apart from the beeping machines that showed that he was alive. That he was not dead. But the waiting for him to wake up, it felt like an eternity for them until they heard a soft whine coming from him. It made them all freeze because they knew those adorbale whines all too well, but right now, it wasnt a situation they want to put Lino through.

How were they supposed to explain that to a two to three year old child?

Slowly Linos eyes opened and the first thing he saw was his daddy. "Daddy.. Lino ouchie.." He whimpered, and this just broke Chan even more. "Shhh.. shhh. daddy knows.. its okay baby.." Chan said softly, gently stroking his babys face. "Just breathe for daddy okay? Can you be a big boy and take a deep breath for daddy?" Lino nodded and took a deep breath in, his little face concentrated on listening to the instructions his daddy gave him.

It brought a small smile to their faces as they watched him take deep breaths like instructed. "Good boy.. feels better?" He asked, even though he was sure he didn't. Soon Lino shook his head and cried, so Chan carefully scooted closer and picked him up, wrapping the blanket around him carefull not to disturb the machines. "Shhh.. shhh.. its okay... its okay.. you're going to be okay babyboy.. i promise.. daddy promise, okay? Please dont cry, sweetie.." Chan whispered softly, gently rocking Lino back and forth on his lap, stroking his hair softly.  

He didnt knew how long he sat there until Lino was asleep again, but he didnt cared. He knew he was scared and in pain, not understanding why he was in a hospital, nor why he was in pain and Chan didnt knew how to explain to him what was wrong, after all how are you supposed to tell a toddler that it is totally depressed and hurting itself because of reasons they themselves dont even know?

He wanted to keep it to himself as long as he could, as long as he could make Lino fall asleep like that without the little one asking any questions. He could not handle watching him get more scared by everything but he was sure that Lino will ask. The little one always asked, no matter how confusing it was. A few more hours passed, the doctor came in inbetween to talk with the members about maybe seeking professional help for Minho, because they assumed this time it was a su!c!de attempt, the boys nodded, knowing they had to talk to Minho and the company about that.

A little later after the doc left again did Lino stir awake in Chans arms, he looked down with soft eyes, stroking his back to help him wake up more. "There is daddys good boy again, hm? How did you sleep, honey?" Lino yawned cutely and snuggled closer against chans chest, mumbling sleepily. "Lino sweepting gud.." Chan smiled softly, still holding the little boy tenderly in his arms. "Thats good... how are you feeling, hm?" He asked softly, keeping his voice soft and light to not startle the sleepy boy.

He shrugged, his little mind not awake enough to comprehend how he was feeling just yet. "Its okay.. take your time, daddy and your Hyungies are here with you.." He whispered and kissed his forehead gently. "Daddy... why Lino in hotsbitle..?" He questioned softly. Chan smiled at the mispronouncing before he sighed. "Well baby... youre a bit sick..  that pretty head of yours is a little bit sick and... then there happened something which is why you have those ouchies on your arms.. or why you're sometimes just crying, remember? thats all because your sick... your mind is a little sick. Do you understand that, hm?" 

Lino took all the words in, his daddy spoke and even though he was so small, what his daddy said seemed to make sense to him so he nodded softly. "Lino unstand, daddy... Lino icky in head.." He said, and Chan never was so relieved that he could explain it as harmless as possible to not scare the baby further. "Thats right... do you wanna nap again, hm? I think daddys boy is sleepy again.." He spoke fondly watching as he slowly dozed off again.

That was the moment where not just Chan but also the other memebers agreed to protect him from the world as best as they could. But for now the biggest priority was to seek help for Minho so he would get better. And maybe they get those bad depression in check so not just Lino but Minho himself can live a happy life, and those scars... those are just a proof for how strong he was being through all of it.

the end.

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Dont talk to me about that🥹

I did what i had too. Thats what came out with it.

Bye bye.

Tayla♡